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Day 1

There is always a day one. Depression is like that. It kicks you down for a few days, weeks, months.... years?

It’s like that too. You might feel it coming on and you might not. My struggle is with food. I eat food to fill the void. I become self destructive in this way.

It’s Day 1, and I feel like my mind has finally logged back into the chat with the rest of myself.. sort of. As an athlete, a very active person, now I’ve got to get on the train and try and undo 7 days of binge eating. I can do this.. I can keep writing this blog.

Talk Tomorrow.

Josh

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ˇherapist says I need an outlet. She’s right about most things. Suicide has been prevalent lately. I do love Allison - I’m self-sabotaging before I even get to go and see her. She’s what I want, what I’m looking for. Someone to love, someone to love me. Will it go anywhere? I really hope so, cuz I need her and she has no idea. I need to fucking watch myself, and it’s my responsibility to build myself back up in the meantime. God I hope this works.. Then there’s Tucson. Gonna apply and say fuck it. I don’t expect much out of it but why not see? Maybe Allison would go with me. What a selfish thought. She’s so damn pretty. Haven’t seen her in three years. My responsibility to not self destruct. Need her.

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