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[buttafly721]

Networking

Oh no honey bunny, what you read me write is not whats in my head. I write what one wants to read. My head is much more rationally blunt. I'll give you just a little sample...

I want my cut, from all that i have made rich. That goes for you too witch bitch that got rich on burning the picture they gave you of me for who knows how much...

Things are in my head because of my life experiences.

Only for a moment... I practice not to live for the past. Point is my head betrays me sometimes and waste my precious time...

[buttafly721]

Ten years

No I don't like this... Winter without body heat? I don't think I can do this.

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Thoughts of a mad lady

Sensationalistic behavior... best left to the single, childless adults...so why am I getting bad attitudes, stoned and reprimanded.

[buttafly721]

Too many at one time

One that is awful for me is begging to be... one I desire is a liar... one I begged to see just ONE more time is closest. Then the strangers that say " you will always have a broken heart because you're not with me."... are you sure he's going to see me through the crowd?

Answer: That's how he will know it's you. #fightthecrowd #distinguished

[buttafly721]

I am horrible

I just wanted him out… i hated to see him wiggle and die. When i seen his body seperated from his tail i was disgusted with myself. I killed by accident because i didnt want him in my house.

[buttafly721]

Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today.

James dean

[buttafly721]

I will get down there and blow the shit!

Laura hogan

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I had nothing else to feed them. Dont judge me...

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Soulful, real life shit.

[buttafly721]

How do i do this

How do i pack up my life? How do i return to a city i hate? How do i leave my peace and quiet? How do i live in a environment that hates me for trying to make it a little more positive? How do i fool my Moms into thinking i want this? Grace of God.

[buttafly721]

Addictions

Writing the last post triggered this one. I am addicted to everything in my life. I can control most. And the harmful ones i can stay clear of. They are quickly admitted. The pussy ones get me stuck!

[buttafly721]

No T.V.

There are less things to talk about when im talking to friends. I make people answer real life questions. Oops, society is not having it. How dare me ask so what else do you do besides watch t.v or ask who are they taking about? Im suppose to know true blood characters and names of shows that if i did watch i wont move my ass for hrs.

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No T.V.

No t.v. in months, i know nothing of whos who, i sometimes dont even know the name of the person that sings my favorite song. I know some celebraties because of my past. Some brain washed into my head, most because of their greatness. Talent and skill are rarely found now a days. I am famous. I am who matters. I turn me on, i say whos sexy, i say what and who i want to know about. Even if i dont know their name.

[buttafly721]

Being singled

Havent been singled for ten um yrs. When did single start meaning magnet for married men.

[buttafly721]

Moving,Again.

Every other time i moved to another state i had no warning. It was just a pick up and leave thing. This time its different. I actually have time to decide what stays and what goes. The cruelty of packing the right way.

[valerie2776]

It had something to do with paying attention and the ability to choose what I paid attention to, and to be aware of that choice, the fact that it’s a choice … I think that deep down I knew that there was more to my life and to myself than just the ordinary psychological impulses for pleasure and vanity that I let drive me. That there were depths to me that were not bullshit or childish but profound, and were not abstract but actually much realer than my clothes or self-image, and that blazed in an almost sacred way—I’m being serious; I’m not just trying to make it sound more dramatic than it was—and that these realest, most profound parts of me involved not drives or appetites but simple attention, awareness.

David Foster Wallace, The Pale King (via fullhearts)

[buttafly721]

Hung over and so not wit it

Yestersdays makeup, side curls, shorts and tank top. See busmates pointing and staring. Keeping my distance. One finds himself walking up to say..."u working today?" Me: why else would i be here? Him: "Idk to go to the park." Yeah AT SIX IN THE MORNING! After two more awkward questions he turns and walks back to the guy that pointed me out and they giggle and return to staring. And this is florida, home of the girls in shorts and tanks...