oxana☕️🪽

block don't report, this is my diary and safe place, dont make it worse.

[c0ttonbunny]

guys i HATEEE to say it but i can confirm the key to looking better is cutting out sugar. ive been consuming very little sugar since august started and my face looks sm limmer cleaner and literally so much healthier even thought my diet is not.

[c0ttonbunny]

i love shrimp its so low cal and SO yummy im like a seagull for shrimp im having it tmrw yay

[c0ttonbunny]

⋆ . ࿔ ˚ wiat

total= 470c

lidl bakery will be the end of me

[c0ttonbunny]

does anyone elses mouth and toungue hurt when they eat after a long fast/ eating very little? its so annoying its like my mouth muscles got used to staying still

[c0ttonbunny]

you can just tell some bitches here are from edtt

[c0ttonbunny]

the things daddy issues will do to a mf

[c0ttonbunny]

my trust issues have gotten so bad with calories. i cant eat anything anyone else makes cs idk the exact number in it and im scared they used oil, im only able to eat packaged food or stuff that i know and im still convinced the labels are lying and theres more cals that i know of. i barely trust a can of coke zero omfg i hate this

[c0ttonbunny]

i hate when i have black coffee to reduce hunger and now i have heart palpitations like bro

[sweettoothaddict]

doing your makeup half naked with your fav music is so therapeutic and good for your soul

[c0ttonbunny]

its fun at first when you start losing weight and your clothes get bigger but now my shorts be falling off my ahh and i dont have money to get new ones

[c0ttonbunny]

lowk im finding it easier to eat smaller meals throughout the day rather than a 500€ omad so i might continue doing that

[c0ttonbunny]

ᨳ𐔌՞҂ ˕ ֊՞𐦯ᜊ little snack

total= 115

toast slice- 70

2 spoonfuls cottage cheese- 40

3 blackberries- 5

[c0ttonbunny]

i hate depression with all my heart. theres nothing i enjoy anymore, nothing that i want and nothing i see a point in. i hate existing i hate being awake everything is so draining. its eating me alive and i can't escape it

[c0ttonbunny]

tw bс

10 days difference

[c0ttonbunny]

₊˚⊹ ᰔ🧁⋆˚࿔ some foods I'll reward myself with only after i hit my ugw!!

𑣲⋆ nutella toast 🍫 i haven't had this since i was a kid and i always crave it!

𑣲⋆ a whole pizza🍕 where i'm from its normal to get a whole pizza for yourself as they aren't that high in €, but i always feel guilty so i dont have them anymore.

𑣲⋆ buldak ramen 🍜 (the big cup!) i loveeee buldak and ill reward myself with a carbonara bowl!

𑣲⋆ rice bowl🍚 plain white rice is one of my comfort foods, but again, haven't had it in a long time for the cals. so a bowl with chicken nuggets and some egg sounds so yum!!

𑣲⋆ gyoza dumplings🥟 i actually have never tried these and they look so good, so i see it as a new food reward for my goal!

𑣲⋆ a sushi box🍣 sushi is my fav food ever! but a whole box goes over my limit, so ill only have it when i eat at maintenance!

⊹ ࣪ ˖ ໒꒱ that's it!! although it will prob take some time to have the courage to eat these, this reminds me that food will still be there after i hit my goal, and it can be a reward rather than a binge risk!

[c0ttonbunny]

i often feel so invalid for having a low sw and being deemed skinny all my life. i know i have it easy and i dont have to put that much effort in but no matter how uw i get i'll always see myself as fat.

[c0ttonbunny]

⭐️ving will NOT let you have a good rest. i struggle so much to fall asleep all the time, and melatonin doesnt even work omfg i just wanna skip to the next day already