The Frame

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so new year has been arrived; 2021 has been come.. and with that, i still remember old memories when on 15th jan. 2020 i uninstalled my whatsapp... and a lot of things were going on in pooja's life either... Tushar called her 'Characterless' .. n all on which she had loosen her cool...

... every year is the best year; helps everyone learn something new so never curse on something or anything that's just passed away - an year.

it's 1st jan, 2021 - time: 5.36pm, i just woke up and checked Facebook on website, an app had i already uninstalled this morning before sleeping. and when i checked through website, i saw pooja had called me on 28th nov. 2020 and did tryna call me either..

since i had turned off all notifications of fb, i couldn't even get to know she called me or had sent across a msg... and now on which i feel like: "things happen for a reason, and it's good i couldn't get to know about her msg (which she did unsent later), and called me... cos if i would, i would again slipped back to past; the darkness of her infatuated love which was never made in real.

happy new year to pooja and to her family. i am writing / typing it here, n if someday she ever gets to read these journals which i am writing for her, she might realize how much i miss &/or missed her every day.

the last text & call were done in July, 2020 when she was out somewhere for shopping, and i still remember, it was raining and she was about to buy am umbrella. i asked her to send me across some pics. n videos of hers; of the rain 🌧️ falling in Malaysia which she never sent, i know.

she booked a cab.. n we never talked again. and om 1/1/21 i saw, she called me & texted me on 11/28/20 which i could never got to know about. such a sweet unidentified enigma!!

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today, it's 21st Dec. 2020 - here i am again back to writing... though too many things have already been changed. i had almost forgotten about tumblr but suddenly outta nowhere i recalled & missed Pooja this morn very badly which got me hoped into this site again absolutely after a very long time...

... pooja n i have no contact anymore since last few months neither have i tried to text/call her nor has she even thought for once tryna contact me so i guess, it's a fair deal. there's no connection in between her & i... which i realized very later. even still the more i think of her, the more i feel myself way disturbed. and this has been another reason why i now prefer not to be in her touch... anymore.

it was just a leaf of infatuation which led me to nowhere but she never cared of me... and is even living her life very purposefully. she has her own mindset n a will to move beyond success which i adore about her but sometimes more than success, one needs to think about people who think of you all time.

nevermind, this is all unnecessary stuffs. without success, you have ur no Identity. so she's right on her side... and am i on mine. i chose not to bow down to anyone neither do i run after anyone for something. i have my own self respect which i prefer to keep.

pooja was just like other gurls who came in my life for some time; allured me mentally and then gone lost somewhere to another world just like other gurls. and good thing is, she has just made the A list!

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And today, it's September 20th, 2020 - another late night nostalgia of her memories. 11.46PM... n another attack of her sweeten memories come strike into my head.. leaving me half abondoned deep inside. it has been so many months... even hey, it's gonna be an year next month when pooja put divorce to her husband...

... i still remember the morn, or the night of 14th October, 2019 when she was coming back from Malaysia to India... cos her mother in law was in serious condition... though before she could reach, her mother in law passed away... this is what made pooja resigning off her job n coming back to India...

... sonam, one of the indian gurls she met in Malaysia who helped her during her trying times n never let her feel alone.. even in an unknown city..

... tonight, i m feeling alone.. n missing her again. do wanna whatsapp her; talk to her.. but damn! i am not able to find anymore courage to leave her a text :-(

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8.15am -

25th jan, 2020 --- been prolly 20 days when pooja had be blocked on 5th jan, 2020. today, i am missing her allot. picked my phone to text her but couldn't do,my heart didn't allow this time. something is seemed to be broken and missing which, i am finding, very hard to recover. guess, pooja has been lost somewhere into my Dreamland, and has become someone else's dream in reality. how sad and unfortunate!! love you, hotchick!! u will be in my heart always! #Memories #MissingYou #Comeback #Tears

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what i had presumed in January/2020 has seemed to come true in April/2020. she has become someone else's sparrow now. a guy from mumbai named Amit, working w/ Oracle, in Malaysia has stole her from me or may be, i had never found #GoldenSparrow. she's dating him since day one & now she's even resided to his apartment, Petalz Residences, on 15 April. they both living in... "Living Relationship" now... which further had me more shattered deep inside thinking all of her sleeping with him & getting fucked overnight. how unfortunate and remorseful, perhaps, I can't do anything cos... it's her life, and putting obstructions on her freedom will make no difference b/w me and her ex {Tushar}. so i guess, i shan't bother her anymore. she doesn't need me; has found her someone else. so i wish her a happy life ahead but the truth is, she will be missed and remembered for life!! #GoldenSparrow

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and it's April/30/2020 - how fast the time has gone. sometimes, when i am alone and quiet or just laying on bed under dark lights, i am like: "and in the end, what matters is you, your health & your life."

3.45am -

i know the death is inevitable, though as long as it doesn't come, try to live throughout this world... bcoz #rejection may give you one more chance to beloved again, perhaps, the death will not... to live again. #MissYouGoldenSparrow

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missed her allot the whole day when i watched and listened to this song. i urged to leave her a text and ask how's she, but something stopped me. pooja is not the one i used to know a long back in 2018, she has been changed; has found her new love, a lover from Mumbai with whom she's been dating since she moved to #Malaysia.

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1.03am -

29th jan, 2020 - Wednesday

saw her in dreams again. we both craved to talk but something stopped and pooja appeared more like a stranger which further hurt the feels most. before her appearance had my heart shattered in dreams, i woke up & a drop of tear slipped down from my eyes. #Memories #Hotchick #GoldenSparrow

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missing #hotchick #goldensprarrow again this morn. it's 7.23am - and haven't slept whole night. hard to get over her memories. wish she comes back! someday! :'(

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8.15am -

25th jan, 2020 --- been prolly 20 days when pooja had be blocked on 5th jan, 2020. today, i am missing her allot. picked my phone to text her but couldn't do,my heart didn't allow this time. something is seemed to be broken and missing which, i am finding, very hard to recover. guess, pooja has been lost somewhere into my Dreamland, and has become someone else's dream in reality. how sad and unfortunate!! love you, hotchick!! u will be in my heart always! #Memories #MissingYou #Comeback #Tears

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#Hotchick #GoldenSparrowMemories

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happy 2020 pooja

happy new year, pooja. wishing her a fruitful life ahead - stay blessed and happy. wish i could make a call to her, but i am helpless!

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her silence

2.55pm

31st, dec. 2019

sometimes, it's not words but her silence is enough to have men killed. the absenteeism of her essence in life makes more damage than rewinding the pearlstones of past on mind.

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hotchick has gone

the feelings that i have for pooja shall never go disposed. she's all gone by now, but i will keep her with me continued in my novels. after all, people come and go, perhaps, their memories become a reason u live by, half dead, though. u will be in my heart. always. forever.

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changed password

every brand new gurl i met in life has become another mistake of my life.

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just changed my password. hope pooja is not gonna check out any of my stuff anymore. i don't wanna be the reason to stop her grow up in life, and move on. her heart is somewhere else, so i shan't be the reason to pull her back, and forcing her to love me. love is something that happens itself. it's feelings that u have for someone, no matter whether ur partner/lover treats u right or not. pooja has never been treated right but still her heart belongs to the guy who used to use her & beat her. i tried my best to keep her happy, and help her move on, but as i am running outta luck, nothing seems to be coming into my favor, so mh every new step might become every closer mistake to her heart. so i chose to not bother her anymore, but i will be stalking her... if we don't talk... doesn't mean... i won't stalk. it was the love from my side not from her. she's clean and fine. blaming her for something that she has nothing to do with would be very inappropriate, perhaps what all i resonate from the time i spent with her on chats and calls is - "whether in love or not in love, one shall never run after thy fate in life. let destiny make its remarks. tears are only u have in ur eyes u can waste whole night with, and that's what i am doing. happy new year, pooja. may god fill ur life with anew journey of success and love with someone u love the most.