it's not often edna reveals much about herself——especially to someone whom she's met only once, and is still meeting them only once——but whenever it came to other people, she's always been attentive to a degree. she doesn't talk much in general, but that was mainly out of a) disinterest, because only zaveid ever dropped by back then, and b) it's not like humans can hear her anyway when they leave behind offerings. it was mundane and boring, but it was better than associating herself with those who bred malevolence into their hearts over stupid, greedy things. this man, though: there is a calm, peaceful solemnity about him. she'd planned to avoid him at first, because he must've been like the rest, but she ended up reclining upon finding out he has a sister. edna values family, and she knows she gets softer around those with siblings of their own; her whole life is steadied by a single familial bond that matters like the world to her, after all. from one sibling to another, she could spare some of her attention.
he doesn't seem to belittle her in any way and has been nothing but polite, if not awkward. onii-chan was, mainly, a dork in edna's nostalgic eyes: he gushed over her like she was worth more than his own valued trinkets; he made little sacrifices for her so that she can have anything she asked of him, even at his own expense; he liked rambling about old things from history that she hardly cared about. this man and onii-chan couldn't be more different——and yet, still, here they are. she hardly knows a thing about him, but there is already this shared understanding——an agreement——that siblings are each other's anchors, and that it'll be because of this connection that will keep the other close no matter what. he keeps his sister in his heart while edna keeps onii-chan in her memories.
normally, she'd tell them off if someone gives her pity for her situation. she does not want sympathy; she does not need sympathy. that only leads to vulnerability, and it makes you easier to crumble. edna hates those moments so much, all the times she's broke because it was hard to keep it together. she isn't interested in letting the world know her pain, because this pain is only hers——but when it came from someone who has a sibling of his own, edna felt more understood than mad this time. she didn't even actually say onii-chan is gone that way, but he understood it all the same.
❛ it's fine, he's been dead for a while now, ❜ she gruffly replies, though she's not quite sure herself because being a seraph means having a different sense of time. it will always hurt, but there's no point in constantly skirting around the topic, especially since she'll live for a very, very long time. someday, she'll lose rose and alisha too——because those two are humans, and she'll have to learn how to live with that too. maybe that's the real reason why sorey and mikleo's dream is facing a tough progression: seraphim and humans coexisting would result in more despair for the seraph from knowing that their human companions will someday perish, either by incident or by a natural death. looking at it this way, not even seraphim are safe from loss. the world is sad. ❛ besides, i know i can't mourn forever. ❜
it's not like mourning can bring him back anyway.
❛ ... you're welcome, ❜ she eventually says, slowly. the moment is starting to grow too sentimental for her liking, but being someone who absolutely understands distance between a sibling, edna has no real motivation to tell him off for being sappy. her only consolation is that no one else saw, but she grimaces, starting to feel awkward. ❛ all right, i get it. you're thankful. with how sappy you are, i can tell your sister would have her hands full dealing with you if she were here. ❜ the jab is more out of embarrassment than genuine hostility, but she means it! imagine dealing with so much sappiness all the time! her heart goes out to his sister. little sisters have it so rough.
she has never once doubted that onii-chan didn't love her. he left because he loved her. never was there a moment she didn't believed in that; their memories together mean too much to her to be nothing. she loves him too: how edna reciprocates is by accepting his letters, keeping his gifts, and waiting for him. there was no need to reiterate that, especially by a stranger with wings who cries and is a huge sap! the audacity! he's even sappier than meebo! MEEBO!
this is why she embarrassedly retorts, ❛ with how much you're preaching, it's impossible for your sister to not think of you anyway! you shouldn't even be lamenting about it. ❜ it's totally not to cheer him up, so she hopes he doesn't get the wrong idea! it's just too much trouble if he continues crying like that! she's just restoring balance and order! ❛ with how sappy you are, you should be called winsa. winged sap. ❜
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