cailligraphy

art by cailin mary

[cailligraphy]

see me.

i’m so done

because all everyone around me sees

are the smiles on the outside.

broken thoughts

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no one cares so neither should i.

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liars.

no one wants to help you.

they just want to feel special

that you turned to them.

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what's the point when no one cares what's the point when everyone wants you to fail.

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a new chapter

i do everything wrong

according to everyone.

broken thoughts

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his touch was a taste of home a warmth of a fire a spark in my heart. his touch was true pure and loving. his touch made me want him even more. and it was just the touch of his hand.

broken thoughts

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i'm not okay. and i haven't been for a long time.

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finding.

i found him

and with him

came the happiness

that i so longed for.

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changes.

BEFORE

i couldn’t wait to leave for college.

NOW

i can’t find a single reason

not to stay.

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take it in stride and take it with ease.

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fall slowly. so then you'll know if you were ever really falling.

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don't grant him his wish when all he does is take you for granted.

what i wish i had known.

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she fell for him but he didn't hear so she fell for nothing.

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on night.

sometimes at night,

when only the moon is awake,

and the stars are shining

on my sorrows,

i wrap myself in a warmth

so familiar

so false.

a sensation

a feeling

an image

a wish

that i’m holding you

and i’m not so lonely.

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i'm trying to listen to my heart but i'm afraid  i can't hear it

it’s not telling me what i want to hear. 

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i found my family

in foreign territories

places i never knew i would ever know.

people i never knew i would ever know.

and i can finally breathe.

after a long day of toiling in the sun.

i can finally breathe.

because at night i talk to you

and i feel at home.

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sweet dreams

i’m awake in the depth of the night.

i feel the silk of the sheets against my smooth skin.

the glowing of my virtual life lighting up the room.

speaking to the person who doesn’t sleep at night.

like a vampire.

– broken thoughts