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[caiuscassiuss]

you don't have to answer or entertain this ask but... i've been a huge fan of your work oppa! since 2020 or 21... i completely respect the fact that you're busy and probably won't be able to finish the work so if you have the time and are willing, could you tell us what the story was supposed to be like? or at least spoil the basic idea?

because i've been living in suspense with questions for almost 5 years... like why did jungkook get so pissed when he first found out y/n was his new stepsister? why doesn't yoongi play piano anymore? did taehyung know y/n from daegu when they were kids? etc etc...

i love your writing style and have been a fan of brothers conflict since it was the first anime i ever saw... thank you for introducing your amazing work to us all...!

hi love! no worries i'd actually love to talk about what i had planned for that story.

why did jungkook get so pissed when he first found out? it's based on yusuke's reaction to the mc in the original manga/anime brother's conflict! yusuke, the mc's classmate, has a huge crush on her and then finds out she's his new stepsister. understandably, he's super distressed about it. tldr: jungkook is emotionally constipated in the way only young 20 year olds can be LOL

why doesn't yoongi play piano anymore? hmmm i think it was because he cracked under the pressure of attending an overseas music conservatory/ the pressure of the elders of the family. he wanted to rebel against them and started producing the music he really wanted to make, staying away from classical music completely.

did taehyung know y/n from daegu? Yes! huge plotline is that taehyung and y/n were childhood besties and he promised to marry her when he was older.

i had a bunch of arcs planned, like going to the elder's compound etc etc. i was so supposed to delve deeper into y/n's choice of career and do a crisis operator scene but i was scared that it would be too intense/too triggering for some people and that i wouldn't be able to write it adequately. i wrote a good part of chapter 12 but i'm not really sure if i'll ever release it. i lost the planning doc for it tbh LOL

but y'know, i might pick up writing it again— you never know if i ever get inspired! but at the moment, i'm not super into k-pop or even bts because life is just ,, alot,,, right now and i'm writing for other fandoms. thanks for dropping by love!!

[caiuscassiuss]

hi babe!!! i hope you’re doing well and enjoying life! i come back to read your fics on a regular basis hahaha wanted you to know that your fics spark a lot of joy <3<3 cheers to surviving college together xx

hi love!!! i am, thank you so much <333 im so so glad to hear that! i'm almost done with undergrad, just one more year to go for my masters lol

[caiuscassiuss]

hii first of all happy new year!! i just wanna say how important ur writing was for me in early 2020 it is so intense and comforting at the same time i really appreciated and now reading again its just make me happy and my heart warm, really hope u okay and having a nice life :)

hey thank you so much for dropping by! im sorry it took so long to answer but my heart feels so so full reading this message. its been like,,, 5 years (CRAZY) since i've written nct fanfiction and it's lovely to hear that it brought comfort to you as much as it did to me. i'm doing great! just got into my masters, in a steady relationship, generally having a great time. thank you!!!

[caiuscassiuss]

hi! i just wanted to say that i adore your writing!! tbh homecoming is still a very iconic queen to me (even though it’s been years lmao) and i hope you’re doing great 💕

hi thank you!!! i really appreciate this and you even after all these years 🥲

[caiuscassiuss]

Hi, how are you? Just wanna drop by your blog to see if you're back yet... So many good authors left Tumblr and it made me sad😭

I first know you from the Oppa fic on AO3, then I found out in Tumblr there are more chapters of Oppa than in AO3

Hi! I'm doing well, thank you for asking anon :) i'm not exactly back, just dropping by and answering my asks lol. I got sososo busy I can't write much anymore, but thank you for looking out for me :)

[caiuscassiuss]

your work is so wonderful, thank you for sharing some little pieces of your mind with us!! i hope college is going well for you and that you’re able to find some fun and good times even with the stress of it all. stay well!

thank you anon!! it's really nice to peek back on here and see people still wanna interact with me, even 5 years later :'). this is such a stressful semester BUT i'm studying abroad next semester!! so i'm looking forward to that. love you anon <333

[caiuscassiuss]

Popping out of retirement just to say NCT on killing voice made me miss my K-pop days. I honestly cried watching it, because it brought back so much nostalgia and memories- esp Back 2 U. It’s such a pleasure to hear how much the members, especially the vocal line’s voices have matured. It’s beautiful to hear them play with the songs and actually have fun singing their songs. Sorry bye bye love y’all

[caiuscassiuss]

girl omg how are you. i saw the pics you’re THRIVING i love how you went full circle from our first convos on here😭 hope uni is going well and you’re doing okayyy love you girl and your amazing stories (btw this is odentist/yuri i changed my url)

OMG HI BABE!! I’ve missed u so much omg, how are you?? Ahaha yes I am doing so much better compared to last semester, I’ve just felt at peace and am in a much healthier relationship. I hope you’re doing well too abroad!!

[caiuscassiuss]

I just finished Whiplash and I am SHOOK. Loved it!

hi anon, i'm so glad you enjoyed whiplash!! thank you for dropping this cute message in my inbox, i thrive off of this <333

[caiuscassiuss]

i felt the need to leave a message because the amount of times ive read this fic and was just left completely astonished... i can't count how many times i read your taehyung fic 'tease'. it's just like that good, im honestly really speechless. everytime i read it, it feels like my first time reading it and i feel butterflies and shit in my stomach 😭 your writing is incredible along with your other fics and i wanna thank you for your amazing writings that ill never get tired of. have a great rest of your day! 💗

hiiii anon, sorry it took so long for me to respond!! i'm so glad you enjoyed tease so much and that's it been with you all this time. i had butterflies writing it so i'm happy it translated well ahahaha but anyways thank you for supporting me and leaving me this lovely message in my inbox <3333

[caiuscassiuss]

I would just like to say thank you for being one of the first nct smut blogs I stumbled upon in tumblr. Homecoming made crazy and I loved it. I love all your works honestly. Hope your doing well!

hi anon, sorry i took so long to respond!! i'm so glad to have been one of the blogs that introduced you to this amazing side of tumblr and gosh, wow, i wrote homecoming 3 years ago and it's still crazy to me people still like it. thank you for this lovely comment anon and i hope you're staying safe and happy <333

[caiuscassiuss]

heyy! i’ve been trying to find this strangers to lovers (angst, smut, fluff) jaehyun fic and was wondering if you’ve came across it! it begins with him and the reader having an one night stand; bumping into one another again over dinner as johnny is her business partner and he’s jaehyun best friend. they start to develop a rs and she has a scented soap she uses/leaves over at his place when she stays over during the weekend.

(cont.) as the story progresses, things happened between them and they’re no longer together. but one day, johnny happened to mention to the reader that jaehyun smells like her and she realizes it’s because he was still using her soap whereas it’s been months since they broke up. she finally decides to give their rs a chance again just as jaehyun was about to give up hope of them getting back together 🥺

hi anon!! i'm so sorry, i'm not sure what this fic is :(( perhaps one of my lovely followers can answer this??

[caiuscassiuss]

Heylo there~ how's college life? How are you doing?

I wanna ask... Will you continue the Oppa fic?

hiiii college life is going well!! it's been pretty crazy after i joined an asian sorority, so i have a bf now which is kinda crazy???

i do not know if i will the oppa fic, but the outline is still there. if i were to continue it, you will not see it updated for a long time. thanks for dropping by anon!!

[caiuscassiuss]

This college experience,,, Jesus Christ

[caiuscassiuss]

Screaming and crying college is so fun

[domjaehyun]

hiiiii! i was wondering if you could suggest/recommend some of your favorite johnny smuts/fics? thank youuuu! i’ve been really struggling looking for some 😓

hiii!! this list is not recent at all bc . i don’t read for johnny anymore if at all but!!

anything abt johnny by @smileysuh !! (this is. pretty recent so i feel like this should carry a lot of weight jsjfjsjd i don’t think y’all have any idea how hard it is to get me…to have Feelings…for johnny. but i have read virtually every johnny fic nova’s posted and was not let down ONCE)

homecoming by @caiuscassiuss !! (this is like . one of my favorite stories of all time it is so well written and so perfectly paced and tbh i did not check when making this post to see if it’s still up or not but . if it’s not there anymore i think i will mourn sjfjsjdjd)

tbh that is . all i can think of i’m v sorry sjfjskd i really don’t read for johnny like at all i never go looking for his fics but i’ve read abt him from writers i already trust yknow?

[caiuscassiuss]

ALSJJDJ pls the way one of authors of my fav fics recommended homecoming 🥺🥺🥺 sending you love and yes it’s still up!!

[caiuscassiuss]

This college experience,,, Jesus Christ

[caiuscassiuss]

is birched ever going to get a part 3? or is it meant to be on that cliffhanger? honestly I kinda want to see the angst that’ll go into a part 3 but idk i was just wondering

Hey anon! Unfortunately Birched is finished and is meant to be left on that cliffhanger ahahaha however I’d like to think after much struggle and tears that sicheng and y/n would end up together, but stronger? They’d probably end up leaving the company