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This jacket gives me so many '90s vibes 😍

I need to rant.

So you know when you're friends with people and you guys are so close and you feel like everything is right and they'll always stand by your side no matter what happens? But then suddenly those friends drop you like you're last years trend and just start doing things without you. Like hanging out, posting pictures on Instagram, with captions like 'my girls' and stuff and you're not in them. You try to ask them what you've done wrong and how you can fix it, but they say nothing and brush you off, but say they still care. Then you try and try and try to fix things and make them how they were, and it just doesn't work. So then you try to act like you don't even give a shit, you don't care that you're never in their snapchats or their instagrams or going on fun adventures with them, you just want to be happy so you try not to worry about them, or if they're talking shit about you.. But you do care, you want to be included, but you don't want to speak up and seem pathetic. This has happened to me multiple times, and I can't help but think to myself "what's wrong with me?". I just constantly feel like a bad person, because they make it seem like I'm a bad person. They make it seem like it's terrible to be around me. I try to think positive thoughts and tell myself I'm a good person... But I can't help but wonder why this always happens to me.. It makes me hate myself. And that's a terrible feeling to live with.. But what am I supposed to do? People change I guess, it just breaks me every time before I am strong enough to move on.. Rant over.