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about the sims and something else

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I was thinking about my favorite queer characters. About how only one of them was able to find happiness with the person they loved.

A queer person deserves not only self-acceptance and self-love, but also to be loved by the person they love.

Happy Pride Month!!!🏳️‍🌈

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...because queer love and sex aren't a fetish

Happy Pride Month!!!🏳️‍🌈

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Oh, the first illustration I’ve seen of this wonderful fanfic, besides the incredibly talented Kidovna (X/twitter). It’s beautiful!!!

It’s Will at the Eisner Awards—that image Mike searches for on Yahoo every time he finishes chatting with Will. If he lived alone, he would have printed it out by now, I’m sure.

I'm also sure Will must have a ton of nerdy guys looking up to him and crushing on him.

I love that this fanfic is getting the attention it deserves.

These wonderful edited images are by @catinnoodles (X/Twitter)

lol, this is tragicomic.

Wow, it looks like Mike has Will's painting in his study or at his office.

The next chapter won't be out for maybe another three weeks. But they'll finally see each other after five years of being apart and three since the last time they met in person! The author will write the reunion in traditional prose, and I actually like that decision. I want to know everything—absolutely everything.

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Oh wait, Mike didn't clear his Yahoo search history!!!

Okay, that's it for the spam about this fic. For now...

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ok. My account looks like a fanfic review site now. But since I can't play the sims 3 for more than 20 minutes because it keeps crashing, this is what's occupying my mind right now.

I’m in love with you, do you think it shows? by apateangle

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A new chapter of the fanfic about Mike with amnesia has been released, and it looks like there will be 15 chapters instead of 14. I love it. It’s a really beautiful chapter. I love it when they portray Will and Mike’s relationship in such a wholesome, sweet, and respectful way.

I’ve come across several illustrations for this fanfic, and fuck, they’re beautiful.

MaryamYukki (X/twitter)

chapter 8

“Shut up,” he murmured, glancing back down as he tightened the knot. “You used to do it for me, remember?”

@bylercleradin7 (X/twitter)

chapter 13 <3

eskabalbes (X/twitter)

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I don't think I've ever taken this many screenshots from a fanfic before. This has me more obsessed than the sims 3, seriously.

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Will is so sweet, kind, empathetic, and selfless. This opens a door of hope for him, but even so, he doesn't seek to benefit himself.

Mike's unsent emails.

this fanfic is going to consume my life.

That was the last casual relationship Will had, and honestly, I seriously wonder how that guy didn't want to hold him if Will is that adorable😔

Mike: 'Will's ideal guy would be...' Also Mike: proceeds to describe himself.

Damn. This is wrong, but I like it :,v

eeeew they're ridiculously cute

Aww, Mike talks so sweetly about Will with his therapist.

Honestly, after this chapter and his second individual therapy session, I see Mike as more relaxed, more at ease. I mean, he feels guilty and all that, but somehow he’s being himself and not forcing himself to do things he doesn’t want to do. Although, of course, he’ll hurt people in the process, and he’s lying more and more.

I know that once they cross that invisible line, Will is the one who’ll feel the worst. I know the fanfic is written from Mike’s perspective, so we know almost all of his thoughts. But Will... he’s going to get what he’s always wanted, but the cost will be high, and he’s going to suffer a lot, and he’s going to feel terrible about himself😣

***I will never, ever tire of praising the author for this. Her work is so thorough. I don’t know if she’s a psychologist or a psychiatrist, but her medical notes feel very real. The way she portrays Mike and Will is so real. Their interactions through chats, emails, and now phone calls feel so authentic. I’m in awe of this girl’s mind. I hope she never stops writing, and I hope that if she ever pursues it professionally, she has all the success in the world❤️

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@oharashusband (X/twitter)

"...I don't think forcing yourself to stay miserable forever is automatically noble just because it hurts you instead of somebody else"

New chapter of How to Disappear Completely!!!

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And well, I can't help but wonder how Will must be feeling about all this. Imagine if your best friend from childhood—the love of your life, who's been with a woman for ten years and married to her for three—told you that he might be attracted to men. Waaaa

fuck...

This fanfic is consuming so much of my brain that it leaves me speechless.

Take a shot every time Mike looks up pictures of Will at the Eisner Awards.

He's looking for Pokémon cards aaaww!

And wow, he's actually thinking about going to see him.

omg. Look, I really, really feel bad for Maggie, but selfishly, I want Will to be happy on his birthday—and forever :/

***I feel like I don't have much to say about this chapter, but I'm just so lost in my own thoughts that I don't know what to say.

Because on one hand, I feel bad for Maggie—really bad—but on the other, I love the dynamic between Will and Mike. They're so cute, nerdy, sweet, and understanding with each other. They have a healthy bond.

Mike and Maggie do have a nice connection, but I think it’s more platonic—they could be good friends.

The cheating is inevitable, and that makes me both sad and happy.

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~~~old :(

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***I don't have the image credits; someone sent it to me. But of course, I'll give full credit where it's due***

I really love the Byler fandom. I think I’ve met some of the most talented, creative, and intelligent people out there. But over time, I’ve realized that the fandom is divided, and there are things I simply don’t agree with.

There’s a group that supports Mike much more than Will, which in itself isn’t a problem. We all have favorite characters. The problem, at least for me, is when that support comes with putting Will down. I’ve seen it in posts, in edits, but mostly in fanfics.

Mike has all the narrative freedom in the world to be hurtful, self-centered, aggressive, even a jerk, while Will has to forgive him, understand him, and comfort him, because he’s the good guy, the sweet one, the kind one. Haven’t I seen this before? *coughcoughstraightmoviescoughcough*.

I recently came across a fic with an interesting premise that started off well, until Mike insults Will out of jealousy, literally calling him a slut—and not just in that context, but in others as well. He mocks him. The classic cliché of the fuckboy who hides his feelings behind cruelty because he’s afraid. And what does Will do? He tolerates it, understands it, and comforts him. I've come across this dynamic in almost every alternate universe story I've read, where Mike is the confident bad boy with issues and Will is the insecure nice guy who will heal him with the power of love. In other words, Will's world revolves around Mike; Will exists because of Mike (obviously, there are exceptions). But you also find traditional heteronormative dynamics in stories that stick to the canon.

A clear example is how roles are handled in intimacy. Will is always the bottom, Mike is always the top (I’m talking about fics where they’re of legal age, of course). I’ve seen people get angry—really angry—when Mike is portrayed as the bottom or versatile. And I can’t help but think that’s a deeply misogynistic way of thinking. Why does Will have to be the bottom? Because he’s sweet, sensitive, and kind? And why does it bother you so much that Mike takes on that role? Does that make him weak? Aren’t you being misogynistic by thinking that way?

Bottom ≠ submissive.

Top ≠ dominant.

And this goes beyond sexual roles. Will’s world in these narratives revolves exclusively around Mike. Mike can explore, grow, and be loved by other people. Will cannot. Every boyfriend Will has before being with Mike turns out to be a jerk, someone who doesn’t truly love him, or worse, someone who loves him, but in a toxic and unhealthy way. Is Mike really the only one capable of seeing Will’s true worth?

Yes, for a young gay man, finding a stable partner is genuinely difficult. Many queer people discover their sexual orientation as adults; they explore first, and love comes later. That’s real. And it’s much harder for Will with everything he’s carrying from his past. But seriously, can no one else fall in love with Will besides Mike?

And finally; the tendency to distort Will’s personality to fit him into the most classic and superficial gay stereotype. Not just his personality, but also his tastes, his interests—everything that makes him unique.

Yes, fanfics exist to entertain. They have no obligation to follow canon or to represent anything or anyone. I get that. But I still wonder: isn’t it a bit counterproductive to take Will and Mike—two characters who break the mold—and turn them into a heteronormative couple?

That’s why I usually read and enjoy fanfics where Will moves on, puts himself first, and fulfills his dreams—even though he still loves Mike, that love isn’t the center of his universe. Meanwhile, Mike suffers as a result of his decisions.

Sorry, Mike

(No. Actually, not really)

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There was a new chapter of Matador today, and I started rereading the chapter where Will says goodbye to Mike the Creature. I don't know, just thinking about how he'll never see him again, and how Mike saved his life more than once and was his only companion during those lonely years.

This fanfic is super sweet and cute, but it breaks my heart.

In this new chapter, Will reads the journals Mike wrote during his disappearance. They're sort of like letters addressed to him, and well </3

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Well, I’ve been rereading and thinking about this fanfic that I’m obsessed with. About how Mike, through his reading and writing lessons with his students, is actually talking about himself, and at the same time, the author—or Mike through the author—is speaking to us, the readers. I love the author; she’s a genius.

Mike deep down knows what he feels and who he feels it for, but he won’t say it out loud, not even in his ID, because that would make it real, and he’s completely stuck in a stage of denial. Besides, his paranoia would never allow him to write it down out of fear of being discovered.

We can see his feelings through what we’re allowed to read from him, and we can also see Will’s feelings too. The way Mike consciously or semi-consciously describes himself when he describes Will’s ideal man, or how, when Will asks him if there’s someone else, he doesn’t directly answer no — in fact, he hesitates before responding. Mike knows. He knows. He has always known what he feels and what he wants.

Even so, Mike chose. He chose to get married. He chose social pressure. He chose to convince himself he could live that way. He chose to distance himself from Will. He chose not to confront himself for years.

And now he’s suffering the consequences of the choices he made.

That’s why the character works so well emotionally; because he’s neither a complete victim nor a villain. He’s someone who slowly betrayed himself until he ended up trapped inside a life he can no longer sustain emotionally or sexually.

I was thinking about the timeline, about how I think Mike proposed to Maggie when Will moved in with his boyfriend (that’s something I infer). Around that same time came the failure of his first book, and also the beginning of the distance growing between him and Will. All of that led him into a breakdown and the start of much more serious anxiety issues. I also wonder why Mike and Maggie stayed engaged for so many years before getting married — what happened there?

I love this fanfic and the way the author approaches real-world themes and problems. And not just in this one — she does it in the Nirvana series too. It must take an incredible amount of preparation and research to write everything she does. Even the medical notes feel real. I’ll never get tired of praising her, because she’s honestly incredible.

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~~me enviaron esto y no puedo creer que The First Slam Dunk ya se estuviera planeando por allá por 2015, justo el año en que conocí el anime. En ese entonces pensaba que no habría nada más del universo de Slam Dunk, que la historia ya estaba cerrada.

de verdad me vuela la cabeza la gente como Inoue, que prefiere hacer las cosas bien y dar lo mejor de sí antes que priorizar el dinero. Se nota que ama sus obras, las protege y siente una verdadera pasión por lo que hace. Todo su trabajo parece estar dirigido a ese público que valora cada detalle de sus historias y que está dispuesto a esperar años por algo nuevo, siempre que esté hecho con el mismo cuidado y dedicación.

Todavía no he leído Vagabond ni Real; los tengo pendientes desde hace años, pero sí o sí lo haré. Y viendo este video creo que entiendo mejor por qué ninguna de las dos ha sido animada. Y, sinceramente, me alegra que sea así. Después de ver la animación de Berserk... :,v

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okay, I'm obsessed with this fanfic, and I have so many screenshots of it that Tumblr would probably accuse me of spamming if I posted them all. There's just so much to say because it's written so perfectly. Anyway.

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I can understand Maggie because this fanfic really humanizes her, and she’s going through something that many married women experience, which is truly sad. She’s not the villain.

But those passive-aggressive comments about Will? I don’t know, the tone is a bit mocking. Though I suppose that wasn’t the intention—she’s just looking for answers.

Anyway, Mike and Maggie’s problems existed long before Will came back into Mike’s life, so he isn’t to blame for any of this (yet). And Will has no idea about Mike’s crisis regarding his sexual identity; he genuinely just wants to help him. He’s unaware of the root of Mike’s problems.

And right now, it’s Mike who’s lying.

And I also realize that she doesn’t know much about Mike’s friends; she asks him what his friends do for a living, and that’s how she steers the conversation back to Will. That’s why I think something happened that the author hasn’t revealed to us yet. Something that would make Maggie talk about Will that way and make Mike keep hiding the fact that he’s reconnected with him.

It’s incredible that, in one way or another, Will always ends up in Mike’s internet searches. and fuck, this fic is amazing, but it always leaves this bitter feeling afterward too.

I love the details, the dedication, and everything the author does in this fanfic. Creating a story within a story, haha. told almost entirely in epistolary format. And yet still making it interesting, entertaining, and heartbreaking. It’s incredible how real the characters feel. I like that even though Will and Mike are flirting with each other all the time, they have that spark, that beautiful friendship connection. They’re fun to read about, they’re cute, frikis♡, nerds♡, they’re sweet with each other, but it’s also touching when the conversations get serious.

And I love them so much that even though they’re eventually going to cheat, I’ll still keep loving them and suffering alongside them. sorry u.u

~The difference is VERY noticeable 👀

**...and wow, this chapter is where Mike starts emotionally cheating, even if he still doesn't realize it—or doesn't want to admit it**

This is heartbreaking—the social pressure of that era, and in fact, from long before that.

as I’ve already said, it was to be expected that Mike would end up this way if we imagine his future. His entire environment led him to this. Also, unlike other fanfics where cheating eventually happens, in this one Mike does love his wife—he isn’t in love with her, but he loves her and cares about her deeply; he doesn’t want to hurt her, even though he eventually will. When that happens, I’m going to cry for a week. especially for Will.

fuck, it already hurts.

**This fanfic depicts anxiety, depression, identity crises, societal expectations, social pressure, trauma, loneliness, and so many other aspects of adult life in such a raw and realistic way. Growing up sucks.

I think about Will—even though his professional life is successful, he feels lonely and misunderstood. He wants love and a family, which he’ll eventually have, but the process is going to be difficult and painful.

And well, I like that Mike suffers a little in fanfics, since he got away with a lot on the show. But this is the first time reading a fanfic has made me feel bad for him. He drives me crazy, but at the same time, I understand him.

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Realized that I've made my Joel sim camera-shy because he never really looks as he should. I looked at the last time I posted a portrait of him (three years ago) and I don't even recognize him! I changed his sculpt pretty significantly back in March, which is always kinda scary.

I've been experimenting with making his eyebag wrinkles into makeup to give him that middle-aged look. Idk how it would look on anyone other sim quality-wise, but it helps! Also updated Ellie's new contacts to include his textures so they're not wearing completely different textures for once

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OMG!!! :O

i love it!!!❤️

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There was also an update of Matador!

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Will the kleptomaniac, I like you.

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wow, this is going to give me indigestion—they're so sickeningly sweet.

The four years Will spent there not only left him with a lot of emotional trauma, but also caused him physical harm. Honestly, I think this should have been Season 5.

This fanfic is so sweet, I'm going to go into a diabetic coma just reading it.

I usually don't like it when Mike calls Will 'baby'—sorry, it feels so contrived and totally out of character to me. but here he calls him 'my baby, my love', and for some reason that struck me as so cute it made me feel sick. guacala!

Illustration for Chapter 3 @wwircap (X/twitter)

chapter 4, 'His skin was a lot warmer than Will’s. It was nice'

okay, this illustration looks a little weird out of context xd but no, it’s a beautiful yet difficult moment. this fanfic—I don’t know—has some really sad parts, but it makes up for it with how cute it is.

illustrator: miwicoded (X/Twitter)

**the only thing about Matador that feels a little off to me — though I still understand it because it’s ultimately a love story — is that Joyce isn’t practically attached to Will after losing him for four years and then getting him back with multiple physical injuries and severe trauma. She wouldn’t leave his side for even a second.

Of course, Mike was the first person Will saw after years of isolation, so in some way he developed an emotional dependence on him. but Will also deeply loves his family. I don’t know. Either way, it doesn’t change the fact that it’s such an incredible fic.

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