cycles of suffering

TW ed/sh/gender dysphoria. no minors. xVENT SPACEx trans, disordered eating tendencies, bipolar depression, bpd, self injury struggles, depersonalization/derealization, just trying to make it through, i'm here for anyone who can relate to these struggles, and to get these thoughts out of my own head 🤍

[cancerhearted]

xXx call me L, any pronouns

xXx seriously, please no minors, I'm in my late 20's

xXx diagnosed bpd and bipolar, love to share experiences w others who feel alone in their mental illness

xXx trans 🏳️‍⚧️ in the process of transitioning and outwardly expressing all of the things I've come to terms w internally, also trying to kick the ed that my gender dysphoria led me to

xXx would love to hear from other trans ed'd people bc I feel very alone in this, but I know it's a common experience sadly

xXx going thru some major life changes and trying to self regulate the best I can, this is one of many coping strategies

xXx gemini sun, cancer moon, scorpio rising (for those who celebrate)

xXx love indulging in escapism w 2000's emo bullshit

xXx feel free to talk to me!! ^-^

[cancerhearted]

can't do anything right

[4nas-notsosecretdiary]

The euphoria of the scale finally going down again after a plateau 🧚

[cancerhearted]

one week to prove you can

two weeks to feel a difference

three weeks to make it habit

four weeks to see a difference

[cancerhearted]

eating is stupid and i don't want to ever do it again

[cancerhearted]

wanna make actual progress and not feel like everything is so dismal and keep track of positive things that happen

[cancerhearted]

need to get my shit together and just stop fucking eating, set some goals and get my life where i want it to be

[cancerhearted]

i feel really miserable rn

[neon-orchids]

《♡》

[poison-barbzz]

Maintaining is better than gaining but also AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[nupisdez]

[cancerhearted]

the amount of weight ive gained by not caring is absolutely disgusting to me

[c48tl3s]

don't give up what you want the most for what you want in the moment

[bpdbbyysblog]

[joy-bug-deactivated20250121]

you can still enjoy foods you love but you have to remember that portion size matters ! 🎀

(for my girlie's who struggle with b¡ng¡ng 😓)

[dec4yingdogteeth]

not starving to look like a coquette princess i’m starving to look like a heroin addict rockstar guy who dies in a random bathroom or something

[an4stitties]

bella swan d1et ♡

below: guidelines, d1et (+recipes), & w0rk0ut

❤︎₊ ⊹ you just moved to a new town and everyone is obsess3d with you. all the boys want to be with you, the girls want to be you, but you're busy with your v4mpire boyfriend and w3rewolf best friend. you have so much stuff going on, that eating has become a chore.

guidelines:

put on bootcut jeans and longsleeve henley tops in moody colors. it's always cloudy in forks, so throw on a jacket that's way too big for you.

always have hot drinks (black coffee, tea, hot cocoa). edward's hands are already cold enough, so you'll need something to keep yours warm.

have light snacks throughout the day, and save your calories for dinner with your dad at the diner.

make sure to run your hand through your hair loads of times.

listen to music in your wired earphones and always have a book in hand

wear antique jewelry and a locket, with both edward and jacob's pictures in it.

— ❤︎₊ ⊹

d1et:

❤︎₊ ⊹ breakfast

have a small bowl of oatmeal with honey or cinnamon (200c4ls) + black coffee or tea, preferably without sugar

❤︎₊ ⊹ lunch

snack on a medium sized apple (100c4ls) + diet soda of your choice (0c4ls)

❤︎₊ ⊹ dinner

have a small burger (350c4ls) and a small serving of fries (200c4ls) + diet coke with ice (0c4ls)

total: 800-850c4ls

— ❤︎₊ ⊹

w0rk0ut:

— do some stretches in the mornings, before school — walk everywhere. try to get around 7-8k steps in every day — hike in the woods often (with your vampire boyfriend) — bike a lot !! — do mostly cardio based workouts

— ❤︎₊ ⊹

hope this helps !! i'm taking requests, so lmk any ideas you have or what you'd like to see next <33

(inspired by @h0neysugarfree)

pics from 📌

[sevenstarcigerette]

Reblogging so I remember to try this out ★