I look around me... all is still.
I felt the kind of peace that told me we were still okay. I was reminded of the kind of relationship I have with Him. There was something about the heat of the sun that rested on my back.. the sweat sliding down my neck.. and the tiny rocks finding its way in my shoes reminded me of the intimacy I’ve always had with Him. I reached the top, laid my arms on my head, closed my eyes and swayed to the praise in my ears.
Every time I reflect on our relationship it always brings me back to the night I curled up in the couch at the tender age of 14 trying to nurse a broken heart. I clearly remember thinking to myself how I didn’t know how I’d be okay again.. how my heart could be ever filled again. And He came. I don’t recall exactly how or exactly when, but He came and I was never the same again. A fierceness inside of me was born and it led me to Manila with open hands years later.
After all these years, my heart has shown me how I can take pain. How, in the end, He always transforms that pain to a rebirth.
You give me these trials because You know what I can handle. You know what I am capable of more than I even know. You’ve given me this gift of empathy.. of remaining confident and unmoving with the passion and fire that constantly burns inside me. The inner makings of my mind of my soul You’ve made intricately beautiful and strong to weather the storms. I want to embrace me. I want to embrace what You have for me. Let me use these gifts to serve You, to serve others. You have a plan for me. Thank you.
