Rissa Roo

[carissaalleva]

Everytime I find out someone is pregnant I lose myself. It’s all I can think about. Miscarriage changes you. Death changes you. A piece of my heart gets chipped off everytime and I don’t know how to get it back.

[carissaalleva]

life is exhausting

[carissaalleva]

I literally have bent over backwards to help you and you’ve never even asked how I’m doing our entire friendship

[carissaalleva]

i love you, i whisper at the night sky in hopes my child can hear me. i love you, i whisper

[carissaalleva]

I want you

here with me

for all eternity

as you are

my light

my sun

my moon

my stars



[carissaalleva]

sometimes it just feels like it would be better if I was dead

[carissaalleva]

you have no idea what someone has been through. so when you’re trying to be mean by saying “you don’t have kids” be careful. You never know who as lost one.

[angelmommma]

I’ve been told that “You never announce a pregnancy before 12 weeks” and that “I am young and it will happen again.” From women who have never lost a baby growing inside of them.

Strangers tell me to wait to have children, to enjoy my life while I’m young. But they don’t know that I’m living everyday mourning the loss of my child. Their absence is a hole in my heart.

From the moment we knew of our baby’s existence, we became parents. We were so excited for the little life coming into ours. We saw our future. Their heartbeat was the most magical sound I have ever heard.

We changed every aspect of our lives to give our baby the best. For weeks and weeks my life revolved around taking care of the child in my womb.

Losing a baby I had already loved with my whole entire heart is the hardest thing I’ve ever been through. Seeing and holding that baby in my hand.

To experience so much sadness and then hear “well at least you weren’t THAT far along” and “it’s not like your a mom” makes it even harder.

[carissaalleva]

I’m not telling my family, but I’m applying to nursing school.🤞🏻I hope I’ll get in.

[carissaalleva]

It’s been exactly 1 hour since I was supposed to get out of class. I haven’t gone home. nothing. called people, nothing. no one cares. fine I will just never go home.

[carissaalleva]

no one even sees how much I want to die. I’m very slowly slipping away and soon there will be nothing left for me anymore.

[carissaalleva]

When you miscarry young, people say “you dodged a bullet” what they do not realize is i did not dodge a bullet it went right through me leaving me empty

[carissaalleva]

wow I feel low. like I feel low low. I’m scaring myself tonight

[shaolinbynature]

[sapphicconfession]

[carissaalleva]

I wish I could hold your hand little one🥺 you’d be 2 today.

[carissaalleva]

“It wasn’t meant to be” “god was trying to save you” “it wasn’t with your soulmate”

It was my baby and it died. It mattered regardless of who it was with. I wasn’t saved from anything. I lost a child. If it wasn’t meant to be, why did i get pregnant?