Don't Feed the Models

Carson. 25. Father. Gay. Just trying to make it through each day for my kids.

[carson-varner]

Anyone still around on here?

[carson-varner]

Ooc: come back!!!!!!!

[carson-varner]

I think a piece of my heart just died.

Divorce is official...I haven't seen or heard from Gage in months. I don't know what happened to him, to us...I thought he was my forever, which is exactly what he promised me. I feel dead. The only think keeping me alive right now is my kids.

[carson-varner]

Ooc: I'm here

[jude-itboy]

OMG I SWEAR I’M NOT DEAD

[carson-varner]

WE NEED TO REKINDLE THIS SHIT

[carson-varner]

BABY BACK ARE YOU THERE

I'm here boo!!!!!

[carson-varner]

Ooc: hey, you around?

[carson-varner]

Ooc: I'm here

[carson-varner]

[carson-varner]

"It really wasn’t I promise, just a little misunderstanding. Sure come on in, we just gotta keep it down cause the kids are asleep and it takes forever to get Andie to actually fall asleep"

[jude-itboy]

Jude nodded, coming in and curling himself onto the couch. “How are the kids doing..?

[carson-varner]

"They’re fine….you want a beer or somethin?"

[jude-itboy]

Jude shrugged. “Sure… Has your dad been staying here?”

[carson-varner]

"No he keeps the kids at his house during the day while I’m gone" he left to get two beers from the kitchen handing one to Jude.

[jude-itboy]

"So… You’re here alone?" He frowned, reaching for his hand.

[carson-varner]

Looks at him in confusion. “No the kids are here….”

[jude-itboy]

"You know what I mean…"

[carson-varner]

"Well since Gage is who the fuck knows where, yeah I am. I’m fine Jude…I’m a big boy, I can take care of myself"

[jude-itboy]

"I didn’t say you couldn’t… I just worry about you, okay?"

[carson-varner]

"I’m fine Judie"

[jude-itboy]

Jude sighed. “Ok….” He moved closer, snuggling himself into his friend’s side.

[carson-varner]

Carson was glad he’s stashed the gun in the kitchen before coming back into the living room. He relaxed into the warmth and softness of Jude’s body beside his. It had been too long since he had been held or held someone…it felt so nice, and it made him miss his husband which was something he hadn’t let himself do since getting out of the hospital. “I’ll be fine Judie, really…I appreciate the concern but I’ll be okay”though he wasn't sure of that at all.

[carson-varner]

[carson-varner]

"It really wasn’t I promise, just a little misunderstanding. Sure come on in, we just gotta keep it down cause the kids are asleep and it takes forever to get Andie to actually fall asleep"

[jude-itboy]

Jude nodded, coming in and curling himself onto the couch. “How are the kids doing..?

[carson-varner]

"They’re fine….you want a beer or somethin?"

[jude-itboy]

Jude shrugged. “Sure… Has your dad been staying here?”

[carson-varner]

"No he keeps the kids at his house during the day while I’m gone" he left to get two beers from the kitchen handing one to Jude.

[jude-itboy]

"So… You’re here alone?" He frowned, reaching for his hand.

[carson-varner]

Looks at him in confusion. “No the kids are here….”

[jude-itboy]

"You know what I mean…"

[carson-varner]

"Well since Gage is who the fuck knows where, yeah I am. I’m fine Jude…I’m a big boy, I can take care of myself"

[jude-itboy]

"I didn’t say you couldn’t… I just worry about you, okay?"

[carson-varner]

"I'm fine Judie"

[carson-varner]

[carson-varner]

"It really wasn’t I promise, just a little misunderstanding. Sure come on in, we just gotta keep it down cause the kids are asleep and it takes forever to get Andie to actually fall asleep"

[jude-itboy]

Jude nodded, coming in and curling himself onto the couch. “How are the kids doing..?

[carson-varner]

"They’re fine….you want a beer or somethin?"

[jude-itboy]

Jude shrugged. “Sure… Has your dad been staying here?”

[carson-varner]

"No he keeps the kids at his house during the day while I’m gone" he left to get two beers from the kitchen handing one to Jude.

[jude-itboy]

"So… You’re here alone?" He frowned, reaching for his hand.

[carson-varner]

Looks at him in confusion. “No the kids are here….”

[jude-itboy]

"You know what I mean…"

[carson-varner]

"Well since Gage is who the fuck knows where, yeah I am. I'm fine Jude...I'm a big boy, I can take care of myself"

[carson-varner]

[carson-varner]

"It really wasn’t I promise, just a little misunderstanding. Sure come on in, we just gotta keep it down cause the kids are asleep and it takes forever to get Andie to actually fall asleep"

[jude-itboy]

Jude nodded, coming in and curling himself onto the couch. “How are the kids doing..?

[carson-varner]

"They’re fine….you want a beer or somethin?"

[jude-itboy]

Jude shrugged. “Sure… Has your dad been staying here?”

[carson-varner]

"No he keeps the kids at his house during the day while I’m gone" he left to get two beers from the kitchen handing one to Jude.

[jude-itboy]

"So… You’re here alone?" He frowned, reaching for his hand.

[carson-varner]

Looks at him in confusion. "No the kids are here...."

[carson-varner]

[carson-varner]

"It really wasn’t I promise, just a little misunderstanding. Sure come on in, we just gotta keep it down cause the kids are asleep and it takes forever to get Andie to actually fall asleep"

[jude-itboy]

Jude nodded, coming in and curling himself onto the couch. “How are the kids doing..?

[carson-varner]

"They’re fine….you want a beer or somethin?"

[jude-itboy]

Jude shrugged. “Sure… Has your dad been staying here?”

[carson-varner]

"No he keeps the kids at his house during the day while I’m gone" he left to get two beers from the kitchen handing one to Jude.

[carson-varner]

[carson-varner]

"It really wasn’t I promise, just a little misunderstanding. Sure come on in, we just gotta keep it down cause the kids are asleep and it takes forever to get Andie to actually fall asleep"

[jude-itboy]

Jude nodded, coming in and curling himself onto the couch. “How are the kids doing..?

[carson-varner]

"They’re fine….you want a beer or somethin?"

[carson-varner]

[carson-varner]

"It really wasn't I promise, just a little misunderstanding. Sure come on in, we just gotta keep it down cause the kids are asleep and it takes forever to get Andie to actually fall asleep"

[carson-varner]

Carson had been out of the hospital for a while and had definitely put on a few pounds. Over the years since he had left behind his old life and gone to ItBoy, he had softened….the way he looked at the world, how he carried himself and talked….but he looked hardened again, less vulnerable, like he…

[jude-itboy]

The night after getting home with his new husband, Jude decided to pay Carson a visit. He missed his friend, having not seen him for quite a while. Every once in a while he saw Hank and the kids, but never with Carson. He knocked at their door, hoping he was home.

[carson-varner]

Carson was a bit startled at the knock on the door, making sure the kids were still asleep, he grabbed his gun and tucked it in the back of his jeans hidden by his shirt and went to the door. He opened it and immediately relaxed some seeing who was there. “Oh my god Jude, hey! What are you doing here?” He smiled, pulling him in for a hug and a kiss on the cheek.

[jude-itboy]

Jude grinned as his friend opened the door, hugging him back tightly. “Hey! I haven’t seen you on forever! I wanted to come and see you.” He let his hands wander to the other mans lower back gently, freezing when he felt something hard. “Car…? What’s that?”

[carson-varner]

Carson stepped back nervously, his heart jumping into his throat. “N-nothing, it’s nothing” he mentally kicked himself for hugging him, not thinking about him feeling the gun. He’d been too excited to see h. “So um, how was Vegas? You and Aid have a good time?”

[jude-itboy]

Jude nodded slowly, deciding to let it go for now. “It was great… We got married.”

[carson-varner]

"Dad told me" he smiled, relieved he didn’t push it farther. "That baby boy of yours is a little angel. He’s just precious"

[jude-itboy]

"Was he good? We missed him so and Maddie so much." He gave Carson’s hand a squeeze. "We missed you too."

[carson-varner]

"A perfect angel...Dad's in love" he chuckled. "Oh me? I'm not so missable" he shrugged. Dad said he told you guys about stupid old me landing myself in the hospital again while you were gone, hope he didn't make it sound like a big deal"

[carson-varner]

Carson had been out of the hospital for a while and had definitely put on a few pounds. Over the years since he had left behind his old life and gone to ItBoy, he had softened….the way he looked at the world, how he carried himself and talked….but he looked hardened again, less vulnerable, like he…

[jude-itboy]

The night after getting home with his new husband, Jude decided to pay Carson a visit. He missed his friend, having not seen him for quite a while. Every once in a while he saw Hank and the kids, but never with Carson. He knocked at their door, hoping he was home.

[carson-varner]

Carson was a bit startled at the knock on the door, making sure the kids were still asleep, he grabbed his gun and tucked it in the back of his jeans hidden by his shirt and went to the door. He opened it and immediately relaxed some seeing who was there. “Oh my god Jude, hey! What are you doing here?” He smiled, pulling him in for a hug and a kiss on the cheek.

[jude-itboy]

Jude grinned as his friend opened the door, hugging him back tightly. “Hey! I haven’t seen you on forever! I wanted to come and see you.” He let his hands wander to the other mans lower back gently, freezing when he felt something hard. “Car…? What’s that?”

[carson-varner]

Carson stepped back nervously, his heart jumping into his throat. “N-nothing, it’s nothing” he mentally kicked himself for hugging him, not thinking about him feeling the gun. He’d been too excited to see h. “So um, how was Vegas? You and Aid have a good time?”

[jude-itboy]

Jude nodded slowly, deciding to let it go for now. “It was great… We got married.”

[carson-varner]

"Dad told me" he smiled, relieved he didn't push it farther. "That baby boy of yours is a little angel. He's just precious"

[carson-varner]

Carson had been out of the hospital for a while and had definitely put on a few pounds. Over the years since he had left behind his old life and gone to ItBoy, he had softened….the way he looked at the world, how he carried himself and talked….but he looked hardened again, less vulnerable, like he…

[jude-itboy]

The night after getting home with his new husband, Jude decided to pay Carson a visit. He missed his friend, having not seen him for quite a while. Every once in a while he saw Hank and the kids, but never with Carson. He knocked at their door, hoping he was home.

[carson-varner]

Carson was a bit startled at the knock on the door, making sure the kids were still asleep, he grabbed his gun and tucked it in the back of his jeans hidden by his shirt and went to the door. He opened it and immediately relaxed some seeing who was there. “Oh my god Jude, hey! What are you doing here?” He smiled, pulling him in for a hug and a kiss on the cheek.

[jude-itboy]

Jude grinned as his friend opened the door, hugging him back tightly. “Hey! I haven’t seen you on forever! I wanted to come and see you.” He let his hands wander to the other mans lower back gently, freezing when he felt something hard. “Car…? What’s that?”

[carson-varner]

Carson stepped back nervously, his heart jumping into his throat. "N-nothing, it's nothing" he mentally kicked himself for hugging him, not thinking about him feeling the gun. He'd been too excited to see h. "So um, how was Vegas? You and Aid have a good time?"