golden.

and if i B E L I E V E you, would that make it stop.

[castcwcy]

she’s baaaaack :~) aka like for a reverse starter call.

[demoncity]

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[pettymvmi-deactivated20190907]

if you’re reading this i hope you find the strength to get through whatever it is that’s causing you so much trouble or pain at the moment

[castcwcy]

hi i’m #SAD, let me pour out my emotions onto your babies - aka reverse starter call xo

[castcwcy]

castaway was THE most underrated song of sgfg.... it will forever live in my username that is all carry on

[castcwcy]

( * ░ &&. –– RIVER

        river  looks  down  when  her  phone  goes  off  ,  running  a  hand  through  her  hair  as  she  rolls  her  eyes  .  she’s  sick  of  this  .  sick  of  the  arguments  and  sick  of  everything  that  comes  with  his  .  river  sighs  heavily  ,  wrapping  her  robe  around  her  body  .  her  twin  had  told  her  she  should  shut  this  down  ,  and  river  knows  that  she  should  but  there’s  something  that  keeps  her  holding  on  .  she  looks  up  when  she  hears  the  car  in  the  driveway  ,  rolling  her  eyes  as  she  tugs  the  door  open  .  “  what  do  you  want  ?  i  thought  we  said  everything  we  needed  to  .  ”

        the boy never really knew why he did what he did. he knew he was a compulsive, arrogant freak which is why he never minded when people wanted out of his life, of his world. he was the definition of toxic. but the thought of losing river, couldn’t compute with him - it didn’t settle right. something about never being about to run his lips down her neck or even holding her hand made him red with anger. making his way up the carport, he was shocked to see her already waiting for him. “no, riv, YOU said everything you needed to. i haven’t even begun - you don’t even know the half of it.” he sighed, failing to make direct eye contact with her in fear that he’ll crumble.

[castcwcy]

@crxyout liked for a lyric based starter // watch by billie eilish

     “when you call my name do you think i’ll come runnin’? you never did the same - so good at givin’ me nothing. when you close your eyes, do you think of me? when you fantasize, am i your fantasy?” gabriel seemed to spit these questions out faster than he could think not to. these small things wore on him and it was finally time for it to be aired out.

[castcwcy]

@dazlinghazes liked for a lyric based starter // LOVE. by kendrick lamar

     “i had to do it - i want your body, your music. i told you that i’m on the way, i’m like an exit away.” the lines of words blurred together as alexander quickly typed the messages as he was driving. this wasn’t like him - freaking out over someone to the point where he had to get in the car and make it right. he normally wouldn’t even give it a second thought as to blocking their number and never thinking about them again. but, as his speedometer reached 95, he knew this time was very different.

[castcwcy]

@dazlinghazes liked for a lyric based starter // future free by frank ocean

    “i’m just a guy - i’m not a god. sometimes i feel like a god, but, i’m not a god. if i was i don’t know which heaven would have me, momma.” bryce was drunk, to say the least. the words leaving his mouth made no sense to him - maybe some superiority complex? whatever it was, maybe his partner sitting in front of him could help him decipher. 

[castcwcy]

like for a random lyric starter from my boys bc I MISS THEM 

[knowlesfentys-deactivated202002]

(most) favorite ariana music video looks [part 2]

[castcwcy]

( * ░ &&. –– RILEY

        “you think i want this?” riley felt the need to pace back and forth around the couch as she tried to gather her thoughts. she was restless normally, but especially after shows, to the point that the adrenaline rush was so extreme that it was impossible for her to fall asleep until the early hours of the morning. but that feeling was only amplified in the midst of her fight with melodee. the other girl was right, though. riley still kept her around. she couldn’t let go of her. she was so in her own head that she barely registered what she’d said, though her pacing stopped abruptly the moment she did. “you what?” she narrowed her eyes at her, trying to figure out if she’d heard her correctly. at the girl’s confession, all she could do was shake her head weakly. “don’t,” she muttered, already feeling her resolve start to crumble. “don’t do this. don’t just start saying shit to try and get me back.”

         unfortunately, for mel’s sake, it was true. it wasn’t definitely never in her plans to fall head over heels for the girl but it had happened. which could’ve been a reason for not having her head on correctly in the relationship. no one had ever come close to making her feel the way riley does. through the fights and the screaming, there was late nights with whispered words and tender kisses. through the “i hate you”’s and “i’m so tired”’s, there was “one more dance, please” and “don’t go”’s. maybe she was attracted to the thrill - but, nonetheless, still true. “why would i ever choose to be in love with someone that makes me question my sanity?” pleading eyes searched the others face desperate for a clue. “you and i both wish i was fucking kidding.”

[castcwcy]

( * ░ &&. –– RILEY

        “of course i gave a fuck about you, don’t be fucking stupid,” riley huffed, shaking her head at melodee. she eyed the people moving around them like it was nothing, rolling her eyes as she stormed forward to grab the other girl’s arm and drag her back to the privacy of the green room. “i don’t do that shit just to hurt you, i’m not that fucking evil.” she glared at her for a moment before dropping her arm, closing the door so they were alone before she took a deep breath and paced over to the couch, though she was too wound up to bring herself to sit down. “you ever think that maybe i do this shit so i can finally get the fuck over you? once and for all?” she turned back around to motion to her, a bit of her anger being replaced by pure exhaustion. “i hate this. i hate this fucking back and forth. i’m so fucking tired, mel.” 

       melodee always kept a close eye on her partner, granted it was a challenge since she was always on the go. maybe, that’s why mel was so intrigued with her. riley gave spontaneity and an upbeat tempo to her otherwise mundane life. everything about the other absolutely captivated her even if they didn’t know it. she crossed her arms over her chest, eyes darting back and forth as they followed her movements. “no, because if you wanted to get over me, i would have been gone. you would’ve sent me packing a while ago.” the distance between them seemed to grow as did the coldness in the room. why, every time they fought, did the room seem to drop in temperature? “you don’t hate this. you live for this sick, twisted shit. it’s what gives you hits.” she stated bluntly. “i’m done being a pawn in your game, riley. i was in love with you.” she didn’t know if she had ever said that before, but, she also didn’t entirely care.

[castcwcy]

( * ░ &&. –– RILEY

         the adrenaline from the show wasn’t helping to keep riley calm, and she just shoved her bass off into the hands of someone working backstage before shaking her head and taking a step closer to her. “i’m not fucking doing this here,” she muttered, voice contained behind gritted teeth. “last time i checked, we weren’t even fucking together.” she shook her head. “i’ve moved on. you’re the one that needs to get the fuck over it.” they both knew that wasn’t true. how many times had riley blocked and deleted her number only for them to somehow find their way back to each other again? “i just wanted a peaceful fucking night and you just have to start shit, mel. what the fuck is your deal?” 

      the sting should’ve subsided over time but those kinds of words coming from someone you cared about, hurt more. the petite girl took a step back as the other made it more apparent she was gaining confidence. “you never really gave a fuck about me, did you??” melodee ignored every question and statement riley threw at her. her mind raced and anger quickly became fear and regret. embarrassed, she tried to clear the lump rising in her throat. “you’re so quick to text this person or see this person, only because you know the effect it’ll have on me. you know how much i fucking care about you.” she shook her head, taking another step back. “nah, riley, what the fuck is your deal?”

[thedailystyles]

Harry for RTL 102.5

[castcwcy]

( * ░ &&. –– RILEY

              “what did i just say, melodee?” riley turned around on her heel in a split second. the last thing she wanted to do was get into a fight right after she got off stage, but it was like she couldn’t resist, especially not when melodee was egging her on. “yeah, and you’ll come fucking crawling back to me like you always do,” she spat back, her expression hardening as melodee continued. she just narrowed her eyes at her, slowly shaking her head. “fuck you. i’m so fucking tired of this.” 

       it was as if no one cared, anymore. their fights used to turn the heads of every person backstage - now, everyone either cleared out or kept to themselves. they were their own ticking time bombs and everyone knew to get out or deal with the consequences. it was exhausting, truthfully, to be so in love with someone that it rattles your very core. but.. have you seen, riley? mel didn’t need much explanation as to why she stuck around. “you’re always ‘fucking tired’. then leave, ri. if you’re so tired of my addiction and my cursing and my bad attitude, then fucking leave. no one is beggin’ you to stay - especially not me.”