cry baby tears.

SEMI-HIATUS

[cecilianott]

stefanxxnott‌:

“What the–” Not many people could get away with actions like this, or even being this loud with him, but of course, his sister would always remain on the top of the list of exceptions. “I suppose this means I am finding out you don’t read the Daily Prophet.” he countered. “Or my texts.” An amused smile stayed on his lips as he eyed the other. Clearly, she was very angry at him which meant he should keep the teasing to a minimum. “I assumed it would end before it even began, honestly.” he admitted with a sigh. “It’s Doe – and I thought she’d find a way to.. get us out of this.” 

   cecilia  drew  back  ;  had  she  really  been  that  out  of  it  lately  ?  it  was  a  wonder  no  one  picked  up  on  it  yet.  a  vial  labeled  perfume  that  wasn’t  a  scented  accessory  at  all,  but  a  means  to  get  through  her  anger-fueling,  repetitive  days.  the  empty  bottles  shoved  inside  her  bottomless  trunk.  it  was  a  blessed  thing  she’d  just  woken  up  and  wasn’t  plastered  now.   “  i,  uh,  i  don’t.  mindless  sheep   might,  but  i  can’t  trust  a  word  it  says,  usually,  ”   that  much  was  true  at  least  ;  perhaps  she’ll  take  an  occasional  peek  but  no  more.  

   already  she  knew  it  was  dorcas  meadowes,  but  his  verbal  confirmation  caused  her  to  surge  forward,  dancer’s  feet  quickly  placing  her  at  his  side.  she’ll  sink  into  the  couch,  a  concerned  frown  on  her  pretty  face.   “  are  you  okay  ?  is  she  going  to  talk  to  her  parents  ?  ”   the  brunette  was  unaware  of  anything  save  for  their  mutual  indifference  to  each  other.  well,  of  course  she  knew  that  wasn’t  how  they  truly  felt,  but  neither  wanted  to  be  perceived  as  anything  else.

[cecilianott]

clairexxavery‌:

“He is the worst nightmare walking this castle.” she huffed and turned to the other. “Anyway – forget him. I wanted to tell you, my mother wrote to me last night. Apparently, my parents are ready to find me a man to marry.” she said making a disgusted face. 

            “  that’s  absurd  !  ”   she  giggled at  the  news,  and  though  it  was,  in  fact,  ridiculous  and  she  was  sure  claire  wouldn’t  go  down  without  a  fight,  she  felt  somewhat  panicked  despite  her  outer  amusement.  had  stefan  not  already  been  in  love  with  dorcas,  she  was  sure  their  father  would  find  a  way  to  make  him  agree  to  the  betrothal,  just  as  sure  that  claire  might  be  condemned  to  a  man  for  the  rest  of  her  life.  this,  cecilia  told  herself,  is  why  her  heart  feels  pained  ;  no  other  reason.   “  what’re  you  gonna  do  ?  ”

[cecilianott]

              one  of  the  armchair’s  pillows  is  sent  for  the  back  of  his  head,  cecilia  landing  on  the  last  step  of  the  staircase  with  a  loud  BOOM  !  her  usually  tense  figure  seemed  drawn  tighter,  her  chin  lifted,  eyes  nearly  blazing.    “  why  am  i  finding  out  that  you’re  getting  married  from  some  moronic,  irrelevant  FOURTH  YEAR  in  the  middle  of  breakfast  ?  i  nearly  shrunk  his  tongue  because  i  thought  he  was  spreading  lies  !  ”   

@stefanxxnott

[television-gifs]

[cecilianott]

clairexxavery‌:

“Mulciber sucks.” 

   “  i’m  not  going  to  disagree  ?  ”

   “  but  why  all  of  a  sudden  ?  did  he  pop  into  your  mind  like  a  bad  nightmare  ?  ”

[chewbacca]

Buffy the Vampire Slayer  |  4x15 - “This Year’s Girl”

[cecilianott]

ogdenfinest·:

Tiberius wasn’t exactly a dick, he didn’t think he was being a dick, since he didn’t even know this girl and he was helping her, yet she seemed to go from having a meltdown to close every door shut in a second. “You are practically begging for help with your actions, you could’ve died of alcohol poisoning and you were alone in hallways that usually get people into trouble.” he added leaning on the wall and looking at her, “You are going to fall down the moving stairs in that state.” he declared just waiting for her.

           “      and  ??     so  what,  forigol  ??  it’s  not  my  first  time  drinking,  so  what  makes  you  think  i  didn’t  know  when  to  stop  ??  maybe  i  just  didn’t  want  to,     ”     she’ll   pull  her  wand  from  the  pocket  of  her  emerald  cloak  with  a  rather  mean  sneer.      “     don’t  follow  me.  there  are  worse  things  that  can  happen  besides  alcohol  poisoning  and  i  intend  to  show  you  if  you  don’t  leave  me  the  hell  alone.     ”     with  a  flick,  muttered  spell  under  her  breath,  a  toilet  explodes,  spraying  water  between  them  and  flooding  the  floor.  she’ll  make  her  escape  with  the  distraction,  seeing  herself  slowly  to  her  room.  

fin.

[holaitsliza]

And at night, tears replaced anger, making her feel lonelier than she really was.

L.R. excerpt from a book I’ll never write (via holaitsliza)

[cecilianott]

                             CECILIA     &.     STEFAN     :   the  siblings.

I need you, I need you, I need you right now Yeah, I need you right now So don't let me, don't let me, don't let me down I think I'm losing my mind now It's in my head, darling I hope That you'll be here, when I need you the most So don't let me, don't let me, don't let me down Don't let me down

@stefanxxnott

[cecilianott]

CECILIA  NOTT      :   internal.

And I've lost who I am, and I can't understand. Why my heart is so broken, rejecting your love, without, love gone wrong, lifeless words carry on. But I know, all I know, is that the end's beginning. Who I am from the start, take me home to my heart. Let me go and I will run, I will not be silent. All this time spent in vain, wasted years, wasted gain. All is lost, hope remains, and this war's not over. There's a light, there's the sun, taking all shattered ones. To the place we belong, and his love will conquer all.

[cecilianott]

CECILIA  NOTT      :   external.

Don't do love, don't do friends I'm only after success Don't need a relationship I'll never soften my grip

One track mind, one track heart If I fail, I'll fall apart Maybe it is all a test 'Cause I feel like I'm the worst So I always act like I'm the best

[cecilianott]

ogdenfinest‌:

Tiberius wanted to sigh again but he thought that it wouldn’t be a good idea, “I’m sure you are not okay but as okay as I can help you. I can’t…” he trailed off not sure what to say, they didn’t know each other that well for him to said anything at all but he was determined to at least help her get to her bed safely. “I can’t fix the things that made you drink, I can only help you get to your room and see that you don’t pass out in any hallway, everything else, well it might need a bit more of work, I’m afraid.”

            another  closed  ear;  same  shit,  different  person.  her  eyes  dried  almost  instantly,  cold  settling  into  her  bones,  causing  her  to  shut  off  her  humanity  once  again,  as  no one  was  gonna  take  care  of  her  heart  but  her.  what  an  important  lesson  she  was  going  to  have  to  make  stick.       “       i  don’t  remember  asking  for  help,       ”       her  voice  is  chilled,  her  shaky  hands  smoothing  her  usually  pristine  hair.  the  little  slytherin  swayed  to  her  feet,  ignoring  his  presence  as  she  began  to  stumble  out  of  the  loo.      

[cecilianott]

ogdenfinest‌:

Tiberius moved her hair out of her face wanting to see if she was still too drunk to remember her name or if she needed something more than just expelling the alcoholic beverage. “I won’t tell anyone, I just want to make sure you are okay.” he assured the blonde and motioned to the glass again, “You need to drink, it’ll take the taste away and hydration usually makes the hangover less terrible.”

       “       okay  ??  what’s  ‘ okay ’  ??  i’m  about  to  die  from  alcohol  poisoning      &.      i’m  alone.      ”       his  nudged  reminder  causes  her  to  become  a  bit  irritated.       “     yes,  i  know  !!  i  just  want  to  . . .       ”       punish  herself  ??  she  believed  that  everything  had  a  consequence;  every  action  deserved  a  reaction.  wasn’t  hers  that  she’d  been  dismissed,  humiliated  by  her  so-called  friends  ??  in  the  some  way  her  father  constantly  did  ??  tears  welled  up  in  her  doe  eyes.  fuck,  she  would  not  cry  in  front  of  someone  that  might  as  well  be  a  stranger.  her  hand  grips  the  glass,  hiding   her  wet  eyes  behind  a  greedy  gulp  of  the  water.

[cecilianott]

dahlingwood‌:

“No, you can excuse yourself.” Dahlia muttered and waved her hand in the air dismissively. 

         she’ll  smile,  but  it  didn’t  reach  her  eyes  that  now  narrowed.     “     no,  no,  choca.  don’t  presume  it  smart  to  wave  that  hand  at  me,  lest  you  want  to  lose  it.  we  were  both  sitting  here,  i’m  not  going  anywhere,  considering  this  is  a  place  to  study.  since  you  seem  too  invested  in  things  other  than  broadening  your  mind,  which  you  clearly  should  reconsider,  i’d  say  you  should  be  excused.       ”

[cecilianott]

ogdenfinest·:

🤢 Rub my muse’s back while they are sick/throwing up @cecilianott

Tiberius hardly felt responsible for what happened when people bought the bottle from him, if they wanted to get drunk on their own time he wasn’t the one that would stop them. But after what happened at the party some part of him thought that the bottles came back with some sort of defect. Which was why he decided to check on Cecilia that night.

What he found wasn’t a pretty picture, it was the weekend and they didn’t had classes next day but Cecilia decided to make a party all on her own, or maybe her friends ditched her, and that’s how Tiberius found her. Making her stumbling way to the bathroom.

It didn’t take a genius to know why she wanted to go there, he helped her the few meters away and advised she should wash her face with cold water to help sober up but the next thing he knew was that Cece was bended over a toilet emptying the contents of his stomach.

Tiberius felt pity of the fellow student and transformed one of his buttons into a cup and filled it with water for her to drink up. “Did you take the whole bottle all by yourself?”

＊ cecilia !

       she  just  needed  to  get  there.  she  was  close,  close  enough  to  see  it  from  her  place  in  the  hall.  a  shiver  ran  up  her  spine  at  the  arrival  of  someone,  but  it  was  only  tiberius.  still,  her  anxiety  skyrocketed,  as  their  families  knew  each  other.  from  the  time  he  helped  her  to  the  toilet,  to  the  merciful  end  of  her  violent  retching,  the  dyed  blonde  had  only  one  thought  process.  he  offered  her  some  water,  but  she  ignored  this     &.     his  question.  her  arm  laid  across  the  seat  of  the  toilet,  sweating  forehead  pressed  against  it.  at  last,  she’ll  turn  so  that  her  cheek  was  smooshed  against  her  arm,  watery  eyes  observing  him.     “     please  don’t  tell  my  father.  or  stefan.  promise me.     ”

[cecilianott]

                                    CECILIA NOTT      :    appearances.

a study,  part  one  of  tbd.

[cecilianott]

nott  ,    stefan          ›     ( stefanxxnott· )

Stefan had never been bothered by blood but it was different when it was Cecilia who was bleeding and in pain. Worry was evident on his features but he stayed as calm as he could. “Shh, I’ve got this.” he said softly. The cut seemed deep and he didn’t want to attempt to heal it himself. He could take the glass out and get a bandage around the gash. That should be enough for now. “I am going to take the piece out, Cece, okay? And then I am going to patch you up and we are going to get you to the hospital wing for Madam Pomfrey to fix you.” he explained. “You ready? One, two. Three.” 

＊ cecilia !

      she  rolled  her  eyes,  but  smiled  for  his  sake.  he  could  be  so  dramatic  when  it  came  to  her,  but  she  was  blessed  that  someone  in  this  world  cared  about  her  at  all.      “     just  get  on  with  it,  would  you  ??      ”      someone  from  their  house  offered  a  hand,  which  she  took  without  taking  her  eyes  off  stefan.  at  his  question,  she  nodded.  one,  two  - - -  she  hadn’t  meant  to  scream,  but  the  glass  tearing  its  way  out  had  bloody  hurt  far  worse  than  she  anticipated,  nails  digging  into  the  flesh  of  the  hand  that  was  held.  moments  passed,  her  eyes  squeezed  shut,  before  she  blows  a  stray  hair  from  her  face.       “      okay.  i’m  okay.  shit.     ”