NOT YOUR BABY

❛ Life is short, the world is wide. I want to make some memories. ❜ ★☾★ twenty nine - Florist

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antonikosek‌:

hearing her question he froze for a moment, trying to figure out words on how to explain what was needed. he knew they would have to have this conversation at some point, he didn’t realize tonight would be the night but it was here now and he couldn’t run now. “um…” he paused “i have a really good friend, someone who i’ve always turned to. she’s like my escape i guess.” he looked at the blonde and sighed “i knew that we could never actually be together but that didn’t stop me from being with her in the ways that i can.” he played with his fingers for a moment “what about you, do you have someone?” 

She knew sooner or later they’d have to talk about their past relationships. She hadn’t even intended on asking him but at first it just slipped out and she couldn’t unask the question. She listened to him talk about his friend, tuck her messy blonde locks behind her ears. “She sounds nice.” was all she could muster out. It was hard for either of them to have a dating life knowing that their fates were already predetermined. “um...I used to?” she said with a nervous laugh. “There was this guy right out of secondary school. We were pretty serious but then he ended things and I haven’t really had anyone since.  There have been a few things here and there but nothing really worth my time.”

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antonikosek‌:

“i’d be more worried about you haunting me, if we are being honest.” he smiled before giving a small nod “i can promise you that i won’t ever want to take on another woman, you’ll be plenty enough for me.” it was a dumb joke but he thought it might help “i will vow to be yours and only yours. i promise.” he cupped her face for a moment, running his thumb along her cheek “until then we are able to do as we please.” he gave a small reassuring nod as he dropped his hands from her face. 

“true, I’d make your life a living hell.” she joked along with him, nudging him slightly. She laughed along with his joke. “I have enough personalities to keep you occupied for years.” she replied, going along with his joke. Cecily’s cheeks turned slightly pink as he spoke. “I promise too.” she said in an almost whisper as she leaned her face against hand. “that’s okay with me. Gives us some time to wrap up loose ends and what not.” she said as he dropped his hand, pulling the sheet to cover her lap. She sat there for a few moments in silence, watching his face. “Do you have...anyone?” she started to ask but pausing, trying to get her wording right. “like a person you wished could be more?” she asked, dropping her eyes for a moment before bringing them back to him, curious if there were anymore woman in his life she should know about.

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antonikosek‌:

“not that i would want to find one for them but if you left for some foreseen reason i don’t think i could do it anyway, i’d raise them on my own.” he added before pausing for a moment, looking at the girl. he was thrown off by her question briefly, he hadn’t expected her to ask that question and more than anything he hadn’t even thought about it before. “well, to be honest with you it hasn’t crossed my mind before. what are your thoughts on this?” he asked lowering his head slightly. “I know that our situation is odd and if there is someone that you’ve had in your life and you’ve loved them it wouldn’t be fair for me to ask you to forget them. if you wanted to still see them i wouldn’t be fair to keep you from them” he paused “i would like our marriage to be exclusive, what’s the point of agreeing to be faithful to one another when we turn around and do the opposite? but i also know that we are royals and having a lover is normal.” 

“that’s comforting to know. I’d hate to have to haunt your new wife.” she joked, in regards to him raising their kids on his own. ”It hadn’t crossed mine either until now. I don’t know what I think about it.” she said with a small shrug. Cecily became quiet as he talk. She swallowed hard, her mind immediately raced to Jonny. She still had no idea what she was going to do in this situation. She was most defiantly caught between a rock and a hard place. “I feel the same way. I don’t know if you have anyone like that in your life at the moment and I don’t want to keep you from any form of happiness.” she said, looking down. “I would like our marriage to be exclusive too.” she paused. “but if a time ever comes while we’re married and you do decide you want to take mistress or lover..whatever you want to call it please keep it extremely secretive. I don’t want that image of you running to another woman in my head.”  She really didn’t want to be having this conversation right now but she felt it important that the two of them be on the same page on all fronts.

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antonikosek‌:

feeling her pull away and place her forehead against his he kept his eyes closed for a moment before letting a laugh out after her words. “near death” he corrected her before pulling back “you’re not leaving me alone with our eight kids.” he reminded her “although i know what you mean, you’re going to bring me near death.” 

“ah, yes. Near death. I agree. “ she nodded. “I don’t need you finding out eights kids a new step mummy.” she teased. “Good to know we’re going to end up being each other’s downfalls.” she added with a laugh. “Speaking of new step mums, I feel like this is something we should talk about before anything else really.” she said, finally sitting up. “Once this becomes a ‘thing’ are we going to keep this an exclusive thing? No one else, just you and I?” 

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antonikosek‌:

Antoni’s fingers continued to trail up and down Cecily’s back slowly, in way it was soothing him more than anything. He could feel her staring at him and for some odd reason he actually liked it. After feeling her kiss the bottom of his cheek he looked at her and smiled “we got this, we’re going to be okay.” he spoke quietly before cupping her face in his hands, bringing her face to his to kiss her softly. 

“I know, I know.” she said quickly before he kissed her. She could tell this kiss was different than the ones they had before that were filled with lust and passion. This one was a sweet, tender one. One that left her feeling slightly light headed. Returning his kiss with the same lightness she smiled against his lips. After a few moments she broke their kiss, resting her forehead on his cheek. She shook her head, letting out a small laugh. “you will be the death of me, I can already tell it.” She said, jokingly.

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antonikosek‌:

“this puppy dog face will always work” he said pointing to his face “this is the first of many times you’ll be seeing this face and i can promise it will work every time.” he said confidently “if only” he said quietly while pushing a strand of hair behind her ear. 

“I highly doubt that but we’ll have to see won’t we.” She said with a small grin. “yeah..” she said softly, leaving it at that. She closed her eyes as he moved a strand of her hair,opening them once he was done. She looked up at him adoringly. She never thought in a million years she would actually think that this whole arranged marriage thing could work. After a few moments of studying his facial features she smiled before leaning up, placing a kiss on the bottom of his cheek.

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antonikosek‌:

“well i’d take that punishment any day” he whispered with a slight nod “hey i knew the puppy dog face would work. i always used it on my mom.” he smiled widely, his face quickly dropped when he heard her statement. his body tensed momentarily and his eyes dropped, narrowing in on her lips that were freshly damp. “so not fair” he groaned “if that’s what i’m getting during this honeymoon lets go get married right now.” he teased. 

She wink at him in response to his first comment before laughing lightly. “Puppy dog faces usually don’t work on me, sorry to break the news to you but this was a one off.” She replied, shaking her head. Watching him react to what she said was entertaining to the blonde. She loved the effect that a few simple words had on him. “if it wouldn’t cause such an uproar i’d say lets do it.” she said, teasing him in return.

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antonikosek‌:

“i told you i can be sweet when i want to be.” he groaned loudly at her next words “i’m screwed, i’m really screwed. between you and them i’ll be in the ground before i’m sixty. you’ll get a nice thirty years with me, so enjoy it.” he smirked “fine, i won’t take the fun out of it…can you at least tell me one of your tricks?” he begged, giving a slight puppy dog look. 

“you did, i’ll give you that.” she said with a nod. “sorry Hun, this is your life now.” she started with a shrug.” I’d tell you the same thing but thirty years married to me seems more like a punishment than anything else really.” she added, quickly. Cecily couldn’t help but laugh at his puppy dog face. She took her free hand, gently cupping his chin. “that’s the cutest face I've ever seen you make.” giving his face a light squeeze. “fine, I’ll tell you one.” she said with an eye roll as she removed her hand from his chin. “I can do this thing...with my tongue..” she started to say but ended up trailing off, leaving it at that. Using the tip of her tongue to dampen her lips slightly before smirking as she finally made eye contact with him.

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antonikosek‌:

he smiled, placing his hand on her cheek for a moment “yes, i plan on asking your father for your hand. even if we are arranged to get married, i still want his blessing to ask you. it’s the right thing to do.” he gave a small nod “i hope our kids don’t turn out that way. although i have a feeling we will have at least one or two who are bad influences.” once she laid back down he played with a few strands of her hair again “unused tricks? like what?” 

“that’s so sweet. You’re going to melt my semi cold heart Antoni Kosek.” she said, jokingly. “They say your children are supposed to ten times worse than you so all eight of our children are going to give us a run for our money, that’s for sure.” she said laughing. “I can’t tell you all my tricks. Where’s the fun in that? You’ll have to just wait and find out I guess.” Cecily said in an almost sultry like tone of voice.

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antonikosek‌:

“thank you, i wouldn’t want your father hating me before i’ve asked for permission to marry you.” he bit his tongue, not wanting to have mentioned that to her before he did it. “you are rubbing off on me, my guess is you’re used to rubbing off on people.” he thought for a moment “my definition of wild would be doing something that if the public ever found out i would be ashamed, wouldn’t want them looking at me in that way. but at the same time something that i personally enjoy, something that makes me excited and puts a smile on my face. i want my adrenaline to run.” 

Her face lit up when he mentioned asking her father’s permission. “you’re really going to ask my father for my hand?” she asked, sitting up a bit. “what can I say? I’m a bad influence on most.” she said with a shrug as she laid back down. She laid there, listening to him once again. Already trying to think of things for them to do on their honeymoon. “I think I can manage that. I have a few unused tricks up my sleeve.”

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antonikosek‌:

“i won’t say this often, but your parents are wrong.” he gave a soft smile “i hate myself, i can’t believe i’m rolling my eyes already. we are in trouble if i keep this up.” he moved to make himself comfortable once again before shaking his head “no, no, no…no boring honeymoon for me. a nice, wild honeymoon will be perfect.” antoni laughed while his fingers trailed up and down her back, scratching softly. 

“i’ll make sure to leave that out of the report next time I talk to them.” Cecily chuckled. She laid there, staring at the wall lost in thought, half listening to him talk, the rumble of his voice in his chest was soothing to her. She was brought back to reality when she felt him move underneath her. “shhh, just accept it. I’m already rubbing off on you.” she smirked, looking up at him. “What’s your definition of wild? just so we’re on the same page.” 

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antonikosek‌:

“Your new nickname is going to be drama queen” he smiled, proudly “i admire that about you, i also wouldn’t call it dramatic, i’d call it passionate.” he shrugged “i know you didn’t, i can tell how natural it was.” this time he rolled his eyes “keep my sanity, is that really going to be possible?” he let his fingertips move up and down her arm slowly “shh, i don’t know if i’ll be able to handle the honeymoon, i might die of excitement.” 

“I like it, it’ll sound nice with my other nicknames.” she joked “really? My parents called it ‘melodramatic’.” she said putting air quotes are the end. Cecily laughed when he rolled his eyes. “see you’re already picking up on my habits.” she teased. “I don’t know if it’s possible per say but you can sure try.” She said with a laugh as she looked away, placing her head more onto his chest, running her pointer finger down up and down slowly between his pecs. “So what I’m hearing is you want a nice boring honeymoon. I can do that.” 

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antonikosek‌:

“a man you barely know and you’d go ballistic if something happened to him?” he asked once more, tilting his head to the side. seeing her eye roll he he straightened his head and opened his mouth slightly “there those damn eyes go rolling again.” antoni laughed “I guess i’ll never tell you when i have a surprise, that way you won’t have to bug me.” he struck his head up into the air slightly “non bikini moments…” he repeated quietly, a wide grin on his face “yeah i for sure got the best future wife. i’m going to need to rent a private island for us if you keep talking like this.” 

“I don’t know how to explain it. I just would. Plus I’m always dramatic with just about everything I do.” she said, with a small shrug. “really? I didn’t even do it intentionally.” she laughed along with him. “that’s probably your best bet if you would like to keep your sanity.” she joked, still laughing. “we can save that for the honeymoon where things can really get wild.” 

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antonikosek‌:

he paused for a moment “would you really go ballistic?” he asked curiously, he hadn’t expected her to say that but for some reason he found it comforting. “you’ll have to wait and find out. i plan to give you the best of the best.” he smiled, kissing the top of her head gently “you spoiling me? wow i’m the lucky one.” he leaned his head against the headboard before laughing “okay i’m not going to lie, it’s going to be a nice view seeing you in bikinis, less would be greatly appreciated too but i’ll still be a gentleman.” his jaw dropping slightly hearing her last comment “you’re the devil, you’re asking for trouble.” he mumbled. 

“Yeah, I would. Why do you seem so surprised?” she asked, finally looking up at him. “fine.” she huffed, not even realizing she rolled her eyes. “Just a fair warning, I’m the worst with surprises. If you tell me you have a surprise for me I will bother you about it till it happens.” she said with a laugh, smiling as he kissed the top of her head. ”You’re not wrong. You won the lottery getting me for a wife.” she teased. “trust me when I tell you I will make sure you have plenty of non bikini moments.” she said playfully. She smirked at his comment, biting at her bottom lip. “didn’t you know? trouble is my middle name.” she said, raising her eyebrows as she spoke.

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carterxxbenett‌:

His eyes following her for a while when she got up, Carter let out a little sigh before grabbing his boxer shorts as well. Maybe it would have been better to not say anything about his feelings at all but on the other hand it wouldn’t really have made any difference, would it?! Lying down on the bed again, the man finally put his arm around her shoulder, when the girl joined him again, so she could rest her head on his chest. At her offer though, he only glanced at her sideways, not really sure what to think about it. “You would..?”, he simply asked after a few seconds, frowning a little.

She hesitantly cuddled up next to him. She didn’t want to give him the wrong idea but she also liked cuddling with him. She laid her head on his shoulder and her hand on his chest staying as still as possible, only to look up as he spoke. “Yeah? why wouldn’t I? That’s what friends are for.” she said, immediately regretting using the word ‘friend’.

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antonikosek‌:

“of course i would come to your defense. i would raise hell if something happened to you.” he reassured her, his hand playing with the ends of her hair “if you think this is spoiling then you’re in for a treat later on. you got lucky, not sure how but you did.” he smiled widely, giving he a wink “okay yeah, i guess you will be wearing mostly bikini’s around.” he smirked at the thought of seeing her “make sure when the time comes to pack a few nice items, i want to have a few nice dinners and i don’t think swimsuits are acceptable for that.” 

“I’d probably go ballistic if something happened to you.” she admitted, adverting her eyes from him for a brief moment. “Oh yeah? What do you consider spoiling?” she asked, curiously. “I could say the same thing. I haven’t had anyone to spoil in a long time so you’re in for a treat.” she mused, winking at him as well. “I’m sure if it were up to you it would be bikinis or less.” she teased. “got it. Just a fair warning though, I hope you know those will hardly cover anything either.” she said, giving him the most innocent smile she could muster up.