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my ao3: I have a ton of Banana Fish works up on ao3, so please feel free to browse and sort by tags!
Tumblr Drabbles: All of my Tumblr drabbles (from prompts that you all submit!) are under the tag #prompt fill. Feel free to submit a prompt (of your own creation or from a prompt list) at any time!
My art: I also recently started drawing! Those are all under the tag #my art
my faves
Following is a list of my favorite Banana Fish works by other authors, sorted into the following categories: fix-its, AUs, and canon-compliant. Also feel free to check out my ao3 bookmarks, all of which are public. I bookmark any fic I think I might want to read again!
fix-its
Apple Koi by VoidRain (series, 52k): Deals with Eiji’s grief, him learning that Ash is alive after all, and the two of them grieving Shorter’s death.
My Husband Is Better Than Yours by signpainter1 (5k): I laughed a ton at this. Outsider POV, Ash's coworker and Eiji's coworker are getting married. At the engagement party, they tell each other about how they both have this one coworker who won't shut up about his husband, and decide to place bets on which one would win a debate about who loves their husband more. Little do they know that Ash and Eiji are married to each other.
Odour of Chrysanthemums by nyanja14 (21k): Outsider POV from Eiji's mom's perspective as she tries to figure out what the hell Ash Lynx did to Eiji in America, only for the source of all the problems to show up at her doorstep after being presumed dead.
I Did It, Eiji by elena_stidham (2k): Recovery fic about Ash trying to overcome his trauma and have sex with Eiji. Even as a sex-replused ace person I really enjoyed this one. Not super explicit, although obviously about sex, so be aware of that.
snowy mountains (let's look at the view) by VoidRain (3k): Near Christmas, Ash and Eiji take a walk through Izumo, and Ash thinks about the last time he saw snow.
And At Last I See The Light by Ice_Cold_Beauty (9k): 5+1 Valentine's Day fic.
Take a beating. Now internalize it. by Honeyvalentine (3k): Ash breaks a glass in front of Max in the middle of the night, and expects repercussions that don't come.
a home out of hip bones by ac0rns (2k): Ash has a dissociative episode on the subway, long after Dino's death. Eiji helps him through it.
AUs
In Your Shoes, Through Your Eyes by kaIeido ( @norisquared ) (ongoing, 12k): Soulmate AU where you swap bodies when the younger soulmate turns eighteen! This causes complications when Ash is, you know, a gang boss, and Eiji is a naïve kid from Japan.
Something To Talk About by mara_cas (89k): My personal favorite of the Banana Fish high school AUs!
You and me from the night before by Honeyvalentine (46k): University AU where Ash is struggling with thoughts of suicide. This one fucked me up.
how to plant flowers, and why by Honeyvalentine (ongoing, 9k): Honey just started posting this one, and I'm super excited for it! She's been sending me snippets for a while. Flower shop AU where Ash is a university dropout, and Eiji is a student athlete who just lost his ability to compete.
brandishing your cavendish, yellow and white by planetesimalwords (ongoing, 29k): University AU where Ash learns important lessons outside of class as much as in.
Found In Translation by TurnUps (4k): Short soulmate AU oneshot. Ash needs a translation for the name that appeared on his skin. Guess who he asks? TurnUps also has some other fantastic longer AUs, including a vampire one and a cowboy one that I've read.
canon-compliant (missing scenes, pre-canon, etc.)
Just Act Normal! by elena_stidham (5k): Pre-canon, Ash and Shorter being idiots. Absolutely hilarious. Some Ash/Shorter shipping so be aware if you're not into that, but could be seen as platonic and it’s mostly just them being stupid and quoting memes. I'd also check out the other works by elena_stidham too. They have some really good post-canon fics.
In The Morning, You are Gone by wbss21 (9k): Pre-canon. Ash has a bad experience while selling himself on the streets, and goes to Shorter for help. Rather explicit, but very good.
Hydrangea by Bleed_Peroxide (4k): One of my absolute favorites. It's so incredibly well-written and beautiful and horrifying. Jessica's POV discussing her thoughts on Ash and his trauma, exploring the fact that she’s the only other protag to have experienced SA.
Eiji is Basically a Housewife by Blueskylover (89k): This is basically just a whole series of Eiji not understanding American holidays and failing at baking. When they live in the fancy apartment, Ash and Eiji's neighbors assume they're a young engaged couple. Unable to come up with a better cover story, Eiji accidentally agrees, and Ash plays along.
Orange Is The New Black by Suguru_Slut (10k): I would recommend reading Angel Eyes before reading this. Another pre-canon about Ash and Shorter, but more on the sad side this time. Focuses on their time in reform school. Makes a few errors about what's canon and not, but still really good.
Stray Cat by Wintervention (2k): Pre-canon. Explores Ash’s character from Nadia’s perspective by comparing him to a stray cat that comes by Chang Dai.
hindsight, love, and everything else unconditional by Honeyvalentine (2k): Ash's 16th birthday, with Shorter.
all creatures wild and tame by Quintessence (6k): Ash keeps expecting Eiji's touch to turn cruel. It never does.
Drugstore Cowboy by suffragettecity (2k): Pre-canon, Shorter and Ash plan to buy a gun and Shorter contemplates on how he knows Ash got the money.
Till time end bodies, but souls none. by meryzepam (3k): Cape Cod. Ash reflects on the memories that his childhood bedroom bring, and how tainted it feels now.
Tagged by @little-mouse-adventures to post 5 songs with a name in the title. Took me quite a while, I don't have that many name songs in my playlist.... and looking at what I got... it's a wild mix. XD
Tagging with no obligation and inviting anyone to join.
oo thanks for the tag! so first lemme figure out how to get the fancy Spotify layout in a post —
ah there it is. okay here are four more from my library:
Once I restricted myself to just person names and no "feat. [name]" or equivalents as cop-outs, this was actually a little difficult. Nevertheless, I do have more than five and ended up picking from them in the end. Thanks again @weeinterpreter for the tag, this was fun!
Oh shit I have to tag five whole people now. I don't know five whole people on here. Uhh sorry for bothering you guys you don't have to open this or anything @lets-go-banana-fishing @shlelb @alma-n @chaoslynx @pitrsattabhaadmeinjaa
Hehe this looks like a fun one! Spotify hasn't been my main music app lately but I'll see what I can do
Okay I actually had a hard time narrowing it down to five picks, and I was only looking at my current main playlist. Oops! Oh well. If you see this and you'd like to participate, consider yourself tagged!
"Ash, come on, he didn't mean nothing by it," Sing tries, even though part of him wanted to pull a gun on the older guy too.
Ash doesn't even glance at Sing, keeping his eyes on the dirty old man the whole time. He gestures with his gun, flicking it in the direction opposite Sing. "Step away from the kid, if you value your life."
When Ash and Sing meet to talk strategy at a bar in neutral territory, a flirtatious drunk stranger doesn't take Sing's "no" as a complete sentence. Ash quickly takes matters—and his revolver—into his own hands.
I loved your last fanfic, Consequences be damned! How about a prompt with the same theme but instead of Max and Ash, it's Sing and Ash? Sing obviously looks up to Ash a lot and I feel like if they had gotten more screen time, it'd have developed into a sibling dynamic. I imagine Sing is pretty used to violence and threats, but when an older guy tries to flirt with him and even manages to touch him, besides being wary, he'd be extremely flustered and freaked out. And Ash, having gone through the same thing, wouldn't be as amused at first as when the same thing happened to Max. He'd probably be reminded of how young Sing really is, how he's still really a kid and would be way more protective of him. Like, actually punching the guy when he tries to kiss Sing. "Punch him, threaten him later" kind of way.
Anonymous: Hi, I'm the same Anon from before, the one who asked for a prompt between Ash and Sing. Maybe to make it angstier, the creepy man manages to kiss Sing or drug his drink before Ash intervenes. I know it's a bit of a heavy topic and obviously, you don't have to write it if you don't want to. Just thought it could add some more angst.
Anonymous: How about a fanfic in which Sing and Ash are at a bar and an old man starts making some advances towards Sing? Even daring to touch him and trying to kiss him? Ash and Sing may bicker a lot but he'll be damned if he lets this 14 year old go through anything resembling his childhood. I just love the idea of Ash being kinda like a protective older brother for Sing. The anime left me hungry for more of their dynamic! Of course, you don't have to write it if you don't.
hi I've had this fully written for months and just never posted it oops
I got diagnosed with narcolepsy and started treatment about a year ago, after over a decade of symptoms. And like, holy shit, it's been a huge positive change in my life! But also, it's been a HUGE CHANGE in my life? I had no idea how much of the way I'd learned to function was compensating for this thing that most people haven't experienced.
I've had to relearn some really dumb shit like "how to sleep" and "how much sleep" and "when a nap is acceptable" and "impact of environmental light on energy levels" and general sleep hygiene. But I've ALSO had to relearn a bunch of seemingly unrelated things that were heavily impacted, like "ideal amount of screen time" and "attention span" and "workplace preferences" and "decision making" and like ... everything else?
The whole rulebook switched up on me and my previous skills aren't nearly as relevant as they used to be. I feel like I was a level 27 fae barbarian, and then at level 28 I finally decided to multiclass to warlock. Turns out warlock is a lot easier for me to make progress in! But also I already threw all of my skillpoints into barbarian, so I'm basically a level 1 warlock even though my character level is 28. Everyone's asking me, "You're level 28, so why can't you do the most basic warlock skills?" Like. Listen. I'm great at using the barbarian rage skills whenever I want, but they're not all that helpful because strength has always been my lowest stat. And since I can't cast spells in a barbarian's rage state, which was my only main ability until this most recent levelup? I'm not very familiar with the entire concept of spellcasting as a whole.
Don't get me wrong, I'm SO GRATEFUL that I was able to receive a diagnosis and treatment. This is a much, much smaller problem to have than untreated narcolepsy was, and also it's one that I know will improve with time. BUT. I got through all of K12, all of uni, and several jobs before being diagnosed. For years I was told that everyone's tired, or it's just a motivation issue, or it's my sleep hygiene, or it's a symptom of a mood disorder. Even as I saw several doctors about the level of fatigue? When I was 16 a doctor heard my explanation and told me, "I don't think a sleep study would help you right now." In 2013ish as a minor? I had no idea that I even COULD protest that assessment.
So I just did the shit I needed to do anyway, and made it work. My whole life I've been able to fall asleep with no issues. Well-lit room full of people, TV blaring, no AC, sitting up in an uncomfortable chair, wearing jeans & a chest binder & boots? I'm still drifting off. During uni, I would crawl under the benches in the hallways outside of my classrooms, curl up around my backpack, and take a nap until I felt awake enough to commute home and actually go to bed.
The first day I took my narcolepsy meds, I was drifting off on the couch around sunset. When my roommate turned a lamp on, I sat up, looked around, and asked, "Is it normal to feel more awake when there's more light in the room?"
I used to have a pretty damn good attention span. I had already taught myself how to concentrate and what focus methods work for me. Turns out when you're fully awake and aware for, uh, the first time ever? It's a LOT easier to get distracted. By anything. Hypervigilance hits really different when you actually have the energy to physically look over your shoulder. My IRLs have been saying that it seems like I suddenly developed ADHD, and I think it probably does look that way to other people. But internally, I don't feel like an adult with ADHD. I feel like a nearly-30 adult with bills and errands and a full time day job, but who happens to have an attention span subpar to the average 10yo's. I don't think it'll stay that way, but until a year ago I had almost zero experience trying to focus while actually fully awake. I'd focused plenty, but I'd NEVER been fully awake.
tl;dr: Sorry for the huge slowdown in writing and overall responsiveness. Redistributing skill points can be a very slow process when very few of your current abilities are transferable to your current job class.
(See also: unlearning trauma responses when you find yourself safe for the first time in your life and have no idea what to do about it)
If you've submitted an ask in the last, like .. four months? It's prolly still in my Tumblr inbox and also in my email inbox along with a handful of other emails that I looked at and then marked as unread to respond to later. I'm totally planning to get to it any month now probably. Sorry!!!! </3
Merry Christmas to everyone in the Banana Fish fandom, and especially to one @chaoslynx, who's years of friendship have guided me to become the person that I am today! You have always believed in me, and I hope you know that I believe in you too.
Feel free to use this as a desktop wallpaper! Maybe one day I'll crop it to work for phones too
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1
Word Count: 5009
"Christ, Max, I hope your communication skills improve before Michael is my age. I don't think the latest parenting books really advocate for giving a teenager the silent treatment when there's a learning opportunity at hand. Or is it safe to assume that you wouldn't treat your own kid this way? I understand, you know. A lot of my clients are like that. The politicians? They'd never touch a real kid, especially not their own. It's just not worth the scandal, not when there's always a bought and paid-for whore available, no questions asked."
That was it. That was the tipping point. Max's head snaps up, and he glares at Ash with a vitriol Ash has never seen on him before. He takes a half step closer to Ash, leaning in, and Ash instinctively braces himself for the incoming hands on his body.
"This, Ash! This is my problem!" Max screams. His voice doesn't quite break, but it's got the desperate, unsteady pitch that comes on near a vocal passaggio. "Have I really not made that clear to you by now?"
Max wasn't ready to parent a teenager, not yet. Sometimes he makes mistakes, and sometimes he's even forgiven.
actually too shy to pm ;-; but yea there is no obligation 💜 the prompt is ash living in japan with eiji and becoming chubby after recovering from an ed, and dealing with the mental conflict of that because he's always been made to think this is one of the worst things he can be but he hasn't ever physically felt this okay (aka not dizzy and stuff) before + supportive eiji
I'm 1000 words into this fic and I just noticed that none of this has anything to do with what I wanted to write the fic about. Do y'all still want it in there or should I scrap the first 1k and keep the part that actually has a point
