due to the callout post against me that i already basically responded to [ here ] as well as the rlly weird anonymous message i recieved two days ago, i have decided to remake my blog and archive this one. this is both for my personal comfort, and for those of my followers, who may have changed their mind about me after the callout, but feelĀ āweirdā about breaking mutuals. i understand ur discomfort, it is a reasonable and human response to trauma even if i maintain i did not do anything wrong. i want your dash to be a safe space for you. i want you to be comfortable. and i want to make sure that the people iām mutuals arenāt secretly scared of me.
if you wish to remain mutuals, please comment on this post. i will follow u on the new blog.
i will also be making a new discord.
i am going to be cutting the persona fandom off entirely. i do not feel like making new pages/a new identity to protect my privacy (and also feel weird about that as someone who wants to be held accountable and notĀ āfoolā people into following someone who may have made them uncomfortable in the past), and i have been severely triggered by this entire event.
best wishes to everyone. i am truly sorry for any harm or discomfort i have caused you. even if you do not want to continue being mutuals---i wish nothing but the best for you and all of yours. stay strong in these uncertain times. take care of yourself. thank you for all the good times!Ā
AM i throwing literally every disney muse i have at you? YOU BET UR GAY ASS I AM LOL.
CASS & TIANA : what most interests me is ur isle of the lost verse! i hc that tiana like. still grew up poor as hell in this verse, and bc of that, she really relates to the isle people. it could be interesting if tiana & cass were friends at first bc of tiana being tied to the auradon school----she makes sure that all the kids have the best lunches, after all----and then cass somehow ends up at tianaās soup kitchen on the isle, because OF COURSE tiana is going to help the poor people of the isle and make sure they have good food to eat too. and they just kind of become closer from that....
CASS & ELSA : iām VERY interested in our ever after high au >: 3c i still want to do elsa and cass as THE COOL MISFITS who DONT WANT TO DO EVIL MAGIC and are kind of anxious and breaking down as lesbian high schoolers are wont to do, but they become close from that. perhaps even... rivals to friends to lovers au... it could be cool if at first cass didnāt trust elsa bc she was friends with a PRINCESS and ICE QUEENS KIDNAP PRINCESSES... and then its like. well, ur a witch gothel. OOPS.
CASS & GOTHEL : iām very interested in aus where gothelĀ āappearsā to cass in cassās like, anger and madness. kind of a hallucination type deal? or a DREAM type deal, in which cass thinks gothel might actually be able to come back to life thru stealing her body (and SHE MIGHT BE RIGHT. who knows. i know. i know that would be cool BUT ONLY IF UR DOWN FOR IT LOL.)
CASS & EUGENE : i think these two can be so sweet together, and i would be VERY interested in seeing verses where they came to terms with BOTH THEMSELVES AS PEOPLE AS PEOPLE OUTSIDE OF JUSTĀ āRAPUNZELāS [BLANK]ā and also, came to terms with like. being friends, and being orphans, and loving rapunzel but kind of being overshadowed by how AMAZING and sort of perfect she can be sometimes, and all kinds of manner of the things they have in common. i also love eugene as non-binary and they could maybe relate to each other on the medieval lgbt sibs scale lol lmfao
CASS & GASTON : IāM A SUCKER FOR DISNEY VILLAINS BEING PART OF AN EVIL COUNCIL. gaston being an evil kingdom leader, cass being an evil kingdom leader, sometimes they hang out and they hate each other a lot lol. gaston voice: a woman? who is not attracted to me? IMPOSSIBLE. me: sheās a LESBIAN you DUMBASS. lmfao
aerithās main specialties are healing / supportive magics, like arcane ward and sleep... but she has ANOTHER specialty.
stealing! when cloud gets theĀ āstealā materia, aerith IMMEDIATELY claims it for her own. with a lot of hard work, aerith becomes the partyās main stealer. while sheās not great at it at first, her silliness and bounciness becomes quickness, persuasiveness, and dexterity. she becomes a GREAT thief that can get ur rarest loot on one try!
aerith: ms. steal ur heart, ms. steal ur girl, ms. steal ur wallet.
apparently ppl i donāt even kno are talking about me in the persona fandom so i just want to say, i DONāT ship ANY adults with minors. even if they areĀ āaged up.ā even if theyĀ āage upā in canon by growing older over the course of the game! the most problematic age gap i ship in ALL my fandoms is like. dedue (who is 18 at the start of the game) and byleth (who is 22 at the start of the game), and thatās mostly bc its the only good ship for dedue bc almost everybody else in the fire emblem universe is racist as hell to dedue, and iām more okay with college professor x student ships than i am ships that demean literally the only black character in the game.
in general i donāt like when people age up their characters, but @adultdefy is a special case, where they are actively trying toĀ āfixā the pedophilic narrative of persona 5. thereās CANON pedophilic romances in this game yall. even if you donāt romance the adult characters as joker, a high school boy, you STILL GET A FULL-BODY MASSAGE FROM YOUR TEACHER WHILE SHE IS WEARING A MAID OUTFIT, AND ITāS LIKE, A MECHANIC OF THE GAME THAT YOU /NEED/ TO FINISH ALL THE SOCIAL LINKS BEFORE THE GAME ENDS.
as a victim of csa in online spaces multiple times over, i support writers in exploring these themes in a way that understands the trauma that puts on a teenager, and fixing these themes in ways that do not romantacize them. the narrative that adultdefy and i have developed is about dr. maruki, a guidance counselor, helping a csa survivor with his hypersexuality, impulse control, and even self-harm due to his trauma. and in the process, dr. maruki learns to be a better person and mental health practitioner and set better boundaries with people, fitting the themes of the game in which he does not do so until the end of the game.
yes, their akira has a crush on dr. maruki. so do other high schoolers, canonically, in the game, that dr. maruki helps. thereās no need to sexualize high schoolerās crushes. itās a normal thing to have a crush on adults that are nice to you when you are a teenager, let alone when u are a impulsive teenager that is a csa victim that is displacing feelings on a therapist. thatās what i want to explore, the unhealthiness of that one-sided relationship for both of them even in its innocence, and how they can both grow as people from it.
i do notĀ āshipā dr. maruki and akira. i will NEVER ship dr. maruki and akira. i think dr. maruki is a non-binary he/him LESBIAN lol. i donāt even want to ship him with men, let alone high school boys.
you donāt know me. youāve never talked to me. you have never experienced my life or my experiences. i understand where you are coming from and your concern, and your response to trauma is your own and its LEGITIMATE, and i support you in your trauma response and your own view on morality and morality-based narratives---but iām 24 years old, an adult with 10 years of therapy under my belt. i assure you iām not interacting with @adultdefy to sexualize a minor. thatās gross, and wrong, and while i believe they can do whatever they want on their own blog to fix the gameās wrongs, i will never ship my own akira with any adults personally.
please understand accusations of pedophilia are dangerous and triggering to victims of csa, such as myself.Ā
but i really do understand where youāre coming from.
if you donāt want to follow, thatās fine, if you want to put me on a blocklist, thatās fine. but i want to state for the record my own truth and my own experiences, as i do not believe the people that i have NEVER MET OR INTERACTED WITH are saying.
thank you. drink water. eat food. try to take a shower and put on pants lol. have a great day.
WHAT COLOR IS YOU LOVE LANGUAGE? [ #AERITHEDITIONĀ ]
Peacock
Key words: gifts, doting, devotion. A crazy love that makes you want to tell every stranger you meet about it! Your love is wild and extravagant. You feel most loved when you're being showered in the attention of choice. You're a unique person, and you deserve to feel that way by the people you adore! You show your love by making the recipient feel as if they are the most treasured person in your life. Best matched with: Peacock, Mulberry, Scarlet
tagged by: @celestehartā ( ILY THANK U!!!! )
tagging: @destructiveglitchā @irnmaidnā @nephilsā ( for utena [eye emoji] sidenote: OMG I DIDNāT KNOW U CHANGED UR URL AND I TRIED TO TAG U AND I WAS LIKEĀ āOMG DID THEY UNFOLLOW..... #RIP....) @novumsomniumā ( for punzie!), and YOU, DEAR READER!
-finish established relationship meme (iām very excited for these but i also dont want to spam the dash but iām too impatient to use a queue LOL)
-do akechi starters i owe and also starter for angereve.... iām so adhd....
thats probably all iāll be able to do. but DONāT BE AFRAID TO IM ME OR ASK ME FOR MY DISCORD OR JUST TALK TO ME OOC.... its easier to write with people i become chums with!!!! i think thatās true for all of us!! <3 <3 <3
tifa&aerith clinging to cloudās arm? unrealistic, foolish. aerith can talk to the dead and tifa is an accomplished martial artist who could take down any enemy thrown at her.
tifa&cloud cling to aerithās arm? genius. showstopping. spectacular. aerith is a hippie flower child but sheās ALSO fuckin goth and hardcore as shit. she will protect u from the ghosts guys... ur fine....
āOhā¦ I apologize, Kurusu-kun, but Iām afraid I just remembered an appointment Iāve made. We will have to continue our chat another time.ā
He couldnāt tell if he was being serious, but Goro really was talking seriously when he said he would react negatively if Akira did try toĀ āsnugā him. It simply was not happening under any circumstances.
Akira sighs and shoves his hands into his pockets with wild abandon, scuffing the ball of his shoe against the floor.Ā āToo bad...ā The voice he uses clearly tries to be sing-song, but fails, not even halfway through. He doesnāt put enough energy into the joke for it to be called such. He canāt take even his jokes seriously. (If he had to be honest, he wouldnāt mind snuggling Akechi... he wonders what it would feel like, really, the sensation of closeness, and touch, with his favorite person to play with. The thought seems to pass through his mind like a real ghost through a haunted mansion playset. Ephemeral and wispy, almost surreal, it floats away in the context of Akiraās games.)
Sliding through the emotive-act, like a piroutte within the metaverse with his trusty grappling hook, his head juts upright, and he smooths back his curls with the heel of his hand, as if feeling for the tip of his mask. His rare smile is evident, peeking through the corner of his lips, mischevious, boyish, like Morgana with his paws neatly fastened around a treasure.Ā āNext time, then.āĀ
āYou cannot hold me responsible for the injuries you may or may not receive, then.ā
āAny injuries I may recieve, are worth it from you, my Detective Prince.ā Akira reaches out his arms and squeezes his fingers in the air greedily. Expression blank and unreadable, itās hard to tell if heās entirely serious. He lumbers forward like Frankensteinās monster, one leg stomped mechanically in front of the other. He seems to electrify the floor with every jolt forward. (His currently equipped persona may or not be Odin.) Run, Akechi, run while you still can!
EUGENE & RAPUNZEL : I LOVE THIS SHIP TBH. the first time i watched this movie i SOBBED at That Part and i just? love eugene and rapunzel both so much?
my only problem with it. is that in tangled the series.... eugene really becomes kind of like. a joke character? like there are bits and glimpses where u can see heās literally the smartest guy around (tho rapunzel is EVEN SMARTER, which i love and will always support and stan)... but some of his specialness kind of seems to fade away when he tries to be a prince-consort and rapunzelās boyfriend and eugene fitzherbert when heās so USED to being flynn rider, thief. and he was good at it, he was really, really good, the best there was, in fact, and i donāt think, the two seasons of tangled iāve seen bc theyāre on disney +... go into letting eugene have his own identity enough, as MORE than rapunzelās boyfriend. I LOVE THEM TOGETHER. i do. but also. i want to see rapunzel supporting eugeneās dreams more! and eugene figuring out what his new dream is BESIDES rapunzel.
because flynn rider was the best thief of all time. but what is eugene fitzherbert, besides kind of a jokester and a very charming love interest and son-in-law-to-be, but still, u know?
iād love to explore aus where eugene found himself more over the course of season 1 & 2.
but i love your rapunzel, and iād be SO HAPPY TO SHIP WITH U!!!!!! tbh if u wanted DRAMA we could do like. they know theyāre soul mates---but they BOTH HAVE TO FIND THEMSELVES, and then, they are torn apart by finding who they are, mysteries of the black rock and the dark kingdom that push them away from each other thru physical distance and... itās just easier if they let each other go for a bit, ease up on the relationship stuff. eugene doesnt want to tie rapunzel down when sheās out in the world for the first time and he LOVES her so much heās willing to let her like, experience other men (OR WOMEN, OR NON-BINARY PEOPLE IF UR PUNZIE SWINGS THAT WAY), because. at the end of the day. eugene also realizes that eugene is the first man rapunzel has ever met in her WHOLE life. and maybe she wants OTHER EXPERIENCES before she settles down. and thatās okay with him. heās willing to step into the shadows and love her from afar and wait until sheās ready.
and itās angsty but itās also a great show of love and trust that she will eventually find her way back to him? that heāll be there for her?
AND IDK ITāS JUST A GOOD SHIP WITH SO MUCH MORE POTENTIAL THAN LIKE. DISNEY GIVES IT LOL. (and i understand why, the showās focus should be on the girls bc itās a show FOR girls. give them role models. i love role models. but also. i love eugene lmfao. that being said maybe the last season is really good to him I DONT KNOW YET BC... I HAVENāT SEEN IT... [shakes disney plus by the throat until it gives me the sweet sweet tangled content])
thank u for all the support on that post! iām actually feeling REALLY good about this blog and the content iām putting out right now! iām feeling GREAT about the friendships iām making, and everyday iām filled with so much happiness thinking of going online and getting to compliment ur selfies & metas! >: 3c (itās my favorite i LOVE TO LIKE POSTS AND COMMENT ON THEM I HAVE THE SOUL OF A FACEBOOK AUNTIE LOL)
iām having SO so so much fun right now with all of u. u all let me do what i love to do... discourse and be impossibly gay and trans on main.... and i just want to let u know that iām grateful for u all! times are hard, the world is really hard rn, but u all make the bad things seem far away. thank u for ur kindness. I APPRECIATE U, and i hope u APPRECIATE AND LOVE URSELF AND UR BLOGS & CONTENT LIKE I DO!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3
FORGET ABOUTĀ GOD, IāM COMING TO CUT YOU DOWN ! hey, if ur interesting in writing with a revamped PT!au shiho of p5, could you give this post a ā» AND / OR a ā”, please & ty !
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they have such great hcs that make u FEEL SO MANY THINGS (like i just think about this hc they have for their rise where rise GROWS TO LOVE HER MUSIC AGAIN and uses her hig empathy abilities to write a song for each one of her friends that reminds her of them.... and i CRY. oh my god do i cry....) and they give u the BEST POSSIBLE found family / best friend content... iāve only had their makoto for TWO MINUTES but i LOVE HER TO DEATH and weāre already plotting so many amazing dynamics that i would DIE FOR AND THAT I HAVE BEEN CRAVING LIKE HELL...
and they are so kind and sweet...???? SO SUPPORTIVE. follow!!!!! immediately!!! or perish!!!
in all honesty i am just chilling. this blog is just a hobby for me, sometimes i donāt have inspiration for specific things. if ur really pressed about it i urge you to block me, i think thatās a healthier behavior for u than sending anonymous complaints.
i also urge you to take care of urself. drink some water. eat some food. take ur meds. nobody on tumblr owes you anything. but you owe it to yourself to be kind to urself and take breaks from situations that stress you out and make u uncomfortable.
iāve sent PLENTY of asks in my time that my BEST FRIENDS didnāt answer bc they didnāt have the muse. it doesnāt mean iām a bad roleplayer. it doesnāt mean they donāt like me. it means theyāre a human being and they are prioritizing their own comfort & wellness. i myself currently have 225 unanswered asks right now from the time this blog was first made. some of my BEST friends are in here, and iām āignoring themā too technically lmfao. i enjoy everyone i follow, and all of the people that follow me.
BUT.
rp is just for fun. itās not a job or obligation for either of us! if ur not having fun, block me or log off. itās ur responsibility to take care of urself and ur own needs. not mine. not anybody elseās. YOURS.
have a great day, genuinely, i hope u feel better soon
my woke brain loves wutaiās representation in ff7 original as a criticism of how capitalism and war combine to subjugate and commodify japan. itās an incredibly important representation and symbol of japan post-ww2, and the fact that the wutai war is probably over in ff7r too and shinra is merely using them as a tourist destination and cultural artifact and ALSO silmulntaneously making them out to beĀ āthe enemyā so they can continue manufacturing weapons, not caring whether they perpetuate racism and xenophobia in the process... what a great and important representation of the evils of war and a great analogue to the evils of american imperialism that is personally important to me & my life as a biracial asian american
but my HORNY AESTHETIC WRITER BRAIN? my horny aesthetic writer brain is likeĀ āwhat if gladio just... was a wutai general... and i made what was basically classy and tasteful historical fantasy romance fiction.... what if... makes u think.....ā
@celestehart [ IN WHICH I JUST THROW HALF MY FF MUSES AT U LOL]
AERITH & TIFA : ok iām a bad lesbian bc i dont really know how i feel about aerti but also? i just want my aerith to be like. obsessed with ur tifa in particular. tifa voice: are we flirting or are we friend flirting? aerith voice: yes. they are clearly so important to each other and they have a similar way of projecting femininity to the world, of being both cute & adorable & pretty in all the ways that count, but also... BADASS. fighters! who joke around and have fun! who are sometimes anxious and sometimes need to be saved, but also that are SO CAPABLE OF SAVING EACH OTHER WITHOUT ANY BOIS. i love them so much and u make me love them more!!!! i would love a. friends to best friends to best-friends-with-crushes to best friends-with-crushes-that-are-maybe-lovers-but-also-maybe-this-is-just-how-she-shows-affection? to THE FINAL ADMISSION OF FEELIGNS.... slow burn, baby!
BARRET & TIFA : i want them to be like. the best of friends. i want any time tifa to have yelled at barret to be from the place of a woman who is just as much of family to him as marlene, i want them to understand each other and love each other and not know who really counts as the big sibling and who counts as the little sibling bc they take care of each other so well in different ways, but also, tifa is DEFINITELY marleneās auntie and thatās all that really matters. i want them to be PARTNERS in business and revolution and everything AVALANCHE does, i want barret to feel likes sheās just as much of a founder as he is and tifa to feel like heās just as much a part of the soul of her business. I WANT EVERYTHING FROM THEM LOL.
GLADIO & TIFA : this is sort of a crack ship on my part, but i see potential for them bc in my au, gladio is a wutai general in the ongoing war. while in ff7 the war is pretty much over, i hc the war in ff7r is still going on. i think tifa and gladio could be an interesting expression of mainland vs emmigrant anxieties about the war in a fascinating and important way, and i think gladio would both have great respect for tifa as a warrior, and great sympathy for her as someone of wutai heritage. i also think he could try to convince tifa to join the wutai army as like. a fun sideplot? lmfao it could be cool, and it would be like. classically romantic in a way lmfao
TIFA & FANG : my fang is a part of the main branch of avalanche that didnāt defect---but she kind of agrees with barret even tho they butt heads. i see them as having an antagonistic relationship as tifaās allegiances is always aligned with barret----but they start to warm up to eachother as bad ass lady warriors and immigrants over time when fang joins them on their journey! RIVALS TO FRIENDS AU.
