TAKE ME AWAY

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Wow, I haven't entered Tumblr for the longest time. I wonder if anyone still stalks me?😅

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This year, I wanna be a better friend. Sometimes, I think I suck as a friend because I don't put in much effort into some of my friendships, especially to a particular group of them. In this particular friendship, I always feel like I'm the one taking and never giving, disappearing from their lives when I'm busy, and talking to them only when they initiate the conversation first, and gradually, the conversation becomes superficial. I know it gets tiring when you give wholeheartedly and the other party doesn't treasure it and doesn't put in the same effort as you do. More often than not, I wish I could just stay in my comfort zone and just be comfortable around the people whom I can really be myself, which probably explains my reluctance to meet up with them at times. And also, another group of friends whom I was once close to but with more commitments as I grow up, we just drift apart. Having no time to meet up has been my excuse most of the time and its sad how these people have once played a role in my life and now, they're no longer there. And to the last group of people whom I've always considered as of lower priority and being less willing to go out with them when they ask me out. I'll try my best not to rank my friends according to their importance anymore. It's hard, but I'll still try hard enough. And lastly, I think I haven't been a very nice friend as before in the past year. Some things just happen and I realise that I shouldn't be that nice after all. But I'm gonna try be nice again because I really like being nice (someone told me that it was my nice personality that attracted him hehe) so I'm gonna be nice again! 

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Christmas, my favourite season of the year. Decorating christmas trees with glittery, shiny balls and ornaments, putting that big golden star on the top of the christmas tree and hanging up stockings by the fireplace. Shopping for christmas presents and everywhere filled with the christmas spirit. And its such a pretty sight to see how everywhere is covered with snow, those footprints you make in the ground with each step you take, driving along the streets and seeing how each house is nicely decorated with christmas lights, trees and everything christmas-sy, friends and relatives gathered together to share the joy and home filled with christmas songs, and of course festive food on the table and gift exchanges. The best christmas were the ones spent in Canada, and I want to relive this memories again one day.

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Can’t help but feel unsettled, worried and nervous for results release later on and I forsee a sleepless night ahead. Have been dreading my return back to Singapore for this sole reason. Reality check early in the morning tmrw😔

I’ve never been this nervous before, except for the time when I was really afraid whether I would be retained in J1. Its the most crucial sem cos it’ll determine if I’m able to apply for internship or exchange, and I really can’t afford to screw it up.

I know how the bell curve always work against me. Those papers that I feel confident in, my results will prove otherwise and those when I think I’ve done badly, my results will be better than expected. And it has proven me right for the past two sems.

I can tell my friends not to worry about it, but when it comes to telling myself, it isn’t that easy. My friends can comfort me and give me all the encouragement, but I’d still feel the same. Yknw that lingering feeling that just won’t go away and will stay till you know your results? That’s how I’m feeling right now and it sucks :(

The only one thing I’m asking for is to maintain my results. It isn’t too much to ask for when I’m not even doing well in school, right?

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I've officially completed half of my uni education and its scary thinking how I'm actually graduating in 1.5 years time. I've been looking forward to my graduation day since a long time ago; afterall, being in uni is so energy draining - consistent revision and tons of projects and assignments due. Each semester flies by very quickly because there's so many things to juggle everyday. But now, as my graduation day draws nearer, I'm feeling a little sad. So my education stops here, the past 20 years I've been working so hard to get a degree just ends like this. Graduation should actually be a happy thing, I've been telling friends around me so excitedly that I'm finally gonna be out of school. But as much as I'm excited about it, my friends have been telling me how sad they'll be without my presence, which made me sad too. I mean, all these years I've been looking forward to this day and I've never much considered how my friends feel (oops) because I'm so sick of the pursuit of grades. After PSLE, its O levels and then A levels and now its all about CAP. And everytime you pass a single stage, your results in the past stage become insignificant, which makes me wonder how important this paper chase is after all these years. And how when I secure a job in future, CAP is just a number that doesn't affect you anymore. And actually, 1.5 years is such a short time left since I'm only left with a summer holiday to do an internship and go on summer school! Still can't make up my mind on which to choose if I have to choose one eventually. Okay but anyway, HELLO FREEDOM! I've been waiting for you since mid August! Somehow, I'm pretty excited about the higher level modules cos its about finance and investments and health-related stuff, finally away from the general boring stats modules! (but I'll regret saying this next sem) But for now, I'm hyped up for December plans!😁😁😁

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Yes, I do enjoy walking at night. The world’s more to my liking then, not so loud, not so fast, not so crowded, and a good deal more mysterious.

Cornelia Funke (via safeslut)

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Been counting down to the days when exams will be finally over. I've been sleeping at 1am and waking up at 8am everyday, my body clock can't be any better than this. 7 hours of sleep (guilty that I'm sleeping so much though exams are here) and I've been addicted to dramas whenever I'm home omg. Just like now, I'm not in the mood to study. I just keep thinking of December and how great its gonna be. Everything and anything except studies. But anyway, 1 down, 4 more to go! How pathetic :(