chasing our heart's desire.

but we go on pretending stories like ours have happy endings.

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#CHASINGDESRE. an independent and highly selective all female multiverse as written by darcy (she/her; 18+). very low activity. meme tag. personals/non-roleplay blogs, do not interact. read all rules before following. sideblog to @pimpernals.

rules. muses. interest tracker. pinterest.

other blogs below the cut:

johanna barker; sweeney todd (main; high activity)

pimpernals; historical fiction multimuse (follows from here; low activity)

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sorry about the mess that is this blog! i'm moving livia as a secret menu muse on the main blog to this one since she's the muse i'm the most interested in and will be arching the rest!

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sorry about the mess that is this blog! i'm moving livia as a secret menu muse on the main blog to this one since she's the muse i'm the most interested in and will be arching the rest!

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sorry about the mess that is this blog! i'm moving livia as a secret menu muse on the main blog to this one since she's the muse i'm the most interested in and will be arching the rest!

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i know i have done zero writing on this blog, but i have edited my muse list quite a bit! it is mainly t.hg focused now with a few modern muses that have captured my heart. i do have some next gen ocs on there such as snow's daughters and granddaughter, however they are tied to my canon and i will not be writing them against other livias. i don't want to force these ocs upon anyone or their canon so they're mostly by a plotting basis, meaning i would like to figure something out before we jump into writing with them!

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would you all hate me if i turned this into a t.hg multi

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if he ever married, he’d choose someone incapable of swaying his heart. someone he hated, even, so they could never manipulate him the way l.ucy g.ray had. never make him feel jealous. or weak. l.ivia c.ardew would be perfect. he imagined the two of them, the president and his first lady, presiding over the h.unger g,ames a few years from now. // an all female multimuse featuring l.ivia c.ardew from the h.unger g.ames

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RULES.

ABOUT. this is an all female multimuse where i put the ladies i want to write whose canon is in the modern era. i expect to be extremely low activity.

INTERACTING. the best way to interact with me is through memes so please, please, please send them in! please make sure to specify a muse when you send in a meme. i will either contact you to see which muse you are interested in or i will not answer the meme at all. i'm not huge on plotting nor am i good at it, but i am 100% down if that is how you prefer to interact. please, please, please reblog from the source! this goes for anything. memes, aesthetics, musings, etc. i want to keep my notifications clean on here. if you are no longer interested in being mutuals, please soft or hard block me.

SELECTIVTY. i practice selectivity on this blog because this blog operates at low activity. personals are not welcome here and will be blocked on sight. this is a mutuals only blog. if we are not mutuals, please do not interact with my ic or my ooc posts. i will not interact with muses from steven universe, the book of mormon musical, southpark, or anime.

FORMATTING. my formatting is on the heavy side. i do not expect you to match my style. if this doesn't work for you, let me know and i will adjust as necessary. i use a variety of psds for different reasons, but the one you can find most commonly on here is versailles by cavalierfou on deviantart and other psds of hers. all icons, edits, etc. are made by me. do not steal them.

TRIGGERS. triggering content will be tagged as “[trigger] tw." i tag common triggers and the ones you'll find on this blog (list below), but if you have something specific you need to be tagged, please im me about it or make note of it in my interest checker. please tag political discourse, current events, and nsfw.

NSFW/SHIPPING. i love shipping! however, not all my muses are open for shipping. at the moment this is lucy barker and nellie lovett ( see why i won't ship nellie here ), but it is subject to change at any time. if you think our muses have chemistry or if you're interested, shoot me an im. i am a big fan of all dynamics! enemies, friendship, etc. all of my muses are of age and as am i, but nsfw content will not be present as it makes me uncomfortable.

FINAL. i'm darcy (she/her; 18+). don’t feel intimidated by me at all! i’m a bit shy so i completely understand why you might feel intimidated by approaching me, but i’m probably the least intimidating person you’ll meet and i’m flexible.

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LIVIA CARDEW.

GENERAL.

NAME.   livia cardew

ALIASES.   first lady snow

AGE.   eighteen+

BIRTHDATE.   janurary 15

GENDER.   female 

SEXUALITY.   bisexual (closested)

STATUS.   married/verse dependent

ETHNICITY.   white

NATIONALITY.   panem

BIRTHPLACE.   the capital of panem

RESIDENCE.   the capital

OCCUPATION.   student/mentor for the 10th hunger games/banker/first lady of panem

PHYSICAL.

HEIGHT.   5’8”

WEIGHT.   130 lbs

BODY TYPE.   mesomorph

SKIN TONE.   fair

HAIRSTYLE.   straight

HAIR COLOR.   blonde

EYE COLOR.   blue

SCARS.   a c-section scar on her stomach which she is very sensitive about

FACECLAIM.   flora li thiemann

PERSONALITY.

TRAITS.    boastful, a bad sport, all-around rude and mean spirited, disciplined, ambitious, hard-worker

HABITS.   throwing her arms into the air when excited

HOBBIES.   studying, swimming, classical theater (an interest she shared with her father who would sneak her old recordings of old shows), the violin

FEARS   loosing control, rats, mice, contracting diseases

FAMILY.

FATHER.   copper cardew (alive; troubled relationship)

MOTHER.   aelia cardew (alive; estranged)

SISTER.   none

BROTHER.  lepidus cardew (older by ten years; estranged)

SIGNIFICANT OTHER.   coriolanus snow (husband)

SON.   none

DAUGHTER.   julianna snow (daughter), marcia snow (daughter)

GRANDCHILDREN. at least one granddaughter, cornelia snow

EXTRA.

MBTI.   entj

ENNEAGRAM.   tba.

ALIGNMENT.   tba.

HISTORY.

her mother owned the largest bank in the capital and panem. livia was born into a life of luxury, a life her parents pretended to upkeep for the sake of their pride even during the war. they were lucky and able to recover more quickly than most families.

her father was always somewhat insecure that his wife was the successful one in the relationship. he often took this out on her, but aelia refused to take it. this lead to him taking it out on the children. there was no love between her parents. their children were mistakes, just a night of heavy drinking.

it wasn't always bad with her father, however. livia has some found memories of watching old illegally recorded plays with him. they would quote old plays back and forth.

her mother was primarily absent. livia only learned how to be ambitious from her, yet her father taught her that their mother wasn't right, that it should be him running the bank instead of her. she shouldn't stand in the way of her husband and his own ambitious. strive for more, but never more than him.

because of their father's abuse and mother's absence, her older brother often took it out on her. this lead to severe abuse. her parents told their friends and family that she was hospitalized for terrible cases of the flu when in reality, her brother had beaten her so terribly, she got a concussion or required surgery.

later on, her parents would disown her brother. not because of his abuse of his younger sister but for a scandal that livia was too young to understand and doesn't try to. the capital believes he was killed by rebels. he was sent to be a peacekeeper in the districts.

livia studied hard in school, leading her to be a mentor in the tenth hunger games. she was given the male tribute from one, which she wasn't afraid to show her enthusiasm for. her tribute was murdered, however, and her demands to be given another tribute were ignored. this was humiliating and she believed it would hurt her chances later in life.

a few years into her university career, coriolanus snow gave her an offer she couldn't refuse: to be the first lady alongside him. first lady of panem. she hated coriolanus. she hated how jealous she was of his status as an orphan. of his cousin who seemed to love him. of his grandmother who had proper respect for this country. yet, she couldn't turn him down.

be ambitious, but don't get in the way of her husband's ambition.

livia molded herself into everything a first lady should be: elegant, put-together, wise. she was ignorant of her nation's needs and once her mother retired, took control as the sole heir of the bank. her father was not happy. he approached her and convinced livia to sell it in order to put all of her time into her duties as snow's wife. with reluctance, she agreed.

she and snow married.

a few years into this match, they discussed having an heir. after all, his presidency was going well and the future of panem should be in snow hands. months passed. she was still not pregnant. a year passed. she went to the doctor. there shouldn't be any issues with her fertility. just a case of bad luck. ( the doctor was too afraid to ask president snow to come in and get evaluated. ) keep trying. they would have a baby sooner or later.

finally after a year and a half of trying, livia was given the good news. set on the idea they were having a son, she never asked for any further tests to be done.

the day came and livia labored for nearly two days. the question of having a c-section came up, but she refused. after her stays in hospitals as a child, surgery scared her too much. she would have the baby naturally. besides, it would be their heir. they wouldn't need to have anymore.

her chest dropped as they announced she'd given birth to a healthy baby girl.

panem rejoiced at the news. at least, livia assumed so. the night of the country's celebration, livia sat in her room with a bottle of wine.

they agreed to try again for a boy. again, it took more months than she'd hoped for to hear the good news.

this time, the birth was even worse. there were several complications that afterwards the doctors would tell her it was a miracle her and the baby survived. an emergency c-section was preformed despite her demands. livia passed out during the operation only to have a little baby girl waved in her face upon awakening. she passed out again afterwards.

after waking up in recovery, she was informed that the president demanded a tubal ligation to be preformed. she couldn't bring herself to care. anything for the president.

motherhood was not a role she settled into well. instead of attempting to bond with the pink-faced toddling girls that seemed to follow her everywhere despite the endless amount of nannies and tutors for them, she thrust herself into her work as first lady. though, there was something in her heart for the two girls. they were practically princesses of panem. spoiled to no end, yet they were clever. strong-willed. even wild in an interesting sort of way. the girls would know their mother better than their father.

after years of parties, annual games and working herself raw, livia began to reflect on her life. how her jealousy shaped her. how she felt threatened by everything. who had she become? why did she allow this to happen to her?

snow. all signs pointed to snow.

she would do a better job of running this country anyway.

yet, livia couldn't bring herself to slip the poison into his cup. she hated him. that would never change. not after years of marriage, their two daughters, their country. she hated him. yet her long-dead father's voice echoed in her mind.

she discarded the poison.

be ambitious, but don't get in the way of her husband's ambition.

ten years later, livia would suffer from a stroke. the country mourned her loss. her daughters cried. snow simply looked on as her coffin was carried away.

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JULIET O'HARA.

*i do not acknowledge psych 2 and psych 3 as canon. i pick and choose my canon from the first movie.

GENERAL.

NAME.   juliet lynn o'hara

ALIASES.   jules

AGE.   thirty-nine

BIRTHDATE.   may 24

GENDER.   female 

SEXUALITY.   hetreosexual

STATUS.   verse dependent

ETHNICITY.   white

NATIONALITY.   scots irish

BIRTHPLACE.   miami, florida

RESIDENCE.   santa barbra, california

OCCUPATION.   junior detective

PHYSICAL.

HEIGHT.   5’3”

WEIGHT.   115 lbs

BODY TYPE.   mesomorph

SKIN TONE.   fair

HAIRSTYLE.   straight

HAIR COLOR.   blonde

EYE COLOR.   blue

SCARS.   a few

FACECLAIM.   maggie lawson

PERSONALITY.

TRAITS.    tba.

HABITS.   tba.

HOBBIES.   tba.

FEARS   tba

FAMILY.

FATHER.   frank o'hara (father), lloyd french (step-father)

MOTHER.   maryanne french (mother)

SISTER.   none

BROTHER.  ewan o'hara

SIGNIFICANT OTHER.   shawn spencer/verse dependent

SON.   tba.

DAUGHTER.   tba.

EXTRA.

MBTI.   tba.

ENNEAGRAM.   tba.

ALIGNMENT.   tba.

HISTORY.

tba.

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HEATHER NILL.

* i am not interested in shipping heather with ray hall. i am highly critical of both the book and the show. i am not very fond of heather's friendship with natalie and reject most show canon when it comes to bishop.

GENERAL.

NAME.   heather lynn nill

ALIASES.   n/a

AGE.   eighteen+

BIRTHDATE.   september 15

GENDER.   female 

SEXUALITY.   heteroflexible

STATUS.   verse dependent

ETHNICITY.   white

NATIONALITY.   american

BIRTHPLACE.   carp, new york

RESIDENCE.   moves around often

OCCUPATION.   verse dependent/bank robber/farmhand/housewife/reporter

PHYSICAL.

HEIGHT.   5’10”

WEIGHT.   130 lbs

BODY TYPE.   mesomorph

SKIN TONE.   fair

HAIRSTYLE.   straight

HAIR COLOR.   blonde

EYE COLOR.   blue

SCARS.   several

FACECLAIM.   olivia scott welch

PERSONALITY.

TRAITS.    direct, strong-willed, responsible, practical, creative, can enforce order, stubborn, insensitive, always by the book, judgmental, blames herself for everything

HABITS.   overthinks

HOBBIES.   writing

FEARS   tba

FAMILY.

FATHER.   patrick thomas (deceased)

MOTHER.   sherri nill (alive; estranged)

SISTER.   lily nill (younger half sister)

BROTHER.  

SIGNIFICANT OTHER.   verse dependent/dodge mason/ray hall/bishop moore

SON.   anson andrew mason

DAUGHTER.   lily dayna mason

EXTRA.

MBTI.   istj

ENNEAGRAM.   tba.

ALIGNMENT.   9w1

HISTORY.

heather's mother got pregnant with her in high school. she got pregnant with heather's younger sister, lily a few years later. while she did get to go to beauty school after running away from home, she's barely living a life. usually, she's some mix of high or drunk or trying to get into someone's pants.

heather raised lily more than their mother did. their relationship is more complicated than the standard abuse parent and abused child, her mother does care about her daughter's. she just doesn't know how to snap out of her lifestyle to really be their mom.

heather is a hard worker. she got a job the moment she could at st. mary's community soup kitchen.

when that closed, she went to mainstreet wireless. her mom spent a good amount of the money she earns on drugs and alcohol.

having her own income means saving up money to go to college and escape carp and prevent lily from going to bed hungry.

she's a writer. they're mostly short stories or little things she tells to lily as a bedtime story. her dream is to publish her own book, but she has very little reason to believe that'll happen.

heather had no interest in joining panic, but after her mom stole her money for college (over $5,000) and her boyfriend broke up with her, she decided to do the jump and enter the game.

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MUSES.

challengers:

lily donaldson (secondary; completely removed from canon and affliated with @tennisplayed)

lost:

claire littleton (testing; mun is on season five. please avoid spoilers!)

pushing daisies:

charlotte charles (request/testing)

the hunger games: ballad of songbirds and snakes:

livia cardew (primary)

julianna snow (primary)

marcia snow (primary)

cornelia snow (secondary)

desponia flickerman (primary)