Hi. It has been a while. I will be addressing my thoughts throughout the last two months. Feel free to skip if you don’t care.
First of all, apologies for vanishing in a sudden and leaving all the materials untranslated or any other work behind, and also thank you guys so much for the supportive messages and comments.
I have actually been struggling about whether to drop the series since mid 2021. I have never publicly talked about it because I did not want to bring any negative energy to the community. I decided to continue because first, I am running this fanpage and second, I was still hopeful towards the author and the officials. Yet since various announcement and release in late 2021 (e.g. stage plays, live action movie, main manga etc.), I no longer have faith and respect to them. With all the sentiments have been accumulating in the past few months, and I think it’s time to take a break.
This is the only reason why I decided to go on a hiatus. It is nothing about the characters or whatsoever. I simply 1. get disappointed by the story and 2. disagree with the business approach of the BSD officials.
Being able to understand Japanese allows me to be exposed to more source of information and hence made me have a different set of opinions comparing to the mainstream English fandom. I deactivated this Instagram account in the first few weeks of January because I received lots of hate messages. Surely no one would feel happy for receiving hateful comments, but I accept that this is something I signed up for when I decided to make this account public. Nevertheless, I never regret for what I have ever posted or said, and I am very thankful that there are many people agree with me and support my views.
Now, I will keep both my Instagram and Tumblr account for anyone who wants to reread my post, or for my potential comeback to the fandom.
So far, I don’t see myself coming back to BSD / BSD fandom anytime sooner. Still I don’t want to completely exclude the possibilities of it. As long as BSD returns to the style that I love, where it talks about the reasons of living, the significance of salvation or the philosophical meaning behind war and conflicts etc., I think there is still a chance that I am returning. But for the time being, I am afraid that I am going to leave.
Last but not least, I would like to express my deepest and sincerest thank you to Nika, Granny and Emma for all the assistance offered in my discord server, as well as my mutuals Sara, Kira, Q-san, Alex, Vic, Yosi etc. for defending me, together with all the love and support.
Hopefully I will see you soon. Goodbye.
