Home to Supernatural Muli-Ship Fic Writer Cheerful_Shinigami! 18+ [https://archiveofourown.org/users/Cheerful_Shinigami/works] AuDHD 🌈 She/Her. Special interests include: severe weather, crafts, dinosaurs, SPN, anime, movies, books, music, and cryptids. Loves tea and coffee equally cause of the bi thing :D
My destiel fanfic 'Contingency' is now available as a printed book!!
It's a s4 retelling where Cas possesses Dean so they can escape Hell and save Sam as they struggle to stop the Apocalypse. It's a humorous adventure with romance, healthy brotherly bonding, Cas in a waistcoat, Sabriel (if you squint) and some angst with a happy ending. It's 123k words, 417 pages.
Edited by @stxticsxturn
Typset by @chaoticdean
Cover art by @varlovian
Original fic link:
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If you'd like a copy, please dm me :3
In the meantime I'm gonna cry in the corner over how pretty she is
too tired to make the whole post but. theres an au in my head where john is the one to break into sam's house and take him back into the hunting world to look for dean, who's on a hunting trip and hasnt been home in a few days. they yell at each other and almost physically fight countless times and sam hates him SO much, but he stays, he has to stay, he has to do this for his brother. its only at the end of season 1 that we learn dean actually died right before the pilot, and john's been pretending he didn't know so he could keep an eye on sam without him running away. their biggest argument happens when sam finds out, and when he's finally about to leave, john makes a deal with azazel to resurrect dean.
season 2 then starts with a sam that has to process all of this, explain to his freshly back from the dead brother everything that happened the last year and, finally, ask HIM. "what happened one year ago ?"
Gabriel: “This character suffers from crippling issues with his own self-worth due to a lifetime spent religiously obeying his abusive father!”
Dean: “Oh come on…”
Gabriel: “Final answer?”
Dean: “No uh…Dean. Who is Dean? Me. Whatever.”
Gabriel: “Correct! Nnnnnext category!”
Dean: “…C-character flaws for 200.”
Gabriel: “This character used to consider himself the better of two brothers, but after several years of reckless decisions and huge failings that left hundreds perhaps thousands dead he’s since spiraled into a perpetual state of self-hatred and depression!”
Dean: *side-eyes Sam* “C-can I choose another category?”
Gabriel: “Nope!”
Dean: “But I—“
Gabriel: “Oh come on this one is EASSSYY! I’ll even give you a hint.”
Dean: “No I—“
Gabriel: “It’s the same brother who got your mom kille—”
Dean: “SAM ALRIGHT? SAM. WHO IS SAM?”
Gabriel: “CCCOOOORREECCTTT! AND DEAN IS BLAZING UP THE LEADER BOARD. NNNNEXT QUESTION!”
*Both Winchesters sink into immense inescapable self loathing*
Gabriel: You’re still in control of the board Dean, you’re doing great.
Dean: *smirks at Sam* Ok, let’s get out of this fucking category. Sexual Humiliation for 500.
Gabriel: If you’re sure. “This character tried on panties and he liked it.”
Sam: *buzz* “Who is Dean?”
Gabriel: Right you are my boy.
Dean: Dammit Sam, how did you know that??
Sam: It was an educated guess. I’ll take sexual humiliation for 300.
Gabriel: “This character is in love with a certain rebel angel named Castiel and he won’t admit it.“
Castiel: *buzz* “Who is Dean?”
Gabriel: Correctomundo! I’m surprised you got that, you always were a bit dense bro.
Dean: CAS?!
Castiel: *ignores dean* Why are these answers in the forms of questions? Or should I say *buzz* “These answers are in the form of questions” to make it a question. It’s all very confusing.
Gabriel: Come on, kiddo you’re sucking the fun out of it. Just pick a category.
Castiel: *squints at board* .. uh.. Betrayal for $100.
(laser beam noises)
Castiel: What-
Gabriel: WOULD YOU LOOK AT THAT IT’S THE DAILY DOUBLE!
Sam and Dean: *groaning*
Gabriel: How much you wanna wager?
Castiel: Wager? Gambling really isn’t a good habit, and I’m not sure-
Gabriel: All right, the whole $500 it is! “This character betrayed his family for the Winchesters, then betrayed the Winchesters for Crowley, and then, in proper assbutt fashion, betrayed Crowley for himself. And then kind of fucked the world over a few times too, in the meanwhile.”
Castiel: … *heavy sigh* I promised I would redeem myself-
Gabriel: OOPS WRONG ANSWER. We’ll open it to the other contestants.
Gabriel: Answer: “While never explained, this fear of Sam Winchester’s has personified multiple times and has caused him to swear off multiple Steven King novels.”
Castiel: *buzz* What is Coulrophobia?
Gabriel: Can I get that in layman’s terms?
Dean: *buzz* What is Sammy’s stupid fear of Clowns?
Gabriel: That is correct, Dean and you have the lead!
Dean: HA! I’ll take Worst Nightmares for Two Hundred!
Gabriel: Answer: “This nearly caused Dean Winchester to run screaming and crying from a wood mill.”
Dean: Oh that’s bull sh-
Sam: *buzz* What is a kitten?
Gabriel: Judges? *Pause* Yes! We’d also have accepted Cat or Feline!
Dean: Oh, Screw you! You wanna play that way, Fine! Sexual humiliation for $400!
Gabriel: Okay! Answer: “Apart from Castiel and Busty Asian Beauties, this has dominated Dean Winchester’s sexual fantasies!”
Dean: All right, screw it: gimme “People Who Are Dead Because of You” for $500.
Gabriel: Sure thing, Deano, here ya go! “The illegitimate son of John Winchester and Kate Milligan, this twice-dead half-brother of Sam and Dean hasn’t been seen in a hell of a long time.”
Gabriel: Alrighty then! Sexual Humiliation for four hundred! He has dreamt many times about Castiel slapping his ass–and doing, ahem, other things–while pretending to do a medical examination on him.
how it feels shipping midam when jake abel himself is going left and right saying : oh michael and adam? odd couple. established relationship. they need eachother. they’re married. they go on dates regularly. after their dates they smash. i’ll figure out who’s a better kisser and tell you guys later. i think after the cage they went on a honeymoon.
i miss s5 cas he was so bitchy and intense and badass and autistic. he never blinked and he talked to dean from 3 inches away and he was rebelling against heaven and he branded enochian on his friends ribs and he found a liquor store and he drank it and he absolutely wrecked shop in knife fights and he carved banishing sigils into his own chest and he called raphael his bitch and he ate a million cheeseburgers and he never understood references and i love him so so so much <3
I think one of the things that initially attracted to Dean to Cas was his manner of speaking.
Dean finds that he likes the straightforwardness and abruptness. Sure there was, "Are you allergic to straight answers, you son of a bitch?" in early days, but then there was also delightfully dry, one-word responses like this:
DEAN: Where've you been?
CASTIEL: Jerusalem.
DEAN: Oh, how was it?
CASTIEL: Arid.
CASTIEL sets the jar on the table.
DEAN: What's that?
CASTIEL: It's oil. It's very special. Very rare.
and
CASTIEL sits down.
DEAN: Okay, so we trap Raphael with a nice vinaigrette?
CASTIEL: No.
DEAN: So this ritual of yours, when does it got to go down?
CASTIEL: Sunrise.
DEAN: Tell me something. You keep saying we're gonna trap this guy. Isn't that kinda like trapping a hurricane with a butterfly net?
CASTIEL: No, it's harder.
DEAN: Do we have any chance of surviving this?
CASTIEL: You do.
DEAN: So odds are you're a dead man tomorrow.
CASTIEL: Yes.
Sure, Cas is kind of abrasive, but there's also very little natural subterfuge and artifice in his manner of speaking. He's not like John, passive-aggressive and wrapped with hidden barbed wire. He's not like Sam, overexplaining to the point of obfuscation. And Dean and Bobby are laden with pop culture sarcasm, emotional evasion, and other prickly defense mechanisms. (Dean loves Bobby, but his own style of communication exhausts him. He doesn’t love it when it’s coming from others.)
Cas generally says what he thinks, and he doesn't beat around the bush. And Dean finds Cas's speech pattern disarming...and really, really comforting, even when it's "rude."
It's why Dean's so thrown and hurt when Cas starts acting cagey and evasive in season 6. It's why the lying rips the rug out from underneath him.
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As for Cas, he's fascinated by Dean's manner of speaking.
Cas is incredibly inquisitive and curious by nature. (The first thing he does on arriving in the barn is to start rifling through books and spells without even making much eye contact with them.)
We can gather that Dean's inexplicably complicated speech patterns are something of a puzzle for Cas. He's always trying to read Dean's body language and put these strange references together with enough context clues to read Dean's meaning. Even more fascinating to Cas is that Dean's words and body language are often in extreme mismatch (especially when he’s posturing).
For a creature that knows so many languages, Cas is frustrated by this as much as he is charmed by it. Cas is enamored by Dean's sometimes volatile emotions and his ability to hold two conflicting viewpoints at the same time. (Hello, "Tender one moment. Tough the next.") Dean's speech reflects his cycling emotions and rapid-fire ability to take in and regurgitate information.
And Cas likes that.
He also likes learning the modern human quirks of language. In seasons 14 and 15, we see Cas practicing and learning human metaphors. He enjoys TV, and he really likes sharing this cultural exploration with Dean.
#literally they like each other!!! the way they communicate WORKS for each other!!! they fit together so well!!!! #I am so fucking emo about them actually (via @ilarual)
When Dean conceptualized a "perfect partner," it was this abstract notion of "someone just like me that knows all my interests," or the culturally sanctioned "apple pie ideal/white picket fence/Carmen-type El Sol"
And then comes in Cas with his brisk and straightforward manner of speaking, bordering on rude, and Dean finds it supremely comforting in a completely unexpected way and it's so so so special to me how they clicked and--
SAM takes the gas pump out of the IMPALA. DEAN walks to the front of the car, where CASTIEL is reading a newspaper.
DEAN
What's the word, Cas?
CASTIEL
It's a shortened version of my name.
DEAN
Yes, it is. I meant what's the word on the Word? Any, uh, tablet chatter on angel radio?
CASTIEL
Oh, I couldn't say. I turned that off.
I love this interaction and I think one of the reasons why Dean is so charmed by Cas's mannerisms and way of speaking is because he always engages Dean with genuine sincerity and Dean is used to a lot of his jokes and asides and observations going ignored or being met with side eye but Cas always tries to meet him where he's at.
SPN 13x14, Good Intentions
DEAN laughs at GOG and MAGOG who are dressed in armour and loincloths.
CASTIEL
This is serious.
DEAN
[stifles laugh] Yeah, no, no, I-I-I know. But… they’re wearing—they’re wearing loincloths.
CASTIEL
Dean.
***
GOG and MAGOG keep arguing. DEAN and CASTIEL look on in confusion.
DEAN
W—what now?
CASTIEL
Uh, they’re… arguing.
DEAN
Ah. [jokingly] Ask ‘em where they got their loincloths.
CASTIEL
Dean.
Even in later seasons when he says his patented "Dean" in that exasperated tone it's still an acknowledgement and it's never really a shut down, he doesn't tell Dean to stop, it's fond and familiar and it's a reaction that Dean enjoys pulling from him, because it's proof that Cas can't help but engage even when he shouldn't or could do what everyone else does and move on. That's why he doesn't get defensive like when Sam brushes past his jokes because he wanted to make Cas say his name like that, it was the point. He ruffled Cas's feathers, Cas always responds, and both of those things feel good. That's why when they're fighting and giving each other the silent treatment it is a punishment, because it severs that comfort and familiarity, it shuts down that willingness to engage with the other and for two people who struggle with loneliness, that hurts.
#they're drift compatible your honour#destiel#no but fr#and the show does so much to tell us that they like each other#we dont get to see it very often but they make a point of mentioning that destiel hang out#its like they only show us what chuck is interested in (monsters and gore and saving the world) but evidence exists of a life lived togethe#the mixtape; the I'll be your huckleberry; the we've talked about this; the knowing where dean keeps his weapons; the ease of familiarity#god i love them#dean winchester#castiel#laz rambles#spn 8x08#spn 13x14
Hot take: Dean and Benny were gayer than Cas and Dean
this scene where Dean cuts his neck open and Benny has to physically hold himself back from sucking his neck was extremely erotic and they should’ve fucked nasty
the insane thing with dean/benny and dean/crowley is like— oh yeah they’re gay. they’re gayyyyy and they’re fucking. in a way destiel is not!!! and there’s even feelings there!! (esp with benny). but dean still loves cas more. chooses cas over both of them. risks their lives and betrays them etc etc
you wanna see some badass shit from the early 20th century?? The Lumière brothers created the first full color photograph… in fucking 1903! So these dudes dyed potatoes (in red, blue, and green), mashed them down into just pure fuckin’ starch, and used these dyed potato starches as filters to block out/let in certain wavelengths of light. They coated one side of a glass plate with the starches and sensitized the other side with a mixture of gelatin and light sensitive materials (silver nitrate) and loaded these plates in their cameras.. This is a really simple explanation of the process and I may have missed some things
A few of my favorite autochrome photos:
but lets not forget sergei prokudin-gorskiy, who developed a similar process in 1902, published in 1903 and then toured russia to take hundreds of color photographs:
AND the guy developed color slide processing as well. as a person fairly familiar with modern b/w processing at home, but never EVER stepping into color (negatives or slides) territory, i’d say, BAMF to the highest degree.
Here are a few more Prokudin-Gorskiy / Gorskii shots, and a reminder once again that these aren’t recently colourised BW images but original colour photos taken about 120 years ago. Many colourised pics don’t look this good. Some modern colour pics don’t look this good (as I know all too well. “Delete image Y/N? Y!”)
This is Leo Tolstoy, author of “War and Peace” and “Anna Karenina”.
Alim Khan, Emir of Bukhara…
…and his Minister of the Interior.
A Type B-15 steam locomotive…
Another of those peasant girls with guest-gifts of berries…
The Church of St John the Baptist at Staraya Ladoga…
…and a Sergei Prokudin-Gorskiy self-portrait.
Unlike some current selfies ;-> he’s not dominating the image, so here’s a closer shot.
Thesis: the rise of fanwank and anti culture correlates directly with diminished understanding of what “romantic”, in a literary sense, actually means.
It doesn’t mean “this is ideal or healthy or even realistic”. It means “this is beautiful, this is tragic, this is grotesque, this stirs emotion”, even if it’s not, as @starryroom puts it, something you would be comfortable seeing play out in front of you at Taco Bell. It’s about grandiosity and mythology and heroism writ large. It’s about playing with the id, as beautiful and terrible as it can be.
