See Me Dance

Chelsea Evans, 21 - Single - Dancer at In The Morning Just makin' my way through this crazy world! [ RP blog ]

[chelseamedance]

Just for you, Gee! ;D

[chelseamedance]

So this morning I had a meeting with a modeling agency! I wanted to keep it kinda under wraps cause I wasn't sure if it was gonna get me out of this funk I've been in -- Lord only knows what actually was gonna work, let's be real here -- but as soon as they saw me they wanted to take me on! They just needed like 100 bucks for the initial shots, so we took those -- all real classy, nothin' nude (though obvs I wouldn't have a problem with that) -- and then they said they'd call me when they had somethin'. 

And the club should be nice and busy tonight so I'm ready to rake in that cash, yo. I'm feelin' pretty good about this! 

[chelseamedance]

How're you feeling, sunshine?

I guess I’m alright. I don’t know. I’m trying to be nicer again. It’s hard, though … you get it, right? 

[renegadebrayarchive]

PM:  People are jerks.  They assumed I did drugs for every stupid reason under the sun.  Forget those people, do they really matter anyway?  Yeah…I know what that feels like and damn if I don’t think about G-man at least once a day.  If it’s any consolation, me and Cricket don’t plan on going anywhere.  Yanno, to get a break from being mad.

[chelseamedance]

PM: I hate it when people make assumptions. They can't really know anything. And it's not like the reasons really matter ... right? The future matters. That ... does help, yeah. Sarah's even been trying to be nice, too, and I know Austin's still ... well, he's Austin. He's always kinda done his own thing. I know I'm not alone, I guess, when I think about it, but it doesn't stop me feeling lonely anyway. But ... I'm glad we're friends. Really. 

[chelseamedance]

How're you feeling, sunshine?

I guess I’m alright. I don’t know. I’m trying to be nicer again. It’s hard, though … you get it, right? 

[renegadebrayarchive]

I dunno, I mean I’ve always been a bitch and an asshole, whereas you…you’re like sunshine.  I’d almost assume it’s hard for you to be mean.  But yeah, I’ve been a little worried about you; Cricket too.

[chelseamedance]

PM: It's just ... it's hard. And I hate how people just assume I'm being mean because I can't get a date. I lost someone I really, really cared about -- loved, even -- and other people keep on leaving, too. I don't even want to bother trying to be friendly when it's just gonna keep on hurting when they keep leaving. 

[chelseamedance]

How're you feeling, sunshine?

I guess I'm alright. I don't know. I'm trying to be nicer again. It's hard, though ... you get it, right? 

[rikki-lopez]

Guess who's got her re-debut tomorrow?

This girl.

[chelseamedance]

Hey, congratulations. It'll be cool to see you around the club again. 

[morg-pierce-deactivated20150214]

Or it’s literally about everyone here.

[chelseamedance]

Not literally everyone. Look at all the people agreeing with you and going "this" and shit. Besides, too many people already have "significant others" for them to have "finding them" as some kind of priority. 

Kinda hard to enjoy anyone's company or be friends with anyone when "literally everyone" either hates me now or only wants to talk to me if I'm pleasant and cheerful. Sorry I'm not Suzy Sunshine all the fucking time. Except, oh wait, I'm not. 

[morg-pierce-deactivated20150214]

ITM seems very hostile lately, it’s like everyone is on edge about something. How about everyone stops trying to find significant others and just enjoy everyone’s company. Friends are more important to make than boy/girlfriends. Damn.

[chelseamedance]

Directed at me, much?

[rebel-everett-deactivated201405]

God, I hate you. You have NO fucking clue, do you? Whatever. I hope you knock her up.

Excuse me? What the fuck are you talking about?

[chelseamedance]

So you're NOT going on some random sexcapade with Sugar down in TJ? 

[austin-evs]

Attention:

I just want to let everyone know that I’ve been working on this place that will soon be my garage. It’s almost complete, I’ve been hiring and getting all the stuff worked out. It should be open within a few weeks!

[chelseamedance]

Hey, congrats, bro. Glad at least one of us is havin' some good luck around here. :) Gotta let us know when it's open!

[chelseamedance]

Up for going to the beach with me? I think I wanna upgrade my complexion from correctional fluid to porcelain.

Yeah, I'm in. Getting out sounds like a great idea. 

[rebel-everett-deactivated201405]

Just going to drink here.

[rebel-everett-deactivated201405]

Well sounds like you enjoy pissing people off and getting them to fucking say that. No one ever said you were fucking invisible so stop being so damn dramatic.

[chelseamedance]

Pissing people off is the only way I can get anyone to say 'boo' to me, unless they're a client, and they only pay attention cause I've got my tits out. 

Pretty sure this place'd be better off without me anyway. 

[thebestfabray-blog]

And you think that talking about yourself this way is going to change that? It won’t. You’re great Chelsea. You’re beautiful, and you’re sweet. You don’t have to try and change yourself just because you’ve been rejected a few times. Build back that ego. You have tons of people watching you dance every night and paying for it. That’s a boost. Stop focusing on wanting love so hard, because yeah, you’ll come across as desperate and that won’t help. Be yourself, enjoy your life. Go out, do things that you like, and stop thinking that you’re not good enough. There are people who like you here, and the clients love you. It means something. Maybe it’s not a boyfriend, but it’ll happen. Not if you keep talking about yourself like that though. You’re hot, you’re single and you’re a good person, Chelsea. That’s all that matters.

[chelseamedance]

I dunno, lately I'm pretty sure I'm not actually that good of a person. Maybe I deserve to be miserable. The clients like me cause they're supposed to. They're payin' to come here and see this show, but it's not about me. Like, as a person. It's all about the fantasy. And that's fun, but there's nothin' about it that's real. I dunno if that just means this isn't the job for me, or what. 

I don't ... think anyone actually likes me much, either. Like the co-workers. I don't even know any of the new people that well and I don't know why I should bother if they're gonna wind up leavin' too. 

Maybe I oughta just take a trip for the next couple days. Clear my head or somethin'. 

[rebel-everett-deactivated201405]

Just going to drink here.

[rebel-everett-deactivated201405]

You know what? Fuck you. Just because you didn’t know her does it mean you get to talk shit about her. And I don’t know about that, but I know no one would give a shit if I left either.

[chelseamedance]

Yeah, fuck me. That's right. That's the most emotion anyone ever directs at me. Keep getting pissed off. Fucking yell at me! at least it means I'm not fucking invisible! 

[rebel-everett-deactivated201405]

Just going to drink here.

[rebel-everett-deactivated201405]

I’m sorry if I’m not the most people friendly person.

I’m sorry I’m not Harper. But we can’t all be perfect, I guess.

No one can be her. But that’s okay.

[chelseamedance]

Yeah, no, it isn't. I'm sick and tired of everyone singing her praises like she was the best thing to happen to this place. It's not like she was actually all that special. It's not like anyone would shed a single fucking tear if I took off.

[rebel-everett-deactivated201405]

Just going to drink here.

[rebel-everett-deactivated201405]

I keep trying to fix that but you don’t seem like you wanna. I’m not gonna force it if you’re not into it, but it’d be nice to know if I even got a chance.

I’m sorry if I’m not the most people friendly person.

[chelseamedance]

I'm sorry I'm not Harper. But we can't all be perfect, I guess.

[chelseamedance]

Top 3 people you wanna fuck

That I already have or that I haven't yet? Eh, not that it matters much. First three names that come to mind are Everett, Anthony, and Elliott, but I've already gotten at least somewhere with each of em. Might be nice to have someone on the regular, but the chances of that happening with any of them are pretty slim. Anthony fucking disappeared so how can I know I can trust him. Elliott was never mine to begin with. Ev doesn't care about anyone as far as I can tell.Don't even know anyone else well enough to even crush on em. Almost don't even care anymore. Tempted to just fuck some clients since no one else wants it. Guess I'm just a bitch now. So much for fucking fairy tales, right?