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I want to be the shadow, without the flesh

[childoflamb]

I hope you won’t disappear from the internet… You’re incredibly creative and truly amazing. If you ever leave, I know I’ll miss you and your beautiful aesthetic.♡

Any day now, the internet is 97% evil. Thank you angel, I’m sorry. ♡

[childoflamb]

uploading others photography isn't "stealing" if it was then almost everyone on pinterest would be in jail 🤣

It’s immoral and extremely childish, and I truly don’t see the point of it. If it was to spread the name of the photographer, fine. But people just upload things to get likes, and somehow feel good about getting attention even though it’s because of someone else’s photo? Gross. Humanity is ever so disappointing.

[childoflamb]

ok have you ever posted photos of sylvanian families stuff? I swear i remember seeing you post something about them yeeeaars ago

yes, several times I believe!

[childoflamb]

I saw your insta story! Is today your birthday? If so happy birthday, angel!

Yees it was a couple of days ago now. Thank you! ♡

[childoflamb]

hii ^.^ i am not sure if this is a silly question, but is your store still up and available ? i love your choker designs

Hi sweet! No, sorry, I closed it almost a year ago. I’m glad you liked them. ♡

[childoflamb]

do you ever feel like you’re being thrown into the real, harsh world when you step out of your room/house or after you’ve spend time alone in nature? one minute you’re listening to music, being creative or daydreaming, getting carried away by your thoughts or new ideas and then you have to get something from the store or smth and now you’re in this overcrowded place, gross guys walk by spitting on the floor, you get weird looks,.. it’s like being awakened from a really sweet dream but at the end of the day, it’s you and society that are out of sync. it’s different in the countryside but i still feel out of place when i’m meeting people.

so sorry for the rant:3 i just felt like you'd be someone that could understand

Oh absolutely. I feel extremely uncomfortable as soon as I have to step into the outside world, and it leaves me feeling horrible and exhausted. Unfortunately hard to avoid, even when living in the woods.

But it’s good to expose yourself to uncomfortable situations sometimes, I’m sure… I’ve been told…

Take care ♡

[childoflamb]

hello maja i hope you are well and if not i hope things get better for you!!

i’ve been wanting to ask you with what do you take the pictures of the nature that you often post if that’s okay with you of course, you have inspired me so i want to take pictures of my surroundings and keep them as memories since i might pass away in a year or two if i’m not cured!

thank you for your beautiful pictures that you kindly share on here, it might not mean much from a random girl but your blog is my safe place on social media. it’s hard to explain in a language that is not my own but your blog had such a positive impact on me so thank you!

i hope you live your best life and i wish you the best, thank you <3

Hi sweetheart, thank you very much! ♡ I have the cameras I use listed on my page here. Lately I've mostly been using the olympus tough and my phone. I would shoot on film if it wasn't so expensive, I cannot afford it. ): But I've always been into old digital cameras and they're quite popular nowadays for the sort of 90's look. I really recommend experimenting and finding your thing! That's what I did, I just.. experimented with settings and angles etc until I found a style I liked and felt like "me". It means a lot, especially from a "random girl". I am very happy to be a safe space for anyone, that's so darling of you to say. I truly hope you will get better. Every moment is precious. I wish you the best as well. ♡ Take care

[childoflamb]

Apparently someone is posting my face and full name on tt which is pretty upsetting. I’ve never once told people my full name on here, I know someone found and revealed it years ago but I’m very uncomfortable with my name being spread online. I’ve been to court twice over death threats and illegal stalking. This sort of thing is what makes me withdraw from posting. In Sweden it’s really easy to find a person’s details just by knowing their name. It’s just extremely stressful and I am already a very scared and stressed person.

I can’t undo any posting I did when I was younger but I very much regret sharing so much online, even though I thought I was being pretty reserved back then.

I don’t have tt myself so I can’t report, but if you come across a post mentioning my full name please report for sharing personal information.

Thank you ♡

[childoflamb]

a long time ago you posted a photo of hair with little roses on them i saw it on pinterest, what hair color you had there?

This one? That’s my Blythe doll..

[childoflamb]

What's your vibe and style?

Ew, I hate the word vibe. I like old things, I like sunrays through clouds or trees, I like bugs, I like dear secrets and little keepsakes, natural fibers, dark wooden furniture, I like doilies and lace, I like summer evenings, fog, firm caring hands, deep red cherries, genuine music, sleeping, I love watching birds and animals, smelly flowers, I don't like modern homes, I love sunlight through lace curtains. I want everything to feel warm and cosy, I surround myself with things that make me feel safer, I like charity shops. I love looking at things in nature, dew, tiny flowers, mushrooms. I don't like being around strangers, I don't like being away from home. I don't put myself into a category, I am just me and I am not limited to one. I change with time, but in my core remains a scared bunny.

[childoflamb]

May i ask why did you stop posting photos?:(

I still post some on instagram, once a month. Occasionally I post to story. ♡ But on here, it just bums me out when I see them posted without credit on other websites (mostly pinterest and instagram). I often put a lot of effort into my pictures, so for them to be stolen shortly after I post them makes it sort of pointless. I could slam a huge watermark on them but then you lose the feeling. I might start posting on flickr instead, but I suppose the problem would remain. The tumblr community is getting really annoying, seems to be full of mostly teens and pervy men.

[childoflamb]

I loveee your photography 🤍 your nature pics feel so nostalgic and comforting to look at. have a great week!!!

thank you so much ♡

[childoflamb]

Favorite flower?

I couldn't possibly pick. But some that come to mind are cow parsley, wood anemones, wild roses, mock orange, forget me nots, lilacs.. My memory is terrible but honestly I could never dislike a flower. But my favourite colours of flowers are usually white or pale shades of blue, pink and yellow. I can't really pick favourites, I am the most indecisive person (in the world, most likely).

[childoflamb]

how you stopped worrying about what people think when it comes to your hair color and loving it darker? i personally adore light brown hair with blonde highlights but worry that society only likes blondes

I have never in my whole life worried about what people think about the colour of my hair. Have whatever colour you want and stop caring about what you imagine “society” likes.

[childoflamb]

What's your insta?

mjolktander

[childoflamb]

hi maja, i've followed you for what must be ten years now, and i popped over to your blog for the first time in a while and am shocked to see the negativity. the internet has changed so much and i am so sorry people are so cruel for no reason. sending love <3

Aw thank you angel, for checking in and for caring ♡ It's so sad, it used to be different, now it hardly feels worth it. I will ignore their attempts in the future, but posting photos on here feels difficult right now so I'll probably stick to my monthly posts on instagram. Thank you again, lots of love ♡

[childoflamb]

Saw that anon’s message about the days back then, and oh…….. I so feel you both. Maja, I heartily love your blog..💔 It just is one of the shards of my past too. I feel so clear and peaceful here, when it is so braindizzing and messy on other socials. All the content of the new gen is kinda empty and chaotic, nothing rooty and steady about it, just endlessly changing by trends things. It feels like the soul of the content they create is never being put into. That is why I will always come back to the tumblr and dig the archives up over and over. So you will always have me here, as an old stray dog wandering around abandoned homes and coming to your light flickering in the window, surrounded by the darkness of the night.

Thank you for taking the time to write this, you're so lovely ♡ I am very grateful for your visits. Hope you're safe, warm and never have to go hungry.