Today I caught myself in a really low spiral. In my mind I kept telling myself over and over that I was worthless, ugly, boring and anxiety ridden. She is just a better, prettier, funnier version of me that can give you more than what I ever couldā¦ ethnic, brunette, shorter, gorgeous, ambitious, teacher, another business, no fear of planes, confident in front of a camera. I am so upset with myself that these thoughts even ran through my head. I am not herā¦ I will never be her but most importantly I donāt want to be her. I am so upset that my self worth relied so heavily on you. You are going on the cunt list because half of this is your faultā¦. the love bombing to the extreme turn of events where I never even existed in your life. erased like a worthless piece of trash. After all that we shared togetherā¦nothing of meā¦ of us will be remembered or even honored. You actual fucking cunt.
