Lose Your Breath @chloplusone - Tumblr Blog

“Before you know it she’ll be an old lady like you.”

“Hey! Last I checked you were still older than me.”

“I can’t believe Melody’s one already.”

#lrsoastarter #okay sooooo #technically Melody's first birthday was like april or may #but I forgot about it and no one was keeping track of it anyway sooo #its just going to be now #maybe she had a little casual party thing or is just talking about it #idk just roll with it

allthelxovex

“You’ve been acting like a petulant teenager all day.”

chloplusone

“The baby might fool people, but technically I am a petulant teenager.”

nauticxls

Ryker looked to her, consumed by his thoughts after she finished speaking. Never had he thought about even considering the idea of starting over with anyone or anything since he was struck by this misfortune. Maybe it was not only the easy route to take, but the appropriate one. If he couldn’t remember anything, than why not take the second chance he’s been given to just… start over. Than again, who was he to put this on the others who knew him before he lost his mind? “W-Would that r-really be… fair t-to… you? I mean, that w-will always b-be there for you… n-not for m-me,” he said while leaning against the door, a frown on his lips. “I h-hurt you before all of this t-too, didn’t I?”

chloplusone

Chloe stuffed her hands in her pockets and gave a small shrug of her shoulders. She couldn’t lie exactly - this wasn’t the first time that he had done something that had confused and then hurt her but... Giving up on him hurt too. Maybe if they started again... if they started again it would hurt less, “You did but... we moved passed it. I get to say what is far for me and I want to start over again... if you’re willing so... what do you think?”

#who is the worst: Meeeee #after taking forever to get back to replies again #hi howdy I have a cold #how's your life going?

violet-fowler

“Ahh, yeah you’re right about that.. and it’s nice since summer is coming up, so I could show it off and all that.”

chloplusone

“That seems as good a reason as any. I think... if you really want to do it you should do it. I’d go with you if you wanted some company.”

violet-fowler

“Well, your telling the truth means a lot. I heard that it’s different for each person, so I hope that it doesn’t hurt as much for me when I get it done.”

chloplusone

“I’m sure that you’ll be able to take it. I mean even if it does hurt it won’t hurt forever, and then you’ll have a pretty piercing... thing.”

kirsten-the-kitty-kat-deactivat

Kat nodded, but said nothing. Of course, it could be that. Had to be that. Everything that’d happened this year… She hadn’t even bothered to celebrate her birthday. She didn’t feel the need. “Suits the story at least. Murder mysteries need to look intriguing enough to pick up in a shop. Aha, it’s fine, trust me. I compliment plot twists, not scribbles.”

chloplusone

“Well I think it looks very intriguing. I hope you aren’t just filling your head with ways to get away with murder so you can plan one in real life,” Chloe offered a small teasing smile before she rolled her eyes and gave her friend a slight shove, “I happen to have a lot of people who like my scribbles thank you very much.”

#chloe supposes that she will forgive her

kirsten-the-kitty-kat-deactivat

“I thought it’d feel different,” she admitted, looking down at the book in her hands. Her book. She had the first hardback copy. She’d been waiting for almost a year for it to happen, and the book would be released a month today. But in all honesty, Kat didn’t feel happy, just… Full. She wanted to empty out more, and knew she’d probably end up writing a load for the next couple of weeks. “But still… The cover’s pretty cool. There don’t seem to be any major screw ups.”

chloplusone

“Well... a lot has... happened. Sometimes things don’t feel the same after... things.” Chloe bit her lip slightly, not sure if she should have said something else or not. Deciding to change the topic she leaned on her toes slightly to look at the cover, “I do like the cover though. Very.... literateturey... or... something. I compliment drawings not book covers. Sorry.”

violet-fowler

“Aw, you’re the sweetest! Thank you and yeah.. that’s probably one of the reasons why I’m holding back on it.”

chloplusone

“I’m just telling the truth. Nothing sweet about it... but I guess, if you really want it the hurting is sort of worth it?”

violet-fowler

“I’ve been thinking about getting my belly button pierced, what do you think?”

chloplusone

“Oh gosh um.... I... don’t know? I mean I think you’d probably look good, you’d look good in anything, you’re so lovely, but I mean wouldn’t that hurt an awful lot?”

nauticxls

Ryker stopped in the doorway and looked back to her with sad eyes. “You should give up on me,” he decided in the few moments it took him to limp toward the door. “I…” he started with a simple shrug, his gaze dropping to the floor. “I c-can’t remember w-w-what we had. I just kn-know the fee-feelings that I-I have for you. I f-feel it, but I don’t r-remember anything we’ve gone through,” Ryker explained in shame and embarrassment. “Th-there’s nothing w-we can do to f-fix… this. So, I’m letting you… g-go. Who I am n-now… what I have t-to go th-through, that’s not s-something to d-drag other… other, uh, other people into. I kn-know that I l-love you, but I c-can’t bring you any… h-happiness,” he fought to find his words and lifted his eyes back to her, brushing a tear from his eye. “We fix this by t-taking m-m-me out of the… uh, out of the… picture.”

chloplusone

Chloe shook her head. She was fairly certain that Ryker wasn’t attempting to make her feel worse on purpose, though his responses were hardly helping her mood. She didn’t want him to go through this alone. He had been there for the hardest moments of her life and yet here she was giving up on his? People had been spending forever telling her how strong she was, but Chloe currently just felt like a heartless coward, “Don’t... Don’t go. Just... I don’t want you to have to go through this alone. It’s just that... it’s strange... all of this now. You don’t remember, but when I met you, I was just an awkward, silly little girl... I guess I still am all of those things but I think I’ve also gotten... worse some how. I don’t really know how-how but it just... Maybe... maybe we can just... start over... completely?”

#... these two are making me sad #why did I decide to make Chloe grumpy?#aslo hiiiii #let's pretend I spelt also right the first time

nauticxls

Ryker remained silent and instead struggled to his feet until he was completely steadied by the crutches. “A-Alright. If that’s what you want. You know,” he started and began walking for the door. “You’re th-the… you’re the first p-person to give up o-on m-me. So, l-let me, uh, let me clean this-this last mess u-up for y-you.” Ryker spoke in a quiet voice before exiting the room.

chloplusone

Chloe had never felt like a more horrible person in her life. She had always thought that she was the type of person who liked to see the best in people, but waht was she doing now. “Don’t...don’t say it like that. I’m not trying to give up on you. I just.... it hurts Ryker. All of this hurts and I know you’re suffering more than I am, and I’m being a selfish-selfish...bitch, focusing on my stupid pain when you’re... you’re like this but I don’t know how to make it go away. I don’t know how to fix this.”

#I dooo liiiive #isn't it lovely #but anyway #hello how are you?

nessaskinner

He sighs, then. His shoulders slouching down at once. And he scratches the back of his neck, muttering hoarsely.. “Nothing, alright? Dont worry about it. – What were you saying?”

chloplusone

“I will worry about it. You’re my brother - I’m obligated to worry about you whether you lie it or not,” Chloe gave him a stern glance before backing down a little, “But if you’re actually listening: I was saying that it’s... hard. I want to be mad at Ryker, and I am but he also can’t remember anything. Its hard to be mad at someone who can’t remember what they’ve done.”

#aww the replies are def 100% fine #:3

nessaskinner

( Muttering incoherent sentences and nervously fidgeting with his fingers. )

“–What? No, I was listening.”

chloplusone

Chloe let out a sigh and shook her head, “No you weren’t. What’s wrong, Si? You’ve been off... for a while.”

#might as well throw a Chloe at him #cause I CAN

nauticxls

Ryker looked to the other in frustration, running his hands through his hair. “You think I asked for this to happen to me?” He snapped, his impulsive reaction upsetting him even more. “I’m sorry, okay? I… I just… I don’t remember anything.”

chloplusone

Chloe let out a long slow breath and gave a shrug of her shoulders, “I understand you’re sorry but... I just can’t do this Ryker. All of this is too much. It was supposed to be easy, and nice, loving you, but now its just one mess after another. I’ve had enough messes in my life Ryker.”