it's the middle of the night, there's an extreme heat wave tomorrow but it just poured with torrential rain for like two minutes and then stopped. i opened my front door and stood outside in the dark. then i did the washing up. now i can feel the cool night air waft in. it smells beautiful and dusty and damp. i am so proud of everything i have done in the last year and a half and who i am. it has been so hard to believe in myself or trust myself, but i do.












