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Rules
Please be patient; I sometimes am slow with writers block alongside a full time job and other life commitments.
Fics are written with a female reader (AFAB) most of the time. I fully support the trans and Nb community but I am a cisgender woman and I don’t want to run the risk of accidentally misrepresenting and causing hurt.
I try not give the reader any descriptions and I don’t take requests for readers to look a certain way. If I do I’ll generally put it in the summary.
The reader will always be written to be around the character/actors age.
I will never delete anything and appreciate all the love for previous fics but I do not write for all the old fandoms I used to
I am an ADULT and you are responsible for your own media con
I will NOT write:
The reader/character being an abuser
The reader/character cheating
The reader/character committing SA
Mword/Dword or anything in the vein of ageplay
Bestiality or anything in the vein of petplay
Age gaps over 10 years (Half your age plus +7, guys)
Discontinued fandoms; Game of Thrones, Kingsman, Stranger Things,
GAME OF THRONES
Arthur Dayne
The Princess and the Knight AU where Rhaegar is King and Ser Arthur Dayne loves his sister -Targaryen!Reader- ☀️
Euron Greyjoy
Dangerous Plans - Reader is promised to Euron Greyjoy by her sister. She decides to make the best of her situation. Lannister!Reader - ☁️
Gendry Waters
Run Away - Gendry and Reader make plans - Stark!Reader 🌤/☁️
Jaime Lannister
Real Love - An arranged marriage turns out to be your perfect match- Baratheon!Reader 🌤
Jon Snow
A Love worth waiting For- Jon has always loved you…but you are betrothed to Robb- Baratheon!Reader 🌤
Betrayal - Jon is preoccupied with Dany- Stark!Reader ⛈
Permanent Guest - Jon would like it if you stayed - Mormont!Reader ☀️
Sandor Clegane
Bodyguard AU- Celebrity!Reader has a new boyfriend that isn’t as bad as he seems 🌤/☁️
KINGSMAN
Eggsy Unwin
You’re My Best Friend- It takes Charlie to make Eggsy realise he’s in love with you - ☀️
MARVEL
Benjamin Poindexter
Me and You Were Meant to be in Love Soulmate AU! Your brother brings back an unexpected guest to your safehouse. What’s even more unexpected is when your timers go off ⛅️
Nothing but You You get taken as bait, Dex rescues you, Dex is devoted. 🔥 / ⛅️
NSFW Alphabet 🔥
Bruce Banner
Lab Partners - You’re working with Dr. Banner but he’s surprised to learn it’s him rather than the Hulk you’re impressed with - ☀️
Bucky Barnes -
It’s Been a Long, Long Time - Bucky has loved Steve’s sister since the 1940s - Rogers!Reader ☀️
Move on - You and Bucky had a good thing going…until the snap and the blip - ⛈ - GN
Hope Not Too Long - Bucky returns after the blip 🌤
Matt Murdock-
Loving you is Easy - Soulmate AU - Matt has you, You don’t think you have a mark - 🌤
Inside your Mind - Established Relationship, Matt worries about telling you his secret. Semi-sequel to the above but also its own thing - 🌤
MCU!Peter Parker
The Right Choice - Tony’s daughter has every faith that her late father chose the benefactor of EDITH correctly - Stark!Reader 🌤
The Boy Next Door - You’ve lived across the hall from Peter for some time- The two of you have a crush on each other - 🌤
One Condition - You have your suspicions after bad guys get into your school - 🌤 -GN
Natasha Romanoff
Come Back To Me - Nat’s girlfriend deals with the fallout of Nat’s mission to Voromir - 🌤
Always Meet Your Heroes - Nat helps you out when the city is under attack - ☁️ - GN
Peter Quill-
Movie Love - Peter meets another scavenger- she’s also from Earth - ☀️
Blast From the Past - You thought your childhood friend had disappeared but he’s in your kitchen ☀️- GN
Scott Lang
New Recruit - Your friend Sam asks you to bring in the new recruit- What happens when he happens to be your cute neighbour ☀️
Steven Grant
Stay For Now, I Love You Forever - Steven meets s girl and falls in love. Marc falls too -🌤️
TASM!Peter Parker
All I Want - Peter and you have been friends for sometime. He realises he loves you but is it too late? - 🌤
I Was Meant to Know You - When your universes Peter ropes you into help the villains, why do feel drawn to one of the other Peters? - 🌤
I Was Meant to Love You - Having followed Peter 3 back to his universe, he finds you. Sequel to the above - ☀️
Thor Odinson
A Work of Art - Thor shows his appreciation for a reader passionate about art - ☀️
Quentin Beck
Beauty In Chaos - Master manipulator Mysterio awakes to find the Shield operative he’d romanced by his bed - ☁️/ ⛈
MAZE RUNNER
Gally
Carved with Love - Gally’s love language is building you things- ☀️
Reunion - Reunited ☀️
NSFW Alphabet 🔥
SFW Alphabet ☀️
RPF
Jake Gyllenhaal
I Find My Way Back to You - Jake and you break up over a co-star. He regrets it - 🌤
I See Nothing But You - Jake is dating Tom’s sister and is interviewed about her- Holland!Reader ☀️
Tom Holland
Premier date - Tom’s perfect date has been there the whole time ☀️ - GN
STRANGER THINGS
Eddie Munson
I Want You To Want Me - Inspired by 10 Things I Hate About You wherein Robin likes Chrissy, Jason likes Chrissy and Chrissy can’t date until you do- Cunningham!Reader 🌤️/☀️
Peter Ballard/001/Vecna/Henry Creel
Skin of the Night - Peter is obsessed with YOU- ☁️
Steve Harrington
I Fell in Love with You in Stages - multi-part (20 lol) fic following Dustin’s sister and Steve through the events of s1-s3 from kind of enemies to friends to lovers - Henderson!Reader 🌤/☀️
THE BEAR
Carmen Berzatto
Can I Be The One - Multi option fic where you can choose Carmy or Luca 🌤️/🔥
Jealous Carmy Carmy lets his jealousy take over and you kinda like it 🔥
NSFW Alphabet 🔥
SFW Alphabet ☀️
Sleeping on him - ☀️ You want to sleep, he has work
Bookshop Meetcute - ☀️ Carmy likes the bookshop owner
Work stress - Carmy senses his wife’s stress and comforts her - 🌤️
Chef Luca
Can I Be The One - Multi option fic where you can choose Carmy or Luca 🌤️/🔥
Luca Proposing - Luca proposes ☀️
Kitchen sex it’s been a while so you and Luca fix that after closing 🔥
NSFW Alphabet 🔥
SFW Alphabet ☀️
Period Care - Luca looks after you on your period ☀️
Size kink/ Love Egg - Luca teases you in public then fucks you 🔥
Comfort song from Luca Luca sings your comfort song to you ☀️
Luca and pregnant wife at Ever funeral - you and Luca go to the funeral ☀️
Baby baking- Luca makes desserts for his pregnant wife ☀️
First time when dating Luca - You and Luca sleep together for the first time 🔥
Luca Headcanons ☀️ / Luca Headcanons II ☀️ / Luca Headcanons III ☀️ / Luca Headcanons IV girldad!edition / BONUS ☀️
Luca and clingy reader ☀️
Carmy’s sister fics: Carmy’s sister and Luca ☀️ / Carmy’s sister and Luca Pt2 ☀️ 🔥/ Pt3 ☀️ / Pt4 ☀️/Pt5 ☀️/ dating Luca as Carmy’s sister ☀️
You run into an ex when dining out with your husband Luca ☀️
THE HAUNTING
Hugh Crain
Waking Up with… Headcanons - Waking up with young Hugh Crain - ☀️- GN
Solace - you and young Hugh Crain are the only two that understand each other 🌤 - GN
Luke Crain
Late - Luke is late home but you don’t mind ☀️ - GN
Love in the Strangest Places - you do not expect the rehab Center to be where you fall in love - 🌤
Especially You - You get a call from your friends brother- turns out there’s a lot about Luke you don’t know 🌤
Unexpected - Your late night booty call runs out on you. Your pregnancy test is positive 🌤
Meeting You Again - you left for Rome during college- Luke thought he would never see you again 🌤
Not a People Person Until I Met You - You’re not the most friendly person, more into bars and your one close friend- Until Luke Crain comes into your life - 🌤
Exactly As You Are - Luke loves you. Just as you are ☀️
Stay - You help Luke out when he’s cold and alone. Your kindness sticks with him and he calls you after he’s poisoned 🌤
Wedding Day - You and Luke are getting married ☀️
Steve Crain
Took You Long Enough - Steve’s had a thing for you forever ☀️
Theo Crain
Workplace Romance Headcanons - Headcanons about meeting Theo and starting up a workplace romance - ☀️
In the Dark - Theo has nightmares. She’s glad you are there 🌤/☁️
Prom Date- Teenage romance with Theo - ☀️
TED LASSO
Jamie Tartt
Conversation - Enemies to Lovers, you are the player liaison officer at Richmond and Jamie is a colossal prick. Until he isn’t - 🌤️/ ☀️
WARFARE
Erik
All Planned Out - Erik has a thing for the medic and plans out their life ☀️
Boyfriend Erik headcanons for your boyfriend Erik ☀️
Imagine getting a “D” on your nail for Dex when you get your nails done. You decided it on impulse, a little blue “D <3” on one of them and grinned when showing him.
He would be so in love and awe struck by it he’d wanna come with you everytime after that and he’d be telling everyone and anyone “D is for Dex” and you’re “his girl”
Note; Shane fic is in the works and a Dex SFW alphabet
A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex) - Dex would be BIG into aftercare. He’d view it as quality time. Also you saw how neat his apartments have been; he wouldn’t like the mess. Maybe he’d even want you both to shower together afterwards if it had been a particularly intense round
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s) - Dex likes his own hands. They’re skilled (obviously) and he loves feeling you fall apart around his fingers. He loves also offering you gentle touches like back scratches and how you lean into him. His favourite on you is your eyes. He loves how you look at him so full of love. It makes him feel like he’s capable of being better.
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically) - Inside. Firstly it’s less mess and secondly he thinks it’s one of the most deep forms of trust. He’d use protection if you asked but if you want to be on protection and let him come in you? God he’d love it, it would be the cherry on the cake.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs) - He once kept some underwear of yours that he keeps in his beside drawer. Some of it was he wanted to keep it for himself for when he missed you and the other part was he wanted you to have to borrow some of his boxers to wear because you wearing them was so hot. In his head it was okay because he told you to keep his
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?) - Imma be honest. He has very very little. I imagine maybe a girlfriend when he was in highschool and trying to be “normal” and then maybe he tried a hook up once and thought absolutely not for him. I cannot picture him ever doing one night stands. Now despite this, he’s a natural with his aim and never misses the target so I like to imagine he’s very gifted especially with his mouth.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying) - Either missionary with your legs over his shoulders or foreheads pressed together and lots of eye contact or prone bone to get in deep and at a new angle
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.) - He’s more serious. I can see maybe a little joke here and there but to him this is you trusting him in your most vulnerable state so he’s not going to mess around too much. Maybe as you start getting more comfortable around each other he might lighten it up a little.
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.) - Dex keeps it trim. He doesn’t care about what his partner does with their own body hair
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect) - Dex LOVES the romantic aspect. He is devoted and to him it’s just one of the many ways he can show you how much you mean to him. I imagine him being deeply focused, intense and full of soft words
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon) - Ocassionally when he’s single. He has a pretty low drive and isn’t too bothered. When he’s with you, if you’re ever away from him he’ll think of you and imagine his hand was you… he’s
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks) - 100% I see Dex as big into cockwarming. He wants you close, no closer, closer, that’s better…he’ll be kissing and cuddling you while doing it. He also has a huge praise kink and I think he’d get off on you biting or scratching him...
L = Location (favorite places to do the do) - He likes the couch so he can kneel in front of you and eat you out, he likes the car down a secluded alley.
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going) - PRAISE. If you praise him and tell him how special he is, how loved he is, he’ll want you. Similar but also if you show you need him. Also also…you initiating it. It makes him feel desired
N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs) - absolutely NO sharing. No threesomes, no swinging and no open relationships. If you’re his, you are HIS and he is yours. Why would he want anyone else when he has you, his North Star. He also would NEVER hurt you, maybe a little ass slap as you walk by but he’d never harm you. Also no degradation. He wouldn’t do that to you and he wouldn’t want you to do that to him.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.) - Dex is a MUNCH. He loves it, licking and sucking against your folds, sticking his tongue in and making out with your hole. He’s incredibly good at it despite very little experience. If you want to go down on him, he won’t say no but he prefers giving and can finish just from that.
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.) - I think a nice middle ground. He starts off slow, easing it in because he’s BIG but as you both adjust he’ll pick up the pace and then slow down again to prolong your finish
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.) - Dex is methodical and would much rather take his time with you
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.) - A little. Dex will follow your lead on this, if there’s something you really want to try or a place you want to do it, he’ll be interest but I don’t think he’d suggest a lot… you enjoy seeing how far you can push it and will suggest some things and Dex will be like “you want to do WHAT to me?”
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?) - Dex has a LOT of stamina and can go for ages but he’d prefer twice. Once to focus on you and once to finish together. He loves the aftermath just as much.
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?) - He does not. If you want to use one in front of him he’d be SO conflicted because yes it is hot but also… why use them when he is RIGHT THERE. If you really wanted to, he’d incorporate them but only to get started. After that he wants you all on him
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease) - He tries but he can’t. He wants you so bad that he ends up caving before you do. If you tease him, he’ll get noticeably flustered and be grabbing at your hips trying to man handle you to where he wants you.
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.) - I think that he’s a moaner, he’ll hold back, a bit embarrassed then let out the throaty deep moan followed by something like ‘oh god, baby…’ or a ‘mmmhm you’re amazing’. I think he’d then fall into a string of praises and maybe even an ‘I love you,’
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character) - he keeps a notes app of what you like in his phone. He’d remember anyway but …just incase. This isn’t just sexy stuff, it’s EVERYTHING. Also he likes buying you cute but practical sets in his favourite colour
X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes) - We have all seen the walk. We know he’s packing, I’d say definitely noticeably above average, good girth and with a slight curve up.
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?) - Generally speaking I imagine he has a pretty low sex drive and is comfortable without for huge stretches…but when he’s with you and you’re committed, he finds himself craving it a LOT more
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards) - LBR; this man barely sleeps. I can imagine he’d want to cuddle you after or pull you onto his chest. He sleeps a bit better once you’re with him and starts telling you so you’ll come over and stay at his place more often
Shane with a woman who left her normal office job to come work in the bar, maybe she broke up with her last man and he cannot work her out and he goes crazy when she’s flirty with other guys but they’re not together. Maybe she finds him annoying at first because who is this smirking, sarcastic guy showing off to his mates???
He wants her bad so tries showing off and she just is not impressed one bit.
He discovers she’s good at cooking through…not sure how; and starts telling her she should open a cafe and she still teases
‘God Maguire, anyone would think you had a soft spot for me and wanted to keep me around’
‘No, I mean…look it’s a big park, you’re new, wouldn’t want you to leave before you saw it all…’
‘Hmmm’
Maybe another ranger clicks on Shane’s got a soft spot for her and messes with him by teasing and Shane gets really riled about it him
‘You’re soft on her’
‘What do you mean I’m soft on her asshole, she’s cute and serves beer. Of course I’m nice to her’
Hiiii-!!! Sooo I just finished watching The bear and ahh oh my god Lucaaa. I've been like obsessed with him and I like your works like it's so cuteee I've read it all and I was wondering maybe you could do something like Luca x Carmy little sister .And her personality like loud kinda like mikey I think it would be a great pairr. So the idea is they're together and yk Richie, Carm , Nat n the faks ( Neil and Ted maybe Sammy too if u don't mind ) kinda being overprotective over reader because she's like a "baby" in their eyes. Ok that's it for now just so you know I loooveeee your works . And also takes your time ok no need to rush 🤍 .
Hey, sorry for the delay; I wrote a little something 😅. So i see this happening all in one day like one of them says something and the others join in and Luca is just like what the hell 😅 cause to him his girl is so headstrong and outgoing that what do you mean she’s the baby!!
Luca had already heard it from Carmy so he thought he was done and dusted with the lecturing
If anything Carmy had been the more reasonable out of everyone which given he’s Carmy and extremely highly strung to put it lightly was a surprise,
When he’d found out he’d told Luca to ‘look after her’ and followed it with a “Yeah well, she’s my baby sister, I know she’s an adult but…she’s my baby sister.”
Luca had smiled, given his friend a pat on the shoulder “I know man, I like her, I’m not messing her around…I don’t…do that…” he paused, considering your fiery nature “and plus I think she’d beat you to it if I did”
Carmy rose an eyebrow considering it. He’d always been quieter, more nervous. You, you were like your older brother Mikey; outgoing and charismatic but took no shit. For a moment he’d considered debating this but it gave him some amusement in the usually hectic kitchen to imagine so had left it with
“Yeah, yeah you’re right” he said with a slight shake of his head “you’d be a deadman.”
*****
Luca had assumed that would be that until later that day Sugar had stuck her head out of her office, calling him over
“Luca! Lovely Luca!”
Sugar had asked him if it was true, that you and him were a thing and when he’d nodded and said yes you were, she instantly went into big sister mode
“Okay Luca, look you’re great, you’re so good for her, you’re calm and god we need calm in this kitchen, I need calm”
She’d gesture down at baby Sophie and then out at the restaurant where Carmy was likely going off about something and Sydney was freaking out because Carmy pulled a last minute change that was genius but crazy
“My baby needs calm…but just as a warning if you mess with her, I’ll kick your ass, ever seen a post partum woman throw down?”
Luca would raise an eyebrow, taking it all in stride “No, I can’t say I have”
“You might.” Sugar warned “She’s my little sister, I might have a kid now but I can still kick your ass. She’s the-…”
“I know I know the baby.” Luca would finish knowing what Sugar was about to say.
Sugar matched his eyebrow raise “You dismissing my pep talk Luca?”
“I wouldn’t dream of it” he gave Sugar a winning smile
Even with little baby Sophie strapped to her chest, Sugar was still a force to be reckoned with and Luca figured he’d sit through one more talk.
“She might be charming now but I remember her when she was my sixteen year old sister throwing things at Tony Davies because he was messaging another girl. She was upset and hid it well but she’s still my baby sister…so I knew”
Sugar tapped her pen on her notebook “you see her as your brave fearless girlfriend Luca, but I swear if you hurt her…I won’t be picking her up and driving her away like I did with Tony…I’ll be passing her the eggs and then throwing down…”
“Eggs?”
“Yeah she threw them at his car, his house…Tony himself” Sugar listed “so she will throw eggs again”
“Who’s throwing eggs?” Neil Fak appeared at the doorway. “Are we egg throwing?”
“[Name].” Sugar said “At Luca.”
“What did you do?” Fak turned his eyes to Luca, his usually laid back demeanour hanging by a thread “Did you mess up?”
All eyes turned to Luca and he looked panicked
“Luca’s messed up? Like dessert?” Sammy appeared beside Neil.
“If he messes up.” Sugar tacked on
“Messed up what?” Another Fak that Luca definitely hadn’t seen before appeared.
“No. With [Name]” Sugar said
The Faks exchanged looks and Sugar grimaced knowing she’d just worded that completely wrong.
“What did you do?” Richie instantly turned to Luca taking a step towards him “I still have that gun if you’d…”
“Nothing! It’s a hypothetical” Luca held his hands up. “I haven’t done anything! You can call her!”
Richie eyed Luca suspiciously, arms now folded over his chest
“Luca.” Sugar started “Hasn’t messed up with [Name]” her tone was calm, an attempt to keep the peace “I’m just saying that we all love her and look out for her so *if*…” she stressed that word “he does…there won’t be a shortage of people to kick his ass”
“So no egg throwing?” Fak confirmed
“No one is throwing any eggs okay, next delivery isn’t until Tuesday and we need them for the meringue.”
*****
When he came home to you, he of course told you about it right away telling you about the real grilling he got and you fired off a text in the chat.
“Can you all please stop grilling my boyfriend and focus on grilling whatever special Sydney’s asked you all to focus on?
“Thank you” Luca ducked down and put a kiss on your head. “I felt like they hated me for a hot minute.” Luca poked you “I mean I got from Carmy which was one thing…and Sugar…and the Faks…how many of them are there by the way?”
You laughed “several. Even I wonder if I’m met them all sometimes. But no they don’t hate you. They’re just… protective”
“So you’re the baby?”
“It’s just a nickname”
“Yeah but how did *you* end up with the rwputation of the baby when you’re so…”
You leant back on the counter and suddenly despite Luca being considerably taller than you, he felt like you were towering over him. The smirk you were giving him was not helping. He was panicking, he knew it and you did.
He remembered when you’d gone out for food and you’d somehow managed to get talking to one of the waiters and befriended him enough that he offered your table free drinks in exchange for a job at the Bear. Sugar and Carmy had been doubtful but the guy to his credit, had been one of our best servers or taken him to his first baseball game and gotten so angry at a decision by the referee you’d been told to sit down by a steward…or when you’d gone to the bar and a random man had made a comment towards you and before Luca could say a word; you’d told the man where to go with choice language, of
“…outgoing.”
Your eyebrows raised. “Outgoing.” You repeated his word with a mock tone only to laugh when he started to protest “It’s because I’m the youngest” you laughed and flicked him “nothing more, nothing less”
He laughed “okay got it…but…” Luca smirked suggesting something was coming
“What?” You playfully folded your arms
You’re my baby now too” Luca teased
“Sap” you rolled your eyes but rose up to kiss him anyway
Warning: spoilers, Dex is obsessive, self doubt (Dex), reader is a bit morally grey, violence, kidnapping and threats (not by Dex), violence, smut- they fuck on a plane (not in the bathroom that’s gross and big boy isn’t fitting in there), unprotected p in v, oral (f receiving),unbeta’d
Semi-sequel to this but can be read on its own but basically they’re soulmates. Reader was Matts sister in the original but it’s not a hugeee plot point.
Why is this so long
You’d slept beside him the first night you’d met. The same night your timer had hit zero the same time as his.
Nothing had happened other than you’d fed him, made him a coffee, changed his gauze, checked his stitches and then you’d curled up to lie beside him on the tiny bed, your hand on his side over the bandage as you chatted to him about anything and everything.
But for the first time in a long time, Dex had felt something he never thought he’d have; peace. In a hideout he was hauled to by Daredevil of all people.
In the church mere moments before Murdock had returned for him, Dex had wanted to die. Fisk’s wife was going to die. He’d balanced the scales. Foggy Nelson for Vanessa Fisk. The turmoil Vanessa had inflicted on Dex by hauling him out of the mental institution, heavily medicated to do one last hit for her had been exchanged for the turmoil Fisk would be going through losing her.
Now he wondered how he could ever be so selfish. Not regarding Fisk, hell no. Dex couldn’t give a damn about Fisk. He’d launch anything he could get his hands on through his skull if he got the chance. No, Dex felt selfish because by wanting to die he almost denied you your soulmate in him.
How could he have died doing that to you. How could he die without ever having experienced you caring for him like he was deserving of your gentle touches.
You meeting him on the day he’d been determined to level the scales and almost died doing was a sign that maybe he was good. Not in the way of Matt Murdock who vowed to never take a life not even when the person deserved to die or Spider-Man who swung through New York taking on supervillains but maybe it was a sign he wasn’t completely fucked in the head like he’d thought.
The clock had ticked past 2am before he’d given in to tiredness and had fallen asleep. Finally finally finally realising that he wouldn’t hurt you by holding you and that you weren’t going to get up and go, he’d held you vice tight against him and almost felt his heart constrict when rather than roll away, you’d cuddled into him tighter, throwing a leg over his and holding on to him and burrowed into his chest
A lifetime of abandonment, being used as disposable and being treated like he didn’t matter and you were slowly undoing that one thing at a time…showing him Benjamin Poindexter could be loved and god how he loved you;
You sought his touch.
You wanted him to hold you.
You liked that he was clingy because you were too.
He’d killed with little regard, betrayed his friends and colleagues, hurt people…innocent people, manipulated others, been institutionalised, been in prison, but you were here and cuddling into him like you wanted to merge with him and live in him.
Dex for once in his life felt like he could relax. He’d previously desperately sought approval, tried to make friendships when it seemed inorganic and panicked, shutting down when people left but not you.
Pretty much immediately he’d decided that you were his sign that he was good, deserving and nothing would ever take you from him. It was like to you he was already the man he wanted to be which to a man like Benjamin Poindexter was a lifeline he never thought he’d get.
A lifeline he’d do anything to protect
****
You hadn’t expected the AVTF to find out about you and Dex. How could they know but somehow, someone had found out you were his soulmate and that’s how you ended up being hauled into the back of a van on the way from your favourite pastry shop and taken the top floor of some dilapidated building.
“Welcome back.”
The bag was yanked from your head and as you looked around trying to get a grasp on your surroundings; a man in a faded AVTF uniform fifties, slapped your cheek.
“You’re just in time for the show”
“What are you talking about? Who are you!” You blinked at the man in front of you. AVTF uniform, abandoned building, other men around.
You couldn’t be a hostage… Were you bait? Why did they have you here and not hand you over to one of the many police units Fisk had in his pocket?
You had to be bait.
“Hi honey.” Another voice came from across the room and you looked over, your gaze landing on a man dressed in an imitation of your boyfriend’s suit and mask setting up a sniper by the window “Can I have a kiss?”
The AVTF men accompanying him roared with laughter.
“Go give your boyfriend a kiss, sweetheart.” The first man cooed and dragged you by the arm over to a radiator beside the sniper and shoved you into a chair, tying your hand behind your back
“Oh please, if they were going to find someone to dress up like Dex, they could have at least picked someone with a bit of muscle. You’re far too skinny.” You eyed the man in the costume.
It wasn’t untrue. Dex was built broad, thick shoulders, big biceps and strong abs. This imposter definitely wasn’t.
The man in the mock Bullseye suit glared at you. Impressive that you could tell you’d gotten under his skin by just his eyes.
“That’s enough of you” he said and looped one handcuff around the restraints on your wrist to the heater. “Keep talking and see what happens.”
Gritting your teeth, you rose your eyes to meet his “He’s going to find me and when he does, you’re going to be so dead...”
One of the other AVTF goons walked across the room, shoving his teammate out of the way, raised a hand and slapped you hard across the face and scoffed. He leant in close to you and squished your face between his thumb and forefinger.
“Oh I’m going to love this, I’m going to hand you over to Fisk myself…maybe Murdock can get you and the blond bitch both matching cells...we have shoot on sight for your boyfriend…” he squeezed your face hard, a manic gleam in his eyes “Although if I got my way, I’d put the four of you in a van, shoot you all and bury you in a hole like you deserve but the mayor wants a spectacle…”
You brought your head forward and headbutted him as hard as you could. The second you made contact, you felt a blinding pain in your head from where you’d made contact with the man’s face. Eyes blinking, the pain away you looked at the man who’d reeled back, his lip now bleeding heavily.
“Drop dead.” You said matter of factly, gritting your teeth.
“Fucking bitch. I’m going to kill you!”
He wiped it away although it was fruitless as the wound just started bleeding again.
The man lunged for you, tipped your chair back, rose his hand and slapped you once, twice, three times before he stopped, pausing hand raised momentarily distracted by…something…
“What the fuck was that?” He snarled at you as if you’d know, before turning to growl at his fellow Taskforce. “Someone’s in the hall…Evans go check…”
One of the younger Taskforce bounded to the door with enthusiasm and disappeared into the stairway. You couldn’t hear anything from the ringing in your ears but as the man lay a fourth slap across your face, he paused once more.
“Fuck! Poindexter’s in the building. Get eyes on him!! Someone shoot-…” One managed to call upon sight of his disposed of colleagues before he was cut off
You grinned ear to ear “Oh you’re so fucked.” The second Dex saw you, the bruise forming on your cheek, you knew he’d make it hurt.
The man watched in confusion as a blade richoeted from a wall into two guards, the pair of them landing in a heap before another one collapsed, knife embedded into his head
“Where the fuck-…”
Within two seconds, the man who’d been gripping you fell to a heap on the floor, choking on his own blood, a gurgling mess.
The fake Bullseye, the poor imitation of the man you loved, attempted to draw his weapon but Dex was too quick, dispatching him in a split second.
“Baby.”
He approached you, stepping over the guy he’d deliberately left bleeding out on the floor as if he wasn’t even there. He pulled off the mask and started checking your face. “Are you okay?”
How could he have let this happen to you. He never should have let you out of his sight. Maybe you’d realise he wasn’t worthy of you, that he was pathetic and you’d leave him. God he was being rough with you, fuck.
He withdrew his hand from your face.
“Dex…” you mumbled “you saved me, you saved me.” You repeated and he broke out into a relived smile.
You weren’t mad, you were looking at him like he was a hero
He cupped your face and kissed you on the mouth.
“One second baby.” Dex turned and flicked another knife into his copy still spluttering on the floor. “Poser.” He jerked his head at the mock up Bullseye which made your hand fly to your mouth to surpass a laugh.
“I can’t believe they got a fake you” you said “No one can do what do you, Dex, how would that even work?”
God he loved you. He grinned at you.
“It didn’t. He tried. He’s dead.” Dex looked at the man was lying in a pool of his own blood “
“You laughed again. God this situation was absurd.
Dex cut your ties and helped you up.
“That woman…Vanessa” her name felt heavy on his tongue “Fisk’s wife…she’s dead. Died from…because of me.” Dex said “It’s why they came for you. I’m sorry”
He leant down and pressed his forehead to yours.
You knew he meant ‘Sorry they came for you’. Dex didn’t have a shred of regret over Vanessa Fisk’s death and you didn’t blame him after what she did to him.
“Shit Dex, does that mean…Fisk is going to kill us both”
“He won’t. I’m coming to take you away,”
“Take me away? Take me where?”
“You’ll see, I just have something to do first.” He said masking up again and moving back to the sniper.
****
Mr Charles, or Mr Robinson, (Dex was unsure; he seemed to flip between the two) had approached him on the way to yours a week ago. Dex had no idea how this man had got into your place and he’d launched a paperweight at the man’s head before the man had ducked out of the way and thrown both his arms up
‘Relax, I’m no threat. I’m a recruiter’
The man had gotten up off your sofa and approached casually like he hadn’t just had a projectile launched at him by a vigilante on the most wanted list and relayed an “opportunity”.
Special operations.
Dex wasn’t an idiot. He knew that “special operations” was likely CIA work or at least adjacent but more importantly to Dex; it was an out for him and you, a chance for a new life wherein he could both set about righting his wrongs and give you the life you deserved.
God he just wished he’d met you sooner.
Maybe if he’d met you when he was FBI, you’d have had a normal life. No kids obviously, Dex had already decided on that. He didn’t want to share you. He’d have asked you to marry him early and done it quickly…registry office, unnamed witnesses. There was something romantic about eloping and being soulmates, his reason would be ‘why not we’re made for each other’. The old FBI jacket you’d borrow of his made it look like his last name was yours and the thought of that one day being true was exhilarating.
If he had still gotten caught up with Fisk, if you’d have waited for him, supported him through those eighteen months of painful rehab, stayed with him when he was put into the institution, visited him. Of course you would. You were his soulmate, his North Star, you’d never ever have left him... you’d have probably argued with the nurses that you can’t just medicate a patient until they’re out of their mind like he was
Maybe then he’d have never taken that woman’s offer and maybe he’d have eventually gotten stable…
This opportunity was his real second chance. To level the scales, prove he was good, give you a life. He might not have met you when he still had some semblance of a normal life but maybe he could give you a good life even if not a conventional one.
The offer from Mr. Charles came with protection for you while he was away, which was ridiculous. No one could protect you better than he could. Dex wouldn’t allow it anyway. Other men? protecting his North Star? Never gonna happen. He didn’t trust other people to protect you.
Dex wasn’t stupid, he didn’t expect you staking out in a snipers nest; waiting for him to take the shot, but he wanted you at his accommodation so he could come home to you. Coming back to you so you could kiss his face and cosy up to him and remind me him he was good and not broken and irreparably fucked in the head…
He pictured it sometimes
You pressed on to your tiptoes, kissing him and asking him how it went and slowly carding his hair from were it had been tousled under his mask, scratching his scalp with your nails and he’d tell you as much as he could while you praised him and told him how good he was, how proud of him you were and how much you adored him.
The thought of waiting years for his soulmate only to have you pulled away from him was too painful to think about. There was no way he was going anywhere without you so he’d cut a deal which is how you’d both come to be in the first class suite of an aircraft that wouldn’t show up on any flight tracker. No customs, gates or security. Driven straight onto the runway in a blacked out sedan, luggage loaded on by a man who checked you out until he saw Dex was staring daggers into him
***
As soon as you were in the air, you unbuckled your belt, tucked your legs up under you and put your head on his chest before picking up his hand and playing with his fingers, sensing the tension in his jaw from the leering luggage handler.
Dex knew he’d never take this for granted, how casually affectionate you were with him. It’s like you could sense he was still nervous to initiate the gentler things but how much he wanted them. You didn’t seem to mind how clingy he was with you or how much he needed you. If anything you actively encouraged it. You always carding his hair when he’d pull you close the second you sat near him, how needy he’d be; letting him put his old FBI jacket with his name on it around your shoulders.
Or you’d do Dex’s favourite… which was exactly what you were doing now, and just play with his hands… Hands that have killed dozens and you love them.
“I love your hands” you said tracing his knuckles, feeling the callouses and scars and toying with his thumb. “You have really nice hands”
“All for you.” He said in response. He’d always felt a little weird with expressing emotions, always struggled with understanding others but not with you. It was easier with you. You were the only thing he was certain of.
You lifted your head just to peck his cheek, right over his scar. “I love you.”
Those words got him every time. When he woke up with nightmares of you discovering he was fucked in the head, a mess, not worthy of you and you getting sick of him and leaving, you’d card his hair and whisper how much you loved him. You gave the love, the attention and the care he craved so willingly and without question.
He’d never said ‘I love you’ to a single soul until you. Not his parents, no extended family, not anyone he’d been on dates with… not that he’d really dated, he’d been set up once or twice when colleagues wives in the FBI had heard he was single and wanted to pair him with a friend. They weren’t his soulmate so what was the point. He couldn’t do casual so he didn’t really bother until you.
Dex didnt even think he was capable of loving someone or being loved until you and maybe his version of love wasn’t the fairytale textbook version people thought about but it was yours which in his eyes made it all the more real
He took a low breath and pressed a gentle kiss to your head in a manner that showed he was still practicing gentleness
“I love you.” He said back and with that, Dex hauled you onto his lap and began pushing your hair back so he could kiss you and shower little lip brushes over your neck.
“Not on the seats please, there’s beds up there if you want to…canoodle”
The voice of Mr Charles, or, as he was now going by Mr Robinson pulled you from the moment and you felt your face heat up.
“Sorry, I’ll…” you started to say at the same time as Dex linked your hands and began lifting you out of your seat with a “We’ll be back.”
“Don’t rush on my accord” the man called with a smirk.
****
Dex lead you down to the door to the first class suite, complete with a bed. You’d never seen anything like it. The size of the area was almost like a hotel room and you could almost forget you were on a plane and the second the door was shut, you lay down and pulled Dex down beside you grateful for the privacy
“What’s on your mind, baby.” Your hand slid up his neck and cupped his cheek, your thumb caressing that deep scar.
“That guy loading our bags was looking at you.” Dex said “He turned around and looked at your ass. I nearly put this through his neck.” Dex reached into his pocket and fished out a coin. “Looking at you like some creep.”
You sighed.
“You’re jealous.” You said knowingly. It wasn’t a tease. It was a ‘I know you, it’s okay,’. You’d never ever provoke his insecurities. That wasn’t you; you understood him, you knew how it ate away at him.
Dex opened his mouth as if to protest and then remembered your words. You hated nonchalance, you didn’t mind how obsessive he was. It was still something he was wrapping his brain around.
“I’m a bit jealous.“ he conceded with a wry smile. “Also I don’t like men leering at you. It’s…creepy.”
Dex flicked the coin onto the bedside table and moved his hands to hold your hip, he always held tight, almost too tight but never to hurt.
The little grin that came over your face. God you weren’t lying when you said you hated nonchalance.
“You have nothing to be jealous of. I don’t want anyone else, I want you” you said. “I only want you, Dex. You’re more than enough for me. It’s me and you forever”
You could never imagine a world where Benjamin Poindexter was not your soulmate now. And if you could you wouldn’t want to live in it.
“You’re so gorgeous…” you resumed kissing his neck, mumbling in between the kisses you laid over him. “Big boy.”
Dex blinked “is that good?”
Dex was cute when he was oblivious. You knew he worked out, he’d do press ups every morning, sometimes asking you to sit on his hips when he did it and there was a sizeable weight under your bed that he’d lift and smile at you when you stared directly at the flex of his bicep but this man had no idea how hot he was.
To Dex he was “okay”
A giggle escaped your lips into his neck.
“Yes. It’s very good. I love how big you are” you said and enjoyed the heat creep up his neck.
He couldn’t have had much experience or at least, he had to be out of practice... A year in prison and before that several in an institution, not that you cared, you’d never had that discussion. He was too jealous for it and you didn’t care…he was just so good, so naturally instinctual with his hands, that you couldn’t bring yourself to care
They carved up your hips and under your t shirt which he lifted off you, breaking the contact between your lips for only a few seconds.
“Mmm” you hummed against his lips which elicited a low groan from him that made you press your hips to his.
“Baby.” He stated.
You kept kissing him. His lips, his eyelids, his forehead, his nose, his jaw, his cheek with that scar that cut into his flesh, jagged and deep, his other cheek.
“Baby.” Dex said again, with a little smile as you moved to his neck “You’re teasing. You’re pressing into me.”
“I know.” You removed your lips from his neck and smirked ear to ear. The little purple mark you’d left was showing already. Good. “It’s on purpose.” You pressed a little more.
Dex loved that you’d suck little marks onto him, that you’d nip his neck and leave your lips on him as reminder.
You put your hands up under his shirt over his thick abs and strong stomach. “Lift.” You mumbled instructing him to sit up so you could pull his t shirt off.
“I want you.”
Your voice was so needy, he couldn’t ever say no to you.
With a quick manoeuvre, Dex had you flipped over with one swift movement and your squeal only spurred him on. It should have scared you, a man who could flip you that quickly but not with Dex, never with Dex’.
Dex with his deep lost eyes, with his little look he’d give you seeking reassurance, his constant need to touch you and hold you no matter what. The way he sought reminders that you wanted him, needed him like he needed you.
A man who had killed dozens and could kill dozens more with whatever object he could find but held you and treated you like you were delicate.
How could you feel anything other than safe.
“My girl.” He said more to himself than you. Like he was reminding himself. “My girl.”
It was all still new to Dex; having his soulmate to kiss and cuddle and be his light.
He wondered if he’d ever get used to calling you his girlfriend. If anything Dex felt the title was not enough. Too simple to describe what he felt about you, what you meant to him but calling you his everything, his soulmate, his North Star to others felt like letting people in on your relationship and exactly what you were to him and that was just between you and him.
That was special.
“Your girl.” You said encouragingly and Dex pressed a soft kiss to the inside pad of your thigh.
He let out a smile before edging down your underwear.
“This okay?”
Dex checked in as he always did.
You nodded and he let out a sigh against you.
His breath on your exposed, wet centre sent a flood of heat through you, you could feel it pool between your legs, coating your folds and between your legs.
Dex slowly, carefully brought his face between your legs and with only one final loving glance up at you, he placed his mouth on your folds, pushing between them with his tongue, soaking up the juices like it was the sweetest drink he’d ever had.
He lifted your legs up without removing his mouth from you and put them over his shoulders, pushing his lips and tongue deeper into you, now making out messily with your soaking core.
“Fucking hell Dex” you moaned and your hand gently tugged on his hair “Keep doing it, like that baby, like that” you moaned as he licked a stripe from your center to your clit and back before circling your sensitive spot over and over. “Oh my god baby…”
Dex loved having you like this, pressing his tongue into you, lapping up your wetness. You sounded so needy and in his mind it was all for him, you needed him. The feeling of your hands, tugging in his hair gave him the indication he was pleasing you how you liked and Dex would always aim to please you.
You wondered just how perfect his aim was in all senses and fuck when he ate you out like that, like he couldn’t get enough of you and had mapped every sensitive spot of your body…fuck you knew it wasn’t just his hands.
Dex replaced his mouth with one finger then two, pumping in and out of you making you squirt over his fingers as he thumbed your clit with one thumb. His other hand went to his jeans, unbuttoning them and bringing them down before pushing his boxers down, his thick length now brushing against you as he leant back down to kiss you
“Don’t tease.” You said with a little pout that had Dex’s heart flipping over
Like Dex ever could. He’d tried to tease you once and been completely unable to hold back. He just needed you that badly.
Dex used his fingers to spread you, his other hand guiding himself into you slowly. The sudden stretch as he edged himself into you had pulled a sharp gasp from your lips.
“You okay?” Dex asked softly cupping your face and stroking your cheek. “We can stop if…”
You shook your head and wrapped your legs around him, anchoring him to you, helping him slip further into you
“Nooo” you let out a little whine “Want you. Just takes me a second…you’re…” you paused “big.”
“Big?” Dex gave you a little smirk
You smiled up at him with a knowing look “don’t act like you don’t know it.” You teased and he went a little pink.
Gotcha.
You loved having this reaction out of him, and flipped you two over so he was under you, letting you slowly edge down on his length, pulling the most delicious moans from his mouth until he bottomed out.
You began slowly rolling your hips against his, savouring the look of absolute bliss on his face. Dex sometimes couldn’t believe how willing you were to just touch him, let alone have him inside you like this. His eyes fluttered and focused on you looking like an angel on top of him, and in this moment he knew he could die happy.
“Fuck.” He said with a little sigh “Fuck I never thought I’d…”
You leant down and kissed him, silencing his worries with your lips. You were remarkably good at that, putting the little voice in his head to sleep.
Slowly and still warring with his two sides; the side that was afraid he’d handle you too harshly at times and the other unable to hold back the passion and love he wanted to lay on you, he placed his hands on your hips and settled somewhere in between as he began bouncing you softly on his length, his hips moving up to meet yours.
It didn’t take long.
The fluttering of your walls around him, you chasing your high was all it took to send him over, spilling into you.
You rolled off him and into his side as he scooped you up, pressing soft kisses into your hair, your forehead , your eyelids.
“God I fucking love you Dex” you said softly face smushed between his bicep and chest as you put one leg over his
“Say that again sweetheart, my bicep got most of that.”
“I love your bicep.” You mumbled pressing a kiss into it and then you repeated your words “God I fucking love you Dex”
Dex had realised in that minute maybe he had finally outran it, that voice in his head, maybe he’d got it beat because he had you and you loved him, accepted him, just as he was.
Shane with a woman who left her normal office job to come work in the bar, maybe she broke up with her last man and he cannot work her out and he goes crazy when she’s flirty with other guys but they’re not together. Maybe she finds him annoying at first because who is this smirking, sarcastic guy showing off to his mates???
He wants her bad so tries showing off and she just is not impressed one bit.
He discovers she’s good at cooking through…not sure how; and starts telling her she should open a cafe and she still teases
‘God Maguire, anyone would think you had a soft spot for me and wanted to keep me around’
‘No, I mean…look it’s a big park, you’re new, wouldn’t want you to leave before you saw it all…’
‘Hmmm’
Maybe another ranger clicks on Shane’s got a soft spot for her and messes with him by teasing and Shane gets really riled about it him
‘You’re soft on her’
‘What do you mean I’m soft on her asshole, she’s cute and serves beer. Of course I’m nice to her’
“How close do you want another man to get before he realises I’m married”
Is big Dex vibes cause he’d come back with the biggest, fattest ring ever. Probably engraved. He wants everyone to know she’s HIS GIRL. No doubt about it.
