baby

once upon a time

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in love

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sobbing

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had the MOST fun last night. went out on the town w the high school best friend and some of her college friends. the cute bartender i was chatting up gave me a free shot, i kicked some guys ass in ping pong crossed as hell, and made out w a girl in the cookout bathroom. why am i not doing this more often?

because i don’t have a group of friends here

but you already know that’s bound to happen eventually

i am #happy and #verytired

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AND MY LUNCH

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i finished samurai champloo. i am in a fog. i feel dazed. it’s over. i have travelled for so long and the journey is over. it’s over. surreal

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saturday morning cuddles

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my dad. made me happy:)

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i was with him for a year. we broke up december 1. i loved him till the end.

young love

it was the kind of love that pushed me to love myself

one of the best things to ever happen to me was falling in love with and being loved by him.

breaking up with him and finding strength in the destruction is a close second, if not beyond.

i will forever be grateful for him and the lessons his love taught me

but i feel him fading. i feel his energy unbinding from mine and sliding away. my power is becoming my own again.

i have limitless hope for the future. i know a great love will be here one day.

and i know when that time comes i will be worthy of him. i will be ready.

thank you universe. i am but a tiny thing wrapped in the energy of a thousand births. you have held me in your hand and shared your power. i will be yours forever.

and thus i will be mine. and she is my greatest love yet.

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i’ve been with him for a month and a half. we’re going to make it. i know this sounds so quick and naive. but when you have found the one, you know. and i’m not scared to be wrong. i feel what i feel and i will be damned if i don’t share it.

he smells like home. when i look at him i see five, ten, fifty years down the road. he makes me feel safe. he wants to take care of me and i want him to take care of me. i believe the words he says. i believe him when he says he loves me and i believe him when he says he would never hurt me. his love allows me to be vulnerable. i trust him and i respect him. i have never loved so selflessly. i want to be better. for him. because there is no pressure to be anyone but myself. because he loves every inch of my being. because i want to be someone who is worthy of him. i want to love him the way he needs to be loved. because since day one he has loved me the way i have always wanted to be loved. his heart is kind and he is effortlessly intelligent. he is passionate and the smile on his face when he talks about something he’s interested in makes MY heart smile. he is so beautiful. i never understood getting lost in someone’s eyes until him. he treats me with respect and considers me his equal. he communicates with me and puts his ego aside. no action is ever done out of spite for the other, no word is ever said to hurt the other. he allows himself to cry and he shares his last bite. he drinks chocolate milk with any food, at any time of day. he plays embarrassing video games and looks up every word he doesn’t know. he can change a tire and gives the best gifts. his hands are warm and our bodies fit to make one. we are in sync. what he feels, i feel. what i feel, he feels. waking up next to him in the morning fills a hole in me i never knew was there. he is the light at the end of the tunnel and the more i look at him the more i love him. he is my other half; my soul yearns for his. i hope i get at least a lifetime to love him. i hope we go through every stage of life together. i hope there is no after. i hope there just is. with him. for as long as i can have him and for as long as he will have me. i love him. and fuck do i hope i never have to stop.

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found a guy that ticks all the boxes. it makes me hopeful. even if we don’t get together, i know that the kind of guy i want is out there. and that i’ll find him. and that is so exciting

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breaking up with my girlfriend tonight. hurts

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i’m cool

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sometimes you’re just thankful for life ya know

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one of my best friends. friends of three years. one of my first college friends that are still around. dated for two months. have shared so much with each other. sexually assaulted one of my other best friends. and i am so mad at him. i didn’t know what i was going to do the night my friend told me this happened to her. but the next morning i had lunch w all my friends and he was there and i just felt such disgust towards him. and now i can obviously no longer be friends w him. i truly hope he grows and learns, but i don’t want to be around for it. i can’t believe he did that to her. and i can’t believe he would tear this friend group apart. i love(d) him so much. it’s just sad. i mostly feel anger and disgust, but when i think about it too long i realize that i am losing a friend of three years. and that’s so fucking sad

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gf sent me $20 to get olive garden. is this true love?

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i made this account when i was high and named it grandtheftfuckingauto2 and i think that explains a lot about myself