The closet stinks

Just the life and times of your average gay guy in the closet. This blog came into existence to chronicle me creeping out of the closet…albeit extremely slowly.

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Reason #894 that I love him:

We fix things together.

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Wanted to make something gay and outrageous at the cookie decorating party!

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Purchased something super gay from the Calvin Klein outlet.

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Always fun to meet another gamer!

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Put up some brand new pegboards in the garage. Hopefully this space can be more organized now.

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One of the fun parts of dia de Los muertes celebration was us both eye fucking the chub playing the wind instruments on stage.

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JMuffin looks so cute helping me out with this project.

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Had a Fun Halloween with friends this year!

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We love dinner parties! JMuffin made fried chicken and the sides. I made ice cream.

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So happy with this free curbside haul!

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Can’t go to San Diego and not have pizza!

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Had a great anniversary getaway in San Diego. Got to ride on these #bird #scooters

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It’s so sweet when I randomly find him napping naked in the bed during my lunch breaks.

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JMuffin surprised me by arranging this fun night with friends I hadn’t seen in a long time.

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Got therapy again!

After about two years, I was able to talk to a therapist again, over the phone thanks to some insurance benefits from work. (The médical insurance coverage sucks but free therapy over the phone is something I should have utilized a long time ago.

Was able to bring up how I feel about where I stand with respect to my parents and family back in India. And also learn about some mindfulness exercises, among other things.

But it put JMuffin in a weird mood. He takes it personally that I felt like I need to talk to a professional. His views seem in stark contrast to how I view people needing or seeing therapy. I couldn’t be more supportive of people talking to a professional in trying to be happier, more confident, better in any and every way they want. However, JMuffin seems to think of it as a negative statement about him or his relationship with me. Which is really disturbing. Like, as good as the therapy session had made me feel, talking to JMuffin made me feel equally beat down.

But I was able to look back inside me, in my alone time, and decide that I’m going to continue the sessions while I can and make the most of it. :)

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Thanks for coming out to the pool party, friends! What a memorable evening! My first time tripping on a pot brownie. I was incredibly amused! But I finally decided I needed to go to bed. Sexy times ensued, here’s as much as I recall: as JMuffin and Mike tried to put me to bed, I got rock hard as I was changing out of my swim trunks. Later, O’zo came in to say bye and we ended up making out and he blew me for a while. But he had to head out. Next thing I knew, Josef was in bed violently jerking me off while blowing JMuffin. 😅

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Reading this nail biter right now!

It goes bottom to top, FYI.