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My heart currently resembles the ashes of my cigarettes.
Virginia Woolf (via brodyjameson)
CLOUD GRAYSON is 33 years old and lives in NORTH END. He is a MALE and works as a TATTOO ARTIST AT NEEDLE POINT. He has been in Lanford for 1 MONTH and is portrayed by BOYD HOLBROOK.
Trigger Warnings: Abuse
Born to those who knew of only lust in a bathroom stall and adrenaline through the outcome of addiction, Cloud never displayed any traits to show he was anything other than — as expected from his apparent role models — the devil’s prodigy. Even as a mere child, he appeared more snake-like than man, unable to compute the feelings of others, but yet devouring them nonetheless. Everything he mustered was often in extremes; a charisma to all madness which lured his prey forth into the clutches of his duplicitous palms. If you peeled back his flesh to reveal decayed bones, it could be assumed Cloud’s name was synonymous with trouble for the duration of his life.
When thrown into the arms of education, it appeared his feeble youth had only absorbed the prints of his handlers and in their wake his rebellious nature seeped forth. Peers often relished or scorned his antics whilst teachers grew perturbed; stuffing scrunched up detention slips into the depth of his pockets and dismissing him from the fracas he had executed moments prior. This repetitive cycle became ammo for the wrath of his father, mottling his once-porcelain flesh and penetrating the skin with odious words (how such poison often stunk of liquor just as the particular fabrics his parent was clad with). Although the years had clipped his sprouting wings and hardened his fragile adolescence, the boy possessed larger dreams (as any child would do) and thus fled within early teenage years; taking to the unpropitious streets and concealing all he experienced behind a figurative bolted door and amidst a mass of skeletons.
Cloud Grayson existed as much as the false names he professed; Dominic, Eli, Alex, the list was extensive and believable all the same. As he nurtured his dark side like a rotten fruit and caved at the prospect of affluence, he cheated and gambled and conned all that he could — being educated by the most devious of criminals who knew as much of him as he would permit. When they had molded him into their own reflections, they spat him to the curb to return with what was owed. With a debt weighted upon his broad shoulders and death the only penalty a villain knew, the teenager repaid his elders by the skilled art of persuasion; the naive so easily succumbing to his mastered silver tongue. As he once bloomed in bruises, he now bloomed in the shadows. Whilst his antics proceeded with success and evolved in ferocity, the dormant rectitude which occasionally seeped through minor cracks dissipated and he became as nefarious as his comrades.
❛❛ Everyone wants power, whether they’d admit it or not… ❜❜
Consumed by the arrogance which smothered him like blackened moss, his greatest act would occur when he stole all that he could from those alike; betraying his swindling partners, profiting all wealth they had mustered and absconding (once more) to Lanford. For Cloud, the apathy within him never did cancel the wickedness coursing throughout his toxic veins, but the cat does not think for the prey it catches. As all things terrible are normalities to him, Lanford is just another stepping stone holding prosperity in the bank accounts of all those he desires to ensnare.
This anonymous male, with a name as dishonest as the lies he expels, will not stop until he makes an empire of his ruin.
⬥ — Even though he’d hardly been in Lanford for long, he had begun to be known as the mysterious newcomer with “loose” tendencies, but he honestly doesn’t care much. There was a bit of a rush that came with casual sex, and somehow, he subconsciously believed that he was destined for this sort of behavior anyway. As with most men of his type, there’s a caveat: Cloud will always leave before he’s left. There’s no getting serious, no taking the next step for him. No matter the women, sweet or sour — he won’t give you much of his time, but most enjoy him while they have him. He’s an elusive one, after all.
⬦ — He has always been an insanely creative being, putting all of his emotions into art. It is the only time he allows himself to be somewhat open.
⬥ — His apartment is filled to the brim with books, old vinyl records, posters of underground bands, foreign films and odd trinkets he comes across in his little adventures.
[+] Creative / Adaptable / Intelligent
[-] Reckless / Destructive / Distant
i.d. // Alexandria Roberts.
Alexandria looked up when she heard a nearby voice. She wasn’t sure what he said, so she raised her eyebrow at the man. Alix didn’t recognize the man, but that wasn’t super unusual. The last few years she had been too busy to get to know too many people around town. “No sorry, I don’t.”
“Tragic,” he responded, pausing momentarily to survey his surroundings before pushing his entirety free from the support of the wall. “Y'know, it’s never too late to start.”
i.d. // Caddock Drengith.
The familiar word crept into his skull, like a virus returning to its host: a soft yet violent reminder of what had started to kill him in the first place.
Bright eyes tracked over to the young man, a look of disinterest scattering across his tired features as he took a moment to contemplate his options. If he were to hand over the lighter he continued to store in his coat pocket out of habit (despite how he had quit smoking over a year ago), he would be helping this man suck in cancer and tar. On the other hand he could tell the man no and that was that. He wouldn’t then feel as though he were allowing another to drain their own life, and he’d be able to get out of the cold far more quickly.
… But the desire to smell a cigarette drove him to choose the former.
Pacing a few steps forward, the Hungarian removed the slender, black device from his pocket, extending it towards the other without a word, suddenly afraid of his own tongue. Afraid he may ask for his own ounce of rat poison.
Cloud’s eyes lazily flitted over the silent man beside him. For a moment, it seemed as if the other guy was having some sort of internal battle with himself— and Cloud almost walked away with a simple ‘forget it’ when the other, suddenly and silently, held out a lighter to him. Hesitating for all of two seconds, Cloud reached out and grabbed it. After that, it was a blur of quick, practiced motions that were completely automatic: a flick of his thumb, the fire coming to life as he cupped it from the breeze, the cherry at the end finally burning and that instant gratification of the nicotine entering his lungs. Immediately, he made a move to return it. “Appreciate it man,” he said, breaking the silence. The poor sonuvabitch’s expression looked almost... pathetic at this point. A beat, and then: “you, uh, lookin’ to bum one? Least I can do.”
i.d. // Rafe Delgado.
+ It takes a couple of seconds for Rafe to realise the other man was talking to him. Tall, blonde, spoke in barely audible gruffs, North End – what kind of baggage are we dealing with today, Rafe wonders. “Yeah, man,” he takes a couple of steps towards the blonde. “Let me bum a smoke off you, though.”
Cloud shrugged, tucking his cigarette behind his ear before reaching into his pocket to pull out his pack. “Take what you want,” Generosity, where he was concerned, only came in the form of cancer sticks — with a near full carton at home, he wasn’t so hard pressed to keep them all to himself.
i.d. // Frances Walker.
Her nose scrunched up, “whoever said that is… Fuckin’ pretentious.”
Another shiver trickled down her spine, trailing after the two previous ones. The droplets were slithering like snakes beneath her dampening clothes, making Frankie’s jaw clench as her teeth threatened to start chattering. She was glad, then, that the guy had opted for a little bit of kindness, as she offered him a quiet thanks and pulled a cigarette from the pack, slotting it between her teeth and biting down on the filtered end. She waited for her Zippo, glancing between the stranger and her beloved lighter. “Never tried ‘em,” Frankie said, “Ma always used t’say that they’re kinda dirty, but she, like, puffed on Marlboro Reds. Tryin’ t’keep it classy, y’know?”
Cloud didn’t offer a proper reply at that first bit, instead settling for a simple grunt in agreement. After she had taken what she wanted, he placed the pack in his pocket again before his attention turned to the street before him, admiring the downpour. It had been his favorite kind of weather. The sound of the rain hitting the pavement, the darkness of the overcast sky. All of it was oddly... comforting. Always had been for him. Fingers absently running over the cold metal of the Zippo one last time, he too, returned it to her after a beat. “Fuck that.” He gave her a face, recalling a time he had borrowed a Marlboro Red from a stranger in desperation. “Smoked one of ‘em once — an hour later, felt like my fucking head was going to explode. Never touched that brand since.”
i.d. // Theodore Blumhurst.
“Hm?” He glanced up from his cell phone, confusion evident before he processed exactly what was being asked of him, the realization clicking with the sight of a cigarette held in the stranger’s hand. “Sure, yeah.” Theo moved to pocket his phone, reaching for his lighter in the same motion. It was a little red, gas station BIC lighter that Theo didn’t care if he lost, and it sat in the same pocket that he had a fresh pack of nicotine gum. He was just inching past the two week mark of being smoke-free, which didn’t help how tempting it was to ask to bum a cig as he offered out the lighter.
With the lighter falling dormant within his palm once possessed, an expression of amusement veiled his features. Cloud knew that tale tell look, that stance. “That’s why I never tried to quit. Don’t have the willpower to deal with the shit you look like you’re going through right now. Plus I’m terrible at steering clear from the things I want,” he suddenly said, gesturing to the stranger beside him, allowing a single palm to retreat to the depth of his pocket as he pulled out an additional cigarette. “Sure you don’t want one of your own?” He asked.
i.d. // Evelyn Yates.
Evelyn wasn’t a smoker, and yet she almost always had a pack of cigarettes in her purse, and a lighter stuffed in the inner pocket somewhere. Once in a while she would allow herself one, but when she pulled the pack from the purse that hung on her arm, she found nothing in there but the lighter. “I do,” she said and sighed, her upperclass, British accent sounding out of place in North End, even if she liked it better here than in Kingsgate. “For a smoke I’ll let you use it…”
“Quid pro quo? That’s fair.” Cloud thought about fishing out the spare he always kept neatly tucked behind his right ear but thought better of it. From his quick examination of her — not to mention the haughtiness behind her voice (god, it was cliche, but he appreciated a woman with a nice little accent) — he didn’t want to insult her (possible) delicate sensibilities. Cloud settled for reaching inside his pocket and pulling out the pack instead, holding out two lone cancer sticks to the expensive looking stranger a moment later. Not everyday a woman who looked like that walked around in North End. “There’s one more extra, just in case you need it a little later. Judgin’ by that sigh, seems like you had a long day.”
i.d. // Harlow Theller.
“Yeah,” Harlow said plainly as she pulled out the azure lighter from her back pocket and cupped the end of her cigarette to light it. Smoke billowed from her lips as she eyed the male and slid the device in its prior location. Instead, the brunette stepped forward to close the space between the two in order to light his smoke with the crimson cherry. An cerulean gaze meeting his until it was obscured by the smoke that parted from their lips.
He was surprised at her audacity — it wasn’t every day that a woman was willing to enter a perfect stranger’s personal space, but what the hell? Cloud leaned in, the cherry of his crumpled cigarette touching her own a minute later, inhaling until the red rimmed around the edge of his own and the gratification of nicotine entered his lungs. Afterward he watched her with keen eyes; monitoring every one of her actions. Cloud had always been a fan of the little things about people — most notably women. That was probably as romantic as he could ever get. Even after he was done with them, there were always things that he recalled; the smell of their shampoo, the curves of each individual body, the look in their eyes when he would turn his back on them. Body language was very important to him. Considering his line of work, it had to be. Pulling away, he offered her a crooked grin. From what he discerned so far, she seemed bold. “Good looking out, miss.”
i.d. // Charlotte Renolds.
Charlotte sent a wave of brown curls cascading over her shoulder when she turned to peer at the male, her brown hues trailing over his person. “I don’t smoke,” she told him plainly. However, she had been given matches a few months prior that she could have sworn had found refuge at the bottom of her purse. “But here,” she spoke, lithe finger digging through her purse before she pulled out her square pack. “Don’t say I’ve never given you anything.” Between two fingers of her extended hand laid the small packet of matches.
Although the words had simply slipped from his tongue with little care to who received them, his line of sight grew more trained as he heard the desired response — he had a bad habit of buying multiple lighters and stuffing them into a drawer, leaving them simply forgotten. “Someone with matches who doesn’t smoke,” he shrugged, the moment appearing ironic as a man who had quite easily fallen victim to such an addiction and was yet the possessor of empty pockets. Still Cloud took the matches off of her hands, fingers accidentally touching her own briefly. “You don’t happen to have a flask full of liquor in your purse too, do you? That’s if you’re also not a drinker.”
i.d. // Frances Walker.
While it wasn’t too late, the darkness that reigned over Lanford made the current evening hours feel like those haunted only by heavy, sleepless eyes as they slowly blinked away the early AM. Frankie had just finished locking up the store, shoulders hunched up to shield her neck from the biting cold. No matter her efforts, it nipped at every exposed expanse of pale skin. She walked. As the rhythmic thud of her footsteps joined in with the rest of the folks’ in the street, what little orange was left glowing in the sky bled into crimson; finally, inky blue. It mottled with dark, thick grey as overhead clouds blew over the buildings. It happened in the blink of an eye. One second, the ground was dry; the next, it was splattered with rainwater.
Thick, heavy droplets smacked onto Frankie’s head, making her curse under her breath. She quickly ducked into the archway of a nearby building, glaring up at the darkening sky as water trickled shimmering paths down her cheeks, jaw and neck. She wiped away at the ones that tickled her.
“Huh?”
The sight of the stranger almost made her jump. He’d been hidden amidst the shadows, mistaken for one of the pillars decorating the archway as Frankie fumbled in her pockets for her own pack of cigarettes. She’d planned on smoking until the rain was lighter, but the idea was foiled when it dawned on her that she’d forgotten her tobacco at the store. No matter. Maybe she could strike a deal.
“Sure,” Frankie nodded, reaching into the back pocket of her jeans for her Zippo. She held it up, the metal catching a nearby streetlamp and winking up at Cloud, as though coaxing him to take it. “Y’got a spare one goin’?”
He grabbed the offered lighter with the base of his scuffed palms. “Who said generosity was dead?” No one, actually. It just appeared the majority refused to be kind towards the nefarious — not that they were to blame for such a wise decision. Although his addiction continued to haunt, he toyed with the zippo as if testing it’s weight — though his attention was purely gravitated towards her and not the flickering of a tangerine flame. “Appreciated,” he exhaled, returning it. A second later Cloud reached into his jacket pocket, pulled out his pack and held it open for her to take what she pleased. “Hope you like Newports.” He continued, his cigarette dangling in between his lips.
With a single stick between scuffed fingertips, his lips (lacquered with the taste of what he so often desired the most: rum) opened to show a hint of pallid teeth. “Lighter?” The question (or, as it would appear, a professed word with little indication he wasn’t idly muttering two syllables) was met with the arch of his brow gestured towards the opposing archway occupant. “You got a lighter?”
i.d. // Poppy Reid.
Poppy was just getting used to Lanford. It wasn’t as big as Manhattan, by any extent, but she had lived in Manhattan for 10 years. She could find anything if she needed to. But now she was somewhere unfamiliar, and her phone was dead. She had gotten off the train, only to pull out her phone and realize the battery was drained, probably because of how cold it had been. She could find her way home, but…..she really needed food, first. “’Scuse me?” she said, reaching out to tap a person walking by her out front of the train station on the upper arm. “Is there somewhere good to eat in this area?”
At the sudden touch, Cloud turned around, eyes lazily landing upon the woman before him. Cigarette in his mouth, he listened intently, intrigued, brow raised all the while, “Depends on what you like,” He paused, studied her, contemplating. What the hell? He was feeling a little generous today. “I can show you to a few places if you want. It’s on the way.”
i.d. // Emily Martinelli.
“Seriously?” Emily spoke, indignant, to no one in particular. She stood at the entrance to the shop, staring at the Christmas tree like it was an abomination. “It’s January. They’ve started putting hot cross buns out in the stores. Get with the program.”
Cloud toyed with his response (as he did so with his lighter out of habit — dangling it between flesh like a cat to string), a familiar quirk to his lips granted by her portrayed irritation. “If you ain’t a fan of some good ol’ holiday cheer, then you can just keep walking passed, princess. Nobody is forcing you to stare at the tree.” He took the time to light his cigarette, inhaling deeply, a cloud of smoke exiting his nostrils a moment later. “Better yet, if you’re so bothered by it, why don’t you volunteer to take it down for them?”
i.d. // Kenzie Byers.
Kenzie liked a dose of drama, especially within venues that were supposed to be mind numbingly mundane. The woman at the front of the line was vehemently arguing the validity of her coupons with the frazzled cashier, who had called for her supervisor twice already with no rescue in site. Leaning against the conveyer belt that held her cherry pepsi and a bag of doritos, Kenzie winked at the person behind her. “I’m seriously tempted to open this bag of chips right here. I mean I’ll pay for it anyway but a good show always necessitates munchies.” The line would have broken up, moved on with their purchases, except for the looming fact that self check out was having technical difficulties and this was the only other checkout line. Anyone wanting to make a purchase was essentially trapped. “Do you have anything that’s gonna melt?” she asked the unfortunate soul behind her, curiosity in her tone, before the sound of voices raising had her head turning.
The woman wasn’t getting the answers she wanted. And now she was spitting dagger shaped words in another language at the cashier, gesticulating wildly and flinging her coupons about like they were dollar bills at a strip club.
“This is the BEST grocery storey experience of my life,” she murmured, eyes wide with amusement as she turned around again. “I don’t even know what language that is but she is totally cursing them out.”
The last twenty-four hours had been like a cyclone — between work, the insomnia that seemed to creep it’s way into his routine for the last week, and his inability to rightfully function because of the combination of the two, he knew that he needed a proper nightcap. Something that would definitely get him fucked up enough to catch some sleep. Usually, he’d settle for a few drinks at The Cellar but, for tonight, he could do without the company. Instead he had ended up in the grocery store around the way. It had been close enough from Needle Point and perfectly in range of his apartment.
He had just picked up a cheap little bottle of whiskey along with a six pack — got the job done every time — before heading on line. Immediately his brow rose in curiosity at the scene before him, annoyance nearly reaching a boiling point. Of fucking course. Had he at least gotten a proper night’s rest the night prior and didn’t have a shitty day all around, the sight might’ve been entertaining but as it was, he was eager to get home.
Cloud was about to interject when the petite woman in front of him caught his attention first. Despite the spectacle that was taking place before them, the dulcet tone of the anonymous had lured his line of sight forth (and let it be said, whenever a woman caught the ominous eyes of Cloud Grayson, it was often legs first). He gestured toward the items in his hands, “Nothing that’ll melt, no,” then his gaze flitted to the arguing couple before them, “but I’m ready to get the hell out of here. Long fucking day.”
He smiled roguishly as she continued on, humoring her for the hell of it. It wasn’t like he had nothing better to do. “This is nothing — try living in the city. Shit like this happens every other day.”