Magical Clown

"Of course I am~ I love making you blush...you're so cute~" At the nuzzling, he leaned over and kissed the top of his head.

"No need to thank me, you know I love making you smile." Another little kiss and he squeezed his hand tightly.

"I think I'm the luckiest man alive to have you as my Husband~. So thoughtful, so caring, so loving~. I am blessed with the most beautiful and loving Husband ever~," he purred and nuzzled his head a bit into his neck.

"You always make me smile.. so easily.. You always cheer me up~."

He filled up the kettle and turned off the faucet when it was full up, flashing a satisfied smile at his blushing Husband.

"And aren't you the cutest Hubby that I ever did see~" He snickered. "I love making your cheeks all rosy~"

"Dooooove~. Now you're REALLY trying to make me blush~! I can't help if your kisses to my cheek are a weak spot~! I am weak to those kisses there! It's so innocent~."

Nikolai pulled the kettle to the stove and turned it on. He bonked his head to Dazai's shoulder, still holding his hand, and nuzzled a bit. "Thank you..."

"Mmmhm, it is~" And he was definitely enjoying the way Nikolai was perking up so well. He thought that his Husband might enjoy this kind of game.

"Okay~" He would do exactly that. "Just tell me what to do and I'll do it~"

Unprompted, he leaned up to peck Nikolai's cheek for no reason other than he wanted to.

Nikolai was indeed perking up from the earlier night terror. But then again, Dazai tended to calm him and turn his mood right around in mere moments. Keeping him distracted and getting his mind to get to another topic.

"Okay~." He opened the kettle and grabbed it and held it under the faucet at the sink. "Go ahead and fill 'er up~," Nikolai told his over.

And when he got that cheek kiss, he giggled, that cheek burning a bit.. He was weak to those.

"It's okay if it's a good cry. It's been a lot easier to regulate myself once I started actually letting myself cry sometimes," which was something he knew Nikolai would have noticed.

"How about we coordinate? Each use one hand?" He winked. "It can be a little bit like those games kids play in schools where they tie their legs together and have to hobble to the finish line~"

"Uh huh~. Letting yourself cry instead of holding it in is always good for you~. I am glad you don't hold back and let it out~."

Nikolai thought for a moment and giggled. "We get to work together on making our cocoa~? What a fun game~! I love it! I'll get the cocoa~." Nikolai reached up and got the container of cocoa before he shuffled against his lover to get the mugs. "I'll get the kettle, you turn of the faucet, okay~?"

He let out a playful little huff, pleased that Nikolai was already starting to perk up a little bit. That meant after a little while he might be able to get him to safely enjoy a snack.

"In my defense it's--" He had no idea what time it was. He glanced at a clock as they passed it. "One in the morning~ You know my brain works like a snail without caffeine."

He flushed a little though.

"You always spoil me though~"

"Oh, I don't think that's a very good defense considering you forgot about it LAST year too~," he giggled as he teased his lover, obvious the topic of his lover's birthday being brought up cheered him up a bit.

He nuzzled closer. "But, this is like, something amazing that you're gonna cry over~. I know you're gonna cry.. But it'll be a good cry~."

Nikolai pulled his lover into the kitchen and pulled him to the cupboard and kettle. "I don't wanna let go of your hand.. But the cocoa won't make itself..." He pouted softly.

#Ti speaks #bro I haven't gone in a date in over 5 years...#it's so joe over...

((Chat, I'm so nervous about my date not this weekend but next... like dude is driving 3 hours just to see me.. I offered money for gas or at least pay for our meal and he's like 'dw I got it' and it puts pressure on me to make sure our date is perfect cuz he's traveling so far to meet me.. :sob: and there isn't anything outstanding in my town.. I'm trying to think of things to do and all I got is this japanese claw machine arcade we have... SOBS. I want to make it worth his while...

((I'm gonna have slow activity here for a bit. My main focus right now is on @carnival0fdreams

#Ti speaks

He was about to say something, but then Nikolai mentioned his birthday. Dazai froze and squeaked.

"....I forgot about it," he admitted, cheeks beginning to burn. "...Again."

How hilarious that he often teased Nikolai for the same exact thing....

"Now it's my turn to remind you of your birthday, again~!" he cooed as they traveled down and the doors open to the downstairs. He tugged his lover along, seeming to feel better after bringing up the topic of his lover's birthday.

"You always give me a talking to when I forget it's my birthday, now it's my turn to give you a time about it~," he giggled and his eye sparkled a bit.

"It's MY turn to spoil you and remind you that your birthday is super important~."

As much as he adored the sight of both his lover's eyes uncovered, adding a possible headache to a stomach ache would not pair well at all. He wanted Nikolai to feel better, so making sure to avoid unnecessary pain or nausea would be for the best.

Even as they stepped into the elevator, he rubbed his thumb across Nikolai's.

"You always sound so shocked that I know you so well and yet we've been married for quite some time now, you know?"

The mention of being married for a while to his lover, caused him to smile a little bit for the first time since the nightmare. "Yeah, it's just... I never thought someone would ever understand me so well.. It was really all I wanted in life, for someone to understand me.. to know me.. It's still almost as if I'm in a dream, cos that was always my dream~," Nikolai told his lover softly and nuzzled into his side a bit.

"Your birthday is coming up too... And I'm almost done with your gift. Dos-kun helped me with it too, with something certain in it.. But I really hope you like it. It is something I am gonna set up on the day before. So we will not be able to go downstairs in the middle of the night before your birthday~."

#Ti speaks #((Pretty sure it's my dyslexia thing going on cuz I do that a LOT

((I 100% did NOT intend on calling a fucking tumbleweed tumblrweed and I didn't even notice my spelling of it til Kitten said something.

"I never mind at all love. Lets go make some hot cocoa. And if it doesn't help, I'll rub your tummy for a little while."

After all, when Nikolai was upset, his tummy usually was too.

He squeezed his hand tightly and headed for the door. "Don't forget to grab your eyepatch love."

"I look forward to cocoa with you... And you know me so well..." Nikolai knew that his stomach was gonna get worse. It was already starting to get acidic and upset and painful. He usually just tired his best to ignore it.

But... since being with his lover, having medicine now for his stomach, it was so much better. It wasn't so painful he couldn't eat anymore, or would curl up in a ball at night in pain...

"Oh yeah.." he tugged his lover along so he could grab his mask at his nightstand. Placing it over his eye, he headed out of the room to the elevator, holding Dazai's hand tightly, not wanting to let go at all...

"--Of course you can. If I had my way, you would never need to let go of it." He reached out to take one of those hands into his own, bringing it to his lips to kiss the knuckle.

"If it were physically possible, I'd cradle your hands to me until time itself expired."

Nikolai reached to the hand and held Dazai's tightly. His palm was a little sweaty from the night terror he had, they were bare, ungloved. The man was spooked still and in a bit of a haze.

He reminded himself it was a nightmare, and that his lover is better than he was before he met him.. He wasn't suicidal anymore, and would never take his life like he once used to dream of...

"I like holding your hand.. it comforts me greatly..." he said as he finally stood up slowly and blinked. "I'm glad you never mind getting up with me..."

"Mmmhm...hot cocoa with some marshmallows sounds delicious." He agreed, sitting up and gently pulling Nikolai with him. "If it doesn't help, maybe we could try a relaxing bath? Or a soak in the hot tub~ It's cool enough at night to not feel awful."

He stretched and wiggled a little.

"Uh huh..." Nikolai sat up with his lover, leaning against him a little bit. It was hard to move, or even be away from touching his lover for a moment.. It felt like if they weren't in contact, Dazai would vanish into thin air.

"Can I hold your hand on the way down? I don't... want to let go of you... Or leave your touch... But I would like a hot bath or a dip in the tub..."

"...." Nips his nose playfully. "No need to feel bad. I would much rather be awake with you than leave you alone when you're upset." He then tapped that nose with his finger.

"Then why don't we get up and find something relaxing to do? It can't be anything loud, buuuuuut I'm sure we could find something."

A soft sigh. "I know... I would feel the same way if it was you having the nightmare.. I would want you to wake me up, and keep you company.." he told more to himself than to Dazai.

"Maybe going downstairs and getting a cup of hot cocoa.. and putting the TV on quiet with subtitles and getting to cuddle on the couch might help..."

"--I know." He leaned into the embrace and gently nudged against his chin with a soft smile. "...I'm just glad you wake me up now instead of suffering by yourself."

Most of the time he jolted awake when Nikolai did now because he'd gotten used to it, but sometimes he slept through it, especially on high pain nights.

He tilted his head a little to give him a gentle kiss.