“The thing about idols is that we don’t have to commit a crime or do something that’s controversial for people to blow little things out of proportion and judge us. I could never understand the mentality of those people.”
↣ pairing: idol!yoongi x gn!reader
↣ genre: established relationship, slight angst, fluff
↣ warnings: alluding to depressive states
↣ word count: ~600
↣ song inspo: Beyoncé - Flaws and All
a/n: hello all! this one-shot is apart of my new series, 'Song Shuffle One-Shots' or SOS where I shuffle my library and write based on the song. hope you all enjoy the first installment.
You catch me when I fall.
Accept me, flaws and all.
And that’s why I love you.
Loving Yoongi has never been an easy road, but it is a road you’d happily trek down without question.
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Coming into a quiet home was not often a marker for something being amiss. Usually when you got off work or back from an outing, the house would mainly be darkened, save for soft light spilling from underneath a certain door.
Yoongi’s Studio.
Tonight, however, there was no signs of him within the walls of his personal domain. The door was slightly cracked, computer off, no sounds of keyboards or groans of frustration.
Moving slowly through the dark home, you brought light with every wall you touched. Light began to flood the various rooms in search of your lover.
Living Room.
Kitchen.
Studio.
Bedroom.
Brightness revealed the bed, completely made, save for a heap of gray occupying the same side Yoongi usually sleeps on. This particular scene wouldn’t have been a cause for concern if you didn’t know Yoongi inside and out. Around this time, he would either be in his studio finishing up his latest obsession or in the living room, complaining about the show he purposefully turned on.
Head tucked under the gray throw blanket.
Feet incased in the fabric.
Yoongi was in the fetal position, so cocooned from the outside world that he didn’t register you being home, or the lights being turned on. Pulling back the blanket, you finally locked eyes with your lover. Red rimmed and tired, he passed you a soft smile, muscles slightly relaxing as he didn’t have to hold his protection taunt anymore.
“I didn’t hear you come in. I’m sorry about that”, Yoongi spoke through a puff of air.
Carding through his hair, you caught his wandering gaze.
Yoongi has bouts where he falls into himself.
Drowning in inconsistencies.
Sometimes silence is key, or maybe comforting words. Other days its soft touches and whispers of incoherent thoughts. Words jumbled together that spell out ‘I Love You’ in every language imaginable.
Tonight, you could tell he need to be grounded through touch.
“Why didn’t you call me, honey boy?”
“Didn’t wanna bother you, you know how I get”, he says as he leans into your touch. “I thought doing this might help”, he chuckles humorlessly, “I just look silly though, don’t I?”.
Shaking your head, you fully unwrap him in more ways than one. Taking in his flaws and insecurities without passing judgement, knowing they all combine to make the amazing human you know and adore.
“You know you can call me for anything”, Yoongi begins to interject, but you quickly stop his incoming ramblings, “I don’t care if you just get a papercut or you just needed me to keep you company, I’ll answer.” Yoongi’s small smile let you know he understood exactly what message you were trying to get across in a less blunt way.
“Come on, honey boy”, rising to your feet, you outstretched your hand. “Let’s go wash the day away, I’ll let you use my new scrub that you like so much.”
Yoongi giggled.
His face lights up as he takes your hand, thanking whatever powers may be for sending him an angel. No matter how many times he sits and ponders on how you continue to love him despite him lacking on days, he can’t figure out what you see. Your belief and love for him never wavers as you continuously reassure him and shows him that he is worth loving.
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