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War Room (2015)

God really knows how to handle me. Everything He does in my life has a message that i need to learn to be more like His Son. To know that He is in control and cares for me is enough.

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17 signs of on fire na people

1. Philippians 4:13, Jeremiah 29:11 and John 3:16 were one of your favorite verses.

2. Your ringtone,alarm signal, were Oceans, Radical love and scandal of grace and In the highest.

3. You spend your day watching Hillsongs, citipointe, the village church, and elevation worship songs on youtube.

4. You can't contain how amazing the love of our God is and you just find yourself lying on your bed staring at the ceiling reflecting with your douchebag life and with all windows and doors close so that no one could intervene your cry cry moments with God.

5. Then suddenly your mom would magically enter your room realizing hindi mo pala na lock yung kwarto and she would wonder why are you sobbing and you would make fake yawn to cover up the tears. Case closed. No more asking.

6. You responded more than once but in every altar call in every services you've attended for the assurance.

7. Your usual 10 minutes shower time turned is a good place to imagine yourself leading the whole church into worship and the moment you step out of the shower, you magically feel like a new creation.

8. You can't stop thinking and talking about Jesus. Jesus anytime and everywhere.

9. You changed your DP with bible verse caption even tho it's out of the context.

10. Instead of saying "Ma, para", you unconsciously said, "Lord, para" kay kuya driver.

11. You can't sleep even tho it's just Philippians 4:13.

12. Even tho your quiet time is not making any sense, still kinikilig ka parin.

13. Your friends are now starting to wonder what's wrong with you.

14. You are so excited to go home just to have a devotion.

15. You still can't believe what just happened in your victory weekend even it's been a couple of months ago.

16. Even songs that are not related to Christianity would make you giddy because somehow He spoke to you through it.

17. Waking up knowing you are loved and sleeping knowing that His love is still the same. Aaaaaaah

17 signs of on fire na people

1. Philippians 4:13, Jeremiah 29:11 and John 3:16 are most likely your first favorite verses. *Admit it, you’ve posted atleast one of them sa FB

2. Your ringtone and alarm signal is “Oceans”.

3. You spend your whole day watching Hillsong concerts , citipointe, the village church, and elevation worship songs on Youtube. (with matching eyes closed and pag raise pa ng hands)

6. You responded more than once but in every altar call in every services you've attended for the assurance.

7. Your usual 10 minutes shower time turned into a good place to imagine yourself leading the whole church into worship and the moment you step out of the shower,the new creation feels is amazing.

8. For those who plays the guitar, as you strum the strings of your instrument, and study the chords of your favorite worship song. There’s a deep connection in your being that you can’t explain that makes every strands of your hair rise hence,you never looked at playing guitar the same way again.

9. You changed your DP and twitter info multiple times with bible verse captions even tho it's out of the context naman.

10.Here’s the awkward part, Instead of saying "Ma, para", you unconsciously said, "Lord, para"

11. “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength” is now your new motto in life.

12. Even tho your quiet time is not making any sense at all, still the kilig factor is around.

13. Your friends are now starting to wonder what's up with you. *anong nakain mo pre?

14. You feel like you’re the sinful person in the world just because you tripped and you accidentally said * Ay *tooooooooooooooooooot* rated SPG.

15. You’re still in awe of what just happened in your victory weekend even it's been a couple of months ago. * Paano po nanginig yung lower jaw and dila ko?

16. Even songs that are not related to the Gospel would make you giddy because somehow He spoke to you through it.

17. No words could best describe what you’re feeling. Just wow. As in wow.

Page 364 of 365. What year 2015 taught me.

About 3 weeks ago I was invited into this year leaders appreciation night and apart from the intricately designed star wars costumes, each one us were also given a piece of card with a question "what are the top 3 things you are thankful for this year?" and to be honest, I wasn't able to confidently answer the question. I have to admit that just like everyone else, this is a pretty painful year for me. A year of discipline. A year of molding. But besides the pain this is a year that is full of lessons. Lessons that you wouldn't acquire inside the four corners of your classroom and here are some of them.

1.It's easy to become a Christian but it's not easy to follow Christ.

The first thing that God taught me was, It's easy to declare,"I am a follower of Christ and I love Jesus" and to have the entitlement "Christian" but when things don't go according to what we are trying to picture, the question is, can they still see Jesus in us? or are we just a Christian by declaration or a Christian by title? whom are we following? Christianity or Christ?

2. You will never be secured in Christ until Christ is the only one you've got.

The second lesson that God taught me was, you can put your security to your leader, fellowship, church and even to someone but real security can only be found in Christ alone. It's not bad to place your security to these things but just like anything else in this world, they are limited. But try to imagine, "you" secured and connected in the arms of an unlimited God? I doubt you will be insecure. They can make you feel good. They can feed you with good and encouraging messages, they can make you feel important and accepted but at the end of the day, whether you admit it or not, the emptiness inside of you still demands to be filled because of the reality that these things cannot make you complete because Christ is that missing piece that my heart cries out. I'd never realized the reason why I am feeling insecure because my security wasn't found in Christ but with Christians. I'd never realize how dependent I was on these things until the day God took it away from me but on that day I did not just see the void but I also saw the love of Christ who is the only one who can really complete me.

3. Change is constant but it's not instant.

Nowadays, (including me) people love "instants" from instant noodles to instant coffee. As a human, we tend to become impatient and rush things out. Even to our own selves. We want to achieve things instantly. We want things to happen instantly. We want to change things instantly. But I realize that "love patient". So if I want real change, therefore, it requires love. My drive to change things shall be love. The reason why I am being impatient because I am frustrated and I will never be able to change things if my drive was out of frustrations. Remember that even God created you out of His love not of frustrations. He patiently molded you according to His will.

4. In every opposition you will not just see the destruction but also His divine intervention that will lead us to His restoration.

This year God taught me that in every pain, in every situation, you will not just see the problem but also His intervention. It's like in every storm, You will not just see the storm alone but also the one who can calm the storm which is Jesus. But the question is, to whom are you going to put your trust? to whom are you going to fix your eyes? the choice is ours.

5. Sometimes the lesson is painful but sometimes the "Pain" is the lesson. The fifth lesson that God taught was, Minsan hindi tayo matututo hanggat di tayo nasasaktan. Yes this is a pretty painful year but on the other hand, this is also a year that is full of learnings. On the brighter side the reason why God allowed us to experience pain because He wants us to realize that we can only experience joy in Him.

6. The only one who can mend your broken heart is the one who made it.

Sometimes God allows our hearts to be broken for us to see that He is the only one capable of making it whole again. This year God taught me the difference between "Romantic love" and " true love" but what we are looking for and what we receive is just a romantic love.*Pre magkaiba ang kilig sa pagmamahal.

7. He can turn your mess into a Message of His love.

This is a messy year for me I admit. I made a lot of bad decisions that really tested my patience and faith but no matter how messy my life seems to be, God really made a way to redeem me and continue my walk in Him. I guess this is to prove that no matter messy you are He will always and always drown you to His ocean of grace.

8. Love yourself as Christ has loved you.

And last,this is perhaps my most unforgettable lesson that He has taught me this year and perhaps the hardest. Let us admit. It's hard to forgive and love yourself. There's a much more chance for you to forgive others than to forgive and love yourself and before we can learn how to love others we must learn how to love ourselves first. but HOW? again, follow Jesus. What Jesus said, "follow my examples" If you come to think of it, He loved me first even when I couldn't love myself and loving myself is not a suggestion but it's His "command" before we can love others we should first learn how to love ourselves as Christ has loved us.

2015 gave me fears, insecurities and it costed me a lot of tears and breakdowns but it also made draw near to God who sustains me all throughout the previous 365 days. Indeed it is a painful year but on the other hand, this year actually "revealed" me. God made me knew the things that needs to be improved, things that is worth keeping and fighting and also it made see the things that I have to let go. Things that I need to surrender more and the God who sustained me this year is also the same God who will sustain me for the coming years. I am ready to conquer 2016! Awoo! awoo!

Crown represents honor and dignity, Perhaps what just happened in miss universe is a perfect picture to describe how it must be like to have your honor taken. Maybe it takes a lot of responsibility for Pia for having the crown but I guess what miss Colombia did is a lot more honorable. To admit wholeheartedly that it's not you who is the winner of this major pageant even tho you've had the crown even just for a second? maan that requires a lot of humility. I believe it's also... the same thing that Jesus did for us 2000 years ago, He wholeheartedly took our crown of thorns and gave us His crown of righteousness and publicly displayed our crown of thorns at the cross. He publicly traded our wretchedness for "us" to have His honor to be called Sons and daughters of the living God. The only thing that we need to do is simply accept that crown that Jesus sheded His blood for.

#crown of thorns crown of righteousness #miss universe

Give me Love.

GIVE ME LOVE

"Love is patient"Am I the only one who wonder why the very first thing that the bible says about Love is it is patient? it's a mystery that I ignore until the day I experienced the love itself and finally it makes sense. As I venture out to the realms of Love, along the process I realized that loving is not easy and indeed, it takes a lot of patience not just in terms of waiting but also in terms of endurance. If you are thinking that Love is all about hugs and kisses then you haven't fully understand the wide concept of what love is.

LOVE IS A DECISION

Contrary to the popular belief, "Love is a decision not an emotion" It is an action. It is a "choice" not just a declaration. It's easy to say "I love you" It's easy to declare "I am in love with you" but proving it is a different story. Most people today believe that Love is an emotion. The basis of love is always the so called "feelings" or "kilig". If love is a feelings, the question is how long are we going to hold on to our feelings? Hanggang kelan tayo kikiligin? when we all know that feelings subside and fade. But man, Love? "It never fails" 1 Corinthians 13 says "It is ALWAYS constant". People ought to know the difference between "Romance" and "Love". Being romantic is so easy as 1.2.3 but to Love? it has never been easy. Again, It will point us back to the fact that it is a decision. If you love a person, tho you are aware of their past, you've seen their flaws in life, their imperfections both inside and out yet still, you do accept them just the way they are.You don't care whether they are virgin or not, Why? Again, Love is a "choice".

LOVE IS SELF-LESS

And when we love, you are willing to give everything to that someone no matter what the cost is. Pag nag-mahal ka, handa mong ibigay lahat wag lang silang mawala, You are willing to give your time, your finances, everything you have. Even your purity. Wag lang silang mawala. And when we love there will be a time that all we ever think about is them. How you can make her feel special, how you can make them feel complete. That's Love, it is "Self-less". We want to give everything we have even to the point na wala ng matira satin. Just to make sure we can make them complete and secured.

LOVE IS A SACRIFICE

When we love, We sacrifice, it means you are willing to give up something for someone. You are willing to give up your pride, your career, your dreams, even your ego. Even your own life just to love that someone. That's love, it's sacrifice. Pag mahal mo yung isang tao, handa mong isuko lahat even yung relasyon niyong dalawa. Kahit di na kayo magkasama,kahit di mo na siya nakikita, kahit hindi na kayo magkayakap, basta alam mong masaya siya, kahit sobrang sakit, handa mong isuko even that. Para lang lumaya siya. Because when we love, we are willing to "let go", because when there is Love, there is also "freedom".

People ought to know that our hearts demands for Love but what we get is romance.What we get from what we thought to be love,is just first-aid for a wound that bleeds non-stop. A band aid for a fracture. We ought to know that our hearts since the day we were born, it has always been broken and it has an eternal pit that demands to be filled. That's why we are longing for love because we are longing for healing. Because only Love can mend our hearts.

Apart from DECISION,SELF-LESS, and SACRIFICE, This is the real definition of Love,

What is Love?

When you ask people what is love they will usually give you answers such as Love is patient, love is blind, and so on. Nowadays love is overrated. A lot of people could say “I love you” at anytime and anywhere without even understanding what the real definition of Love is. I am not a love expert but I will be speaking based on how the Love itself taught me how to love.

Over the past 6 months, God is teaching me a lot of lesson and so far I can say that my favorite is about Love. Before, I thought when you say “Love” it always equates to first kisses, first dates, forehead kisses and a bouquet of roses. Then I wondered what if these things that I’ve mentioned aren’t around? can we still call it love? The thing is people would always equate Love to “romance” without even realizing that they are totally different.

What we deserve is Love but what we get is romance. As a human being whether we admit it or not ang dali lang natin kiligin. Ang dali lang ma inlove. But the question is, hanggang kelan tayo dedepende sa feelings natin? hanggang kelan tayo dedepende sa emotions natin? What if suddenly the so called “kilig” is gone? can we still call it love? The Truth is, Love is a decision not an emotion. perhaps one of the most common misconception of us is that love is a feelings.

#love

"Failure" a seven letter word that tattooed on my mind and getting out of my walls of shame was never easy because I was paralyzed by the fears of people seeing and defining me by the scars of my perverted identity. Helpless, hopeless - thats who I was. But when LOVE came down and rescued me, He tore down the walls of shame and I saw how violent yet beautiful the cross was and its precious trade. He then clothed me with honor and dignity. He placed His crown of righteousness on me and He wore my crown of thorns in exchange. He turned my scars into message of His blood. Filth and guilt gone. "My son, it is finished," He assured. From the ashes of my past, a new creation was born. Walking in confidence and holding the banner of freedom and redemption. As the victory of Jesus declared, my heart screams that my past shall be silenced through the LOVE of my Father for me.

Open letter to my depression

Dear Depression,

You first had me when I was only 16.

When mom told me that my Dad is cheating.

She promised to Dad that She will not let me know it.

Because she wants to protect our relationship,

But nothing on earth can conceal it. So then she confessed it.

I promised mom to get mad at him and tried taming the anger within.

Until the day came when it rooted

and it destroyed the thing’s that we’ve had been.

Upon entering college, I’ve decided to take my dream course

But my dad intervened off course,

I pleaded and begged even, but it left me with no choice.

I tried fitting inside that urban jungle, but I ended up screaming as if I am in hell.

I’ve set my mind that I will still excel, despite the possibility that I might fell.

Dear Depression,

Just when I thought when everything is going so well,

the anger within grew and trapped me like I am inside the cell.

Then you came and I started hearing voices in my head telling me that I am so unloved that’s why such things are happening in my life.

I looked for that love among the crowd, among the things that this world is offering to me.

To people whom depression told me who would love me.

Then at early age of 16 I had my first stick of nicotine.

Because that’s what the world told me to do. In order for them to accept me,

I have to , “To fit in”

Despite the fact that I am an acidic, I treat alcohol as if it is nothing.

It brought me to places that I’d never been to, It made me forget the reality too.

Dear Depression,

You made believe that no one loves me. That you brought me to the world of lust and pornography

You made me believe that these things could fill the eternal void within.

You made me believe that these websites

But I just ended up feeling dirty about myself.

Dear Depression,

You had once again when I failed in one of my subject,

You made me believe that I am a failure. You made me believe that my life was a mistake.

You made me believe that I have no future.

Yes I’ve messed up but I am not a mess

Yes I failed but I am not a failure.

Christ did not remain defeated, So am I!

Over the past few months I feel lost and insecure. For some unexplainable reason, I feel defeated and alone. I wanna fight but the lie that I am not good enough is way too strong for me. I feel rejected both at school, in the household and even in church. I was having lunch alone. I was spending my time alone and even my quiet time with Him feels like an another torture of loneliness. I was wondering what God has been doing to me this season? and what does He wants to say to me? And because of a reason that I feel rejected, I went back to my old idols. Which includes pornography. Hoping that they would fill the emptiness in me. Hoping that this void could be filled once more. But i was deceived, I fell and I fell and fell until I reached the point that I feel incredibly dirty and unworthy about myself. The enemy bombarded my thoughts with lies such as, "You are not walking your talk you hypocrite!" "You are a defeated being who is trying to clean His name in front of everyone else but deep inside, you stink and you can't keep that forever!" "you should Stop attending the church now Jeff" "Look at you, you are weak! " And a long list of lies... My mistake was, I believed in these, I couldn't eat for days nor could sleep properly and it even affected my performance at school. I'd become very anxious about everything and doubt about God even kicked in. I tried rebuking it several times but it just keeps on coming back.

My head became a battlefield of overwhelming lies .Then it just happened, my head just became blank, I was on my way home, I was listening to a song using my ipod, I turned the volume up to it's highest point , closed down my eyes, and crossed the highway. For unexplainable reason, I dunno why I made it safely to the other side, So I crossed the highway for the 2nd time around but still nothing happened. I went home. I ranted on God, "So you don't want me to the die, but why am I feeling these? why is this happening to me? Please rekindle the joy" Then He spoke to me, "My Son, what happened on the cross?" I said, "Jesus... gave His life for me on that cross" "What else my Son?" I replied, "His blood became a ransom for all my iniquities and all my wretchedness, He took that wretchedness and gave me His righteousness" "what else?" "He died but He did not remain defeated" then God reminded me of His word in Galatians 2:20, “I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” Then a realization rushed in, So it means, “If Christ did not remain defeated and my old self was already on that cross, and the one who lives in me now is no longer I but Him, And if Christ did not remain defeated,

So am I!”

The following week, I attended the youth service, the worship and His presence was so intense,I knelt down and closed my eyes. I ended my prayer, I then uttered, "LET YOUR WILL BE DONE" then as I open up my eyes, I saw a shadow of myself, Then He spoke to me again, "My Son, this is your situation, the reason why you feel so condemned these days because your eyes aren't fixed on me. It is on your shadows. On your past. Not on me. My Son, It is finished! turn and fix your eyes on me! on the light. Forget your shadows. Forgive yourself and pick up your mat. Because I have forgiven you".

God didn't just save me, He also gave me a family.

Brother by spirit.

Dead to Sin, Alive in Christ

"I will fight to follow, I will fight for love. Throw my life forever to the triumph of the Son"

This is one of my favorite Hillsong songs and at first I thought it's just a song that pertains to fighting the good fight of faith, technically it is but as I listen and meditate to it more and more, God made me realized that it also talks about "Fighting to surrender" Fighting in a way that we need to surrender ourselves to Him and repent everyday. Just like the process for a metal to be pure, It undergoes extreme pressure, extreme cold and extreme Heat for it to become "Pure" The same thing goes for us, We need to be forged over and over until we reach our highest potential and let His will be done. God allows us to experience Spiritual dryness, coldness and Frustrations for us to be "Spiritually pure and mature". We need to die from ourselves everyday for us to be Christ-like. I remember one of the bible verse in John,God is the gardener and Jesus is the true vine and the branches that are connected to Him are us. God prunes those branches that are unnecessary. It can be our Pride, Timidity, Anger, lust, and lot more.So that it can make way for it to produce even more fruit. It can be painful but guys, God is in control and in the the end, His plan is not to forsake us nor leave us. All we need to do is have "faith"in Him and surrender our 100%. Remember that Even Christ Jesus fought to surrender Himself to the will of our Heavenly Father and it resulted to our salvation. So in this season let us rejoice and take heart because Jesus have overcome the world. And this test will become a testimony and these trials will turn into triumphs. "Truly, truly I say to you, you will weep and lament, but the world will rejoice. You will be sorrowful, but your sorrow will turn into Joy" (John 16:20)

Let us fix our eyes on Jesus not on our season, but on the other hand, let us look at the learnings and revelations that God wants us to have. Let us go according to His plan not to the plans we have for ourselves. Nothing is ever more pleasing to God than seeing His sons and daughter's living a fully surrendered life.

Why would God save someone like me?

It has been 9 months since the day that I accepted Him in my life as my Lord and savior. 9 months of roller coaster ride. 9 months of war against my flesh and pride. 9 months of molding. 9 months of walk towards Him. But this question still lingers me, why would a Holy God save someone like me ?

I had review of my former life before I met Him and I saw a sellfish, anger filled-Rebellious guy who knows nothing but to enjoy all the pleasures that this world offers him. A guy who follows a pattern of the society that he’s been pleasing ever since but always end up getting dissapointed because of it’s High standard. My parents forced me to take a course which happens to be not on my field and for that reason, I feel violated. Anger,hatred and pride controlled my life and it destroyed my relationships toward my parents, and other people as well. I can ignore them for days, weeks and even months. The only formal love we had was through my allowance. I answered them back as if I didn’t come from them as if same blood doesn’t run in us. I’d rather have dinner outside than to eat with them. I’ve placed my security among my friends and I found pleasure in drinking alcohol and smoking. Each time I inhale nicotine, my mind achieved a state of temporary nirvana. Making me forget all the anger and reality. But nothing is permanent, As soon as the nicotine and alcohol wear off, I’m back again.

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