Coffeehouse Conversations

an artistic discussion on life // documentation of my travels while i search for myself

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depression is wanting to be alone but constantly feeling lonely

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25 nov 2016

i’m still alive

but last night i nearly lost my mind because i couldn’t find anything sharp in my room because i had already lost my mind

today i found a razor in my father’s study and broke off two pieces

i had to put a layer of makeup and powder on my foot just to go downstairs because i am tired of wearing socks

so now my feet are different shades, but at least they do not look like a battlefield

but i am also tired of feeling all of this

like i can’t breathe

and i remember everything, like life flashing before your eyes, except i am not about to die

i am already dead, i feel

i feel too much and am numb at the same time

i can’t get the heavy out of my heart

[moonlightbaexoxo]

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I haven’t done enough to die yet

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and now it hurts both on the outside and the inside

[dexfiles]

if flowers can teach themselves how to bloom after winter passes, so can you

[the-rad-grunge-queen-deactivate]

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“I wanted to kill myself and you were yelling about dirty dishes”

12 word story, d.m (via i-need-a-cure)
(via pvnkslut)

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Friday morning

[these-lights-in-budapest]

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I'm fairly lost and I think I've accepted that

[grunge-ga]

grunge love xx

[badbadhabits]

history says it’s magic until you’re able to explain / therefore, i’m a witch / i’ll strip your skin and wear it like a coat / i have a raven on every shoulder, one is lure, one is kill / my body is a death trap for hearts - no, i’m just tired, limbs splayed out on the ground / scientists deny my existence until i can be proven in labs / i say ‘no animal testing except if it’s you’ and you slap me across the face for telling the truth / men i love have the habit of saying one thing and doing the opposite - which came first, the heart or the hurting? / it took me twenty-five years to learn that i own this body no matter how many lawyers are on your side / the mouth of a gun between my ribs is the only ‘i love you’ i ever understood / most nights i don’t get why people in movies always give up everything for love / most nights, i’m glad to sleep alone / my mother says ‘one day you’ll find someone’ / and i pray to god i won’t.

- a fist and a heart are sort of the same thing, anne hildegard

[secutelesbian]

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Love who you are

[n0thing-seems-2-change]

[cobainly]

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Pictures to describe how I feel tonight

[sophrosynist]

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I have my parents and my sister, who don't understand me well; I have my coworkers, who definitely don't understand me; I have some friends that are occasionally reachable and also only occasionally understand me; and I have my therapist, who is currently on maternity leave because although she understands me better than anyone else, she is someone else's mother and could drop me at any time.

[kaenwolf]

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