Look at this god forsaken mess.

RP Status: Active but slow. Sebastian Smythe. Columbia University. 21. (This is a mature 1x1 Past/Present/Future Seblaine RP. Some events of their past remain the same, and their future is completely rewritten.) Canon Divergence.

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OOC:

Hey Everyone!

Just wanted to let you all know that we are very much still around and plan on continuing at some point. Can’t really say when as things are just now getting back to normal for us. We had a personal and major loss in our family this June and it’s rocked us pretty hard.

But! We’ll be back as soon as we can! We appreciate you all and can’t wait to share more of our boys and their story. 

Thank you!

-S (Blaine) & H (Seb)

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SEBLAINE- PRESENT DAY (Late December/End of Year One)-I Still Remember the First Fall of Snow

Para/Phone Call: I Still Remember the First Fall of Snow- Part 1 of 2. 

Rating: PG-13.

Sebastian: @colorsicantsee 

Blaine: @twoblueheartslocked

Time: Year One: Present Day. December 30. 2 and a half months after No Stopping Your Plans (Present Day, End of Year One. Blaine 22 (as of October 22), Sebastian 21 (as of August 27)

Location:  Ohio/Blaine’s Apartment- Brooklyn, New York

Info: Sebastian attempts to travel back to New York after visiting his parents in Ohio during a snowstorm. Blaine panics.

Warnings; please read: This para has themes of alcohol addiction, depression/anxiety, mentions of past domestic abuse, and mentions of death. This RP in general has themes of past abuse(Physical, mental and sexual), previous unwanted sexual situations, anxiety, depression, negative body image, drug use, alcohol use, cussing, and death(parents).

Extra Warnings: (This RP is not Kurt Hummel friendly. He is not a nice man at all. Never will be in this RP. You’ve all been warned.)

Title Taken From:  All Too Well (TMV) (TV)-Taylor Swift

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(And how it glistened as it fell,

 I remember it all too well)

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ooc:

Hey friends!

Yes, we are still very much around and still have plenty to write for these two sad, but very much healing, boys. We’re still slow, but we plan to be back to posting in March. 

Thank you all for your support and patience! 

-S(Blaine) and H(Seb)

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Edit: March/April.

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SEBLAINE- PRESENT DAY (Mid October/Year 1)-No Stopping Your Plans (And Those Slow Hands)

Para: No Stopping Your Plans (And Those Slow Hands)

Pairing: Seblaine.

Rating: NC-17

Sebastian: @colorsicantsee 

Blaine: @twoblueheartslocked

Time: Year One: Present Day. Second week of October- Six weeks  after It’s Supposed to Be Fun Turning Twenty-One. 

Location:  Sebastian’s Apartment- Manhattan, New York

Info: Blaine helps Sebastian with some studying. Things don’t go as planned- or do they?

Warnings; please read: This para is sex/smut with plot. (Bottom Blaine for this one.) -Mentions themes of alcohol addiction, recovery discussion, depression/anxiety, past (physical, mental, and sexual) and mentions of past unwanted sexual advances while under the influence of alcohol. -This RP in general has themes of past abuse (physical, mental and sexual), previous unwanted sexual situations, anxiety, depression, negative body image, drug use, alcohol use, cussing, and death(parents).

Extra Warnings: (This RP is not Kurt Hummel friendly. He is not a nice man at all. Never will be in this RP. You’ve all been warned.)

Title Taken From:  Slow Hands- Niall Horan

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(Fingertips putting on a show-

Can’t you tell that I want you, baby)

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ooc:

We promise we’re still around. Slowly but surely working on the next para. Should be up by mid October. :) We aren’t going anywhere. We may take forever but we’ll always be sure to update asap. 

Thanks for sticking around!

-S (Blaine) & H (Seb)

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ooc:

We’re still, sadly, on a bit of a hiatus. Para’s are currently in progress and will be up asap. :) We’re still around and are still slowly working towards the next update. We’re almost ready. Hopefully we get a better system down in the next couple of months.

See you soon!

-S (Blaine) & H (Seb)

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OOC:

This RP will be going on a slight hiatus! We have two big trips coming up in May and as it’s already been hard to write as of late we’ve decided to just hold off until we have more time. Probably the middle of June, but possibly the end. Don’t worry though! We shall be back with hopefully a happier para for our boys! They both deserve it. <3

We will still be updating the Fic  version of the RP though if you’d like to revisit. :)

You can find it here!

Thank you all for your patience and we’ll see you in June.

-S(Blaine) & H(Seb)

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SEBLAINE- PRESENT DAY (LATE AUGUST/YEAR 1)-It’s Supposed To Be Fun Turning Twenty-One (Part Two)

Para: (Part Two of Two) It’s Supposed To Be Fun Turning Twenty-One 

Sebastian: @colorsicantsee 

Blaine: @twoblueheartslocked

Time: Year One: Present Day. The weekend after Sebastian’s 21st Birthday (which is August 27) Takes place in the twenty-four hours after (Part One)

Location:  The bar/Blaine’s Apartment- Brooklyn, New York

Info:  A terrified yet determined Blaine helps Sebastian pick up the pieces after his relapse.

Warnings; please read: This para has themes of alcohol addiction, depression/anxiety, and mentions of unwanted sexual advances while under the influence of alcohol. Mentions of past abuse. This RP in general has themes of past abuse(Physical, mental and sexual), previous unwanted sexual situations, anxiety, depression, negative body image, drug use, alcohol use, cussing, and death(parents).

Extra Warnings: (This RP is not Kurt Hummel friendly. He is not a nice man at all. Never will be in this RP. You’ve all been warned.)

Title Taken From:  Taylor Swift- All Too Well (10 minute version) (Taylor’s Version)

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 ( I might be okay, but I’m not fine at all) 

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SEBLAINE- PRESENT DAY (LATE AUGUST/YEAR 1)-It’s Supposed To Be Fun Turning Twenty-One (Part One)

Sebastian *Self Para: (Part One of Two) It’s Supposed To Be Fun Turning Twenty-One 

Sebastian: @colorsicantsee 

Blaine: @twoblueheartslocked

Time: Year One: Present Day. The weekend after Sebastian’s 21st Birthday which is August 27. (About a month after Please Remind Me Who I Really Am.)

Location:  The bar/Blaine’s Apartment- Brooklyn, New York

Info:  Sebastian struggles with the demons of his past and ends up in a very real and very scary situation.

Warnings; please read: This para has themes of alcohol addiction, depression/anxiety, and mentions of unwanted sexual advances while under the influence of alcohol. This RP in general has themes of past abuse(Physical, mental and sexual), previous unwanted sexual situations, anxiety, depression, negative body image, drug use, alcohol use, cussing, death(parents).

Extra Warnings: (This RP is not Kurt Hummel friendly. He is not a nice man at all. Never will be in this RP. You’ve all been warned.)

Title Taken From:  Taylor Swift- All Too Well (10 minute version) (Taylor’s Version)

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 (I’d like to be my old self again

but I’m still trying to find it)

 Sebastian’s POV:

It was the last week of August which meant heat trapped in the busy sidewalks, the sound of struggling air conditioning units, and another year around the sun for Sebastian. He had grown indifferent about his birthday the older he got. When he was younger, he had relished in the gifts and attention and wishes that smelled like burned wax. The older he got, they were just an excuse to get fucked up, as if he really needed one. A day his mother used to love became something she feared and just another reason for his dad to say something shitty. 

Of course, now that Blaine was back in his life, it was a bit better. The two of them had celebrated the week earlier at Blaine’s insistence. He looked so thrilled that Sebastian couldn’t say no. B had planned a weekend steeped in nostalgia. They had milkshakes at a late-night diner, laid on the floor, and listened to records, and Blaine had made him dinner and a gorgeous green cake with blue frosting. The other man had even made him a small gift even though Seb had protested. They had kissed and touched and fell asleep on the couch as his favorite movies played in the background. Everything was simple but felt right.  Good. It was the best birthday he had had in a long time and the end of August felt okay for once.

But of course, the fates loved to play games with Sebastian. His father had called to rail into him about the school year that was about to start in a few days. He wasn’t even sure how it had happened but the conversation ended with the two of them screaming. Thomas hurled insults and Sebastian spat venom, he knew all of Thomas’s weak spots and he knew Seb's.

“You’re a loser, Sebastian. A fuck up and a disgrace. How long until you’re in reh-” Sebastian hung up and threw his phone before the sentence ended. 

Sebastian paced around his apartment and chewed on his nails. His father could cut down to his bones faster than anybody he knew. He needed to vent but Blaine was at work and he didn’t want to bother him. His brain wouldn’t stop replaying the conversation and he slowly began to believe the things his father had said. His hands were shaking and it felt like nothing could distract him. He was a loser and a fuck up and an addict. Then it began, the slither of intrusive thoughts egging him on to dig through his drawers to see if he could find any contraband he may have overlooked. Sebastian was sure there wasn’t anything left in his apartment, he'd thrown it away when he'd made a promise to get better for Blaine. For himself. He tore through the kitchen cabinets and the bathroom anyway and was disappointed when he didn’t find anything. It was such a fucking cliché thought but he just needed to take the edge off, just needed to calm down.  Maybe he could just go take one shot somewhere? It was around his birthday after all and just one would be fine. Blaine didn’t even have to know, nobody had to know. 

And then his feet were flying down the stairs and he was in a bar and a shot of vodka was in his hand and the liquid burn coated his throat and the music thrummed in his heart. One turned into three turned into a drink bought for him by some stranger. Somehow he ended up dancing. Alone at first and then drinks just kept on coming and the stranger was suddenly next to him and kept whispering in his ear. Sebastian kept trying to push him away only to have the man offer him more alcohol that he couldn’t stop himself from taking. As time passed the stranger became more aggressive and Seb’s limbs felt weak and his head was heavy. All at once the crush of guilt hit him, and the man was trying to pull him out of the bar, and Seb's legs were a tangled mess. Sebastian should have never done this, he should have stayed home. He kept saying no and trying to yank his arm away, he wasn’t sure if he was being ignored or if the word wasn’t making it out of his mouth. How many times had he been in this situation? He was so fucking dumb. He needed help, why wasn’t anybody helping? He needed Blaine. Oh god, Blaine.  

Sebastian finally had a small surge of energy and broke away from the man, stumbled out onto the sidewalk, and cried. The tears were hot and his stomach sloshed uncomfortably and suddenly he was bent over on the sidewalk gagging. He pulled out his phone and somehow had enough control to click on his boyfriend's name. It was so late.

Please please please pick up pick up.

He was gasping for air as he leaned against the warm bricks of the building, he was too afraid to look behind him, afraid the strange man would try to yank him into a taxi. The ringing was loud in his ear but finally, the sound of his boyfriend’s voice cut through. Sebastian sobbed and his head lolled, “B…B, I need help. Please, I need help. Please don’t be mad.” Now snot was running down his face and the acrid aftertaste of regurgitated vodka permeated his mouth and nostrils. He thought he might throw up again. “Please just stay on the phone with me. C-can you come over? I don’t know how to get home.” 

Sebastian crumbled down onto the sidewalk and watched the street. Maybe he would get lucky and a taxi would pull up. Maybe B would telepathically know where he was. He should call his driver but it was so fucking late. He he tried to describe where he was, “Can you send an Uber or something? Can you get in an Uber and like come here?” Another shrill sob, “D-Don’t…don’t hate me, please.” 

He listened to the warmth of the other man’s voice, his skin sticky and tear-stained. He tried to focus on the warmth of the sidewalk underneath him, tried to ignore the sick feeling he had. God, he wanted to lay down, wanted Blaine, wanted forgiveness. 

Finally, Blaine was there, like a vision. He hoped this was all real as he was scooped up and gently led into a car. The last thing he remembered was the cool blast of air conditioning and soft lips on his temple as he closed his eyes and focused on not puking all over the Uber. He slipped into darkness as Blaine whispered, “Shhh…” against his hot skin.

/tbc.

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Part Two of this para will be posted sometime at the end of March or start of April.  Both Sebastian and Blaine will be in it. Stay tuned. ♥️

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OOC:

We didn’t quite make it back for a January post but we promise we’re working on two big things that will be up Mid February to Early March. We’ve had to accept that we’re just not going to be as active as we used to be or would like to be, life is just in the way. But, we are going to be continuing to write for this RP and our other one (Witch) because we love these boys and their stories. We just aren’t going to be timely anymore. We will never just abandoned either one though, we promise! They will have proper endings. We have so much more to tell anyway.

Stick around for a very painful Seb centric para in the next month or so!

Thanks for sticking around. We’ll see you all soon!   ♥

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OOC:

We are sooo happy everyone seems to be enjoying the new updates! The next para’s are pretty Sebastian centric and are probably gonna cause some painful feelings so be on the lookout for it in the new year.  ♥

Thanks for your patience with us!

Happy Yule/Holidays to all of you! We’ll be back in January. :)

-S(Blaine) & H(Seb)

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SEBLAINE- PRESENT DAY (EARLY AUGUST/YEAR 1)-Please Remind Me Who I Really Am

Para: Please Remind Me Who I Really Am

Rating: PG-13.

Pairing: Seblaine.

Sebastian: @colorsicantsee 

Blaine: @twoblueheartslocked

Time: Year One: Present Day. Early August, the same night as the previous para -My Heart Stops When You Look At Me

Location: Blaine’s Apartment- Brooklyn, New York

Info:  Sebastian surprises a lonely and anxious Blaine after figuring out that Blaine isn’t actually okay. Blaine tells him about Kurt and a question causes Sebastian to finally let all of his walls come down in a heartbreakingly beautiful display.

Warnings; please read: This para has mentions of abuse (physical, mental, and sexual), anxiety, and a description of a panic attack. The word r*pe is also used once, and other sexual assault instances are implied. This RP in general has themes of past abuse(Physical, mental and sexual), previous unwanted sexual situations, anxiety, depression, negative body image, drug use, alcohol use, cussing, death(parents).

Extra Warnings: (This RP is not Kurt Hummel friendly. He is not a nice man at all. Never will be in this RP. You’ve all been warned.)

Title Taken From: Dark Side- Kelly Clarkson

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SEBLAINE- PRESENT DAY (Early August/YEAR 1)-My Heart Stops When You Look At Me

Blaine Self Para Ft. Sebastian: My Heart Stops When You Look at Me

Rating: PG-13.

Pairing: (Seblaine.) Kurt Hummel and mentions of past Klaine are very present in this para.

Sebastian: @colorsicantsee (Sebastian’s actual role player wrote his parts during the phone call at the end. The words they’ve written are marked with *’s.)

Blaine: @twoblueheartslocked

Time: Year One: Present Day. Early August, about two weeks after Now I Wake Up By Your Side, My One and Only, My Lifeline 

Location: The Bookish  Barista- Brooklyn, New York

Info:  While working Blaine gets an unexpected and unwanted visitor. He tries his hardest to deal with his anxiety and panic without losing himself.

Warnings: This para features an appearance by Kurt Hummel. This para has mentions of abuse (physical, mental, and sexual), anxiety, and a description of a panic attack. This rp in general mentions past abuse(Physical, mental and sexual), previous unwanted sexual situations, anxiety, depression, negative body image, drug use, alcohol use, cussing, death(parents).

Extra Warnings: (This RP is not Kurt Hummel friendly. You’ve all been warned.)

Title Taken From: Teenage Dream by Katy Perry

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Hi, we’re back to posting once or twice a month! 

Can you believe it’s been a Decade of Seblaine?! ♥️

 Just one touch  I can’t sleep

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OOC:

Hello Everyone!

We wanted to stop in and let everyone know that we will officially be back to posting a decent-sized para at least once a month starting in mid to late November. We’ve missed our babies so much. (of course they’re always with us in our heads and hearts but you know what we mean. Haha.) However, with a major change in our schedules, it’s been incredibly difficult to figure out the time to actually sit down write out all the para’s we have in mind to continue this crazy journey. 

However! We’re working on it, and pretty much have it figured out. We have so much more of their story to tell and we appreciate your patience while we figure out our lives and how to showcase our love for these two properly again. 

We’ll see you all in November. 

  -S(Blaine) & H(Seb)

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OOC:

Hey there everyone!

We just wanted to give a quick update and let everyone know that while we’re still going to be considered active we have to take a bit of a break for some serious personal reasons. It’s been an incredibly rough two months for us and we feel as though stepping back for a month or two is the best thing for us to do. We want to put out quality writing and right now it’s not really happening. We know we’ve posted lots of OOC’s lately but we like to make sure you all know that when we’re gone for awhile that it doesn’t mean we’ve abandoned. We’re not close to done. 

So, don’t worry, we will be back. Writing these two beautiful boys is one of our passions and we want to keep doing it! We just need to save some space for ourselves for a bit and take care of our mental health. We even have our next few paras outlined! Chapters will still be updated to our AO3 account, but if you follow you’ve probably read what we’ve posted so far. (We call the fic for this RP I Want Your Midnights under the username shwrites) 

So hang in there for us and we’ll see you all soon! Maybe even sooner than expected. :)

We appreciate all of you. <3

-S(Blaine) & H(Seb)

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OOC:

We’ve had a little set back and we’ve got to take a tiny hiatus. This month has been a bit crazy! H, our beautiful Sebastian sorta…

TW: Injury.-

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Sorry, my bad! ;)

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Seblaine- Present Day (End Of July/YEAR 1)

Para: Now I Wake Up By Your Side My One and Only, My Lifeline

Rating: NC-17.

Pairing: Seblaine.

Sebastian: @colorsicantsee

Blaine: @twoblueheartslocked

Time: Year One: Present Day- End of July, about a month  after You’re Every Song I’ve Ever Loved. 

Location: Sebastian’s Apartment- Manhattan, New York

Info:  Blaine gets brave and spends the weekend at Sebastian’s apartment. Blaine lets himself explore Sebastian even more. They have a heart to heart.

Warnings: This particular Para is smutty and sweet. Also has major mentions of past abuse. This rp as a whole mentions past abuse(Physical, mental and sexual), post unwanted sexual situations, anxiety, depression, negative body image, drug use, alcohol use, cussing, death(parents).

Extra Warnings: (This RP is not Kurt Hummel friendly. You’ve all been warned.)

Title Taken From: Dress by Taylor Swift

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