Strawberrygay

she/her | bi | autistic | ahs fan kpop, gay, ahs is all I want

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just listened to melani’s song ‘teachers pet’ again, and it made me think about pretty little liars. i remember i was like 11 when i watched that shit, and i loved Ezra and Aria together. now when i watch it, it’s fucking disgutsing. the creepy and bad thing is that the show didn’t really do anything to make it clear that their relationship was wrong, infact they did the opposite. it’s dangerous that shows and movies make it out to be an ok thing. i remember when i was little i talked to guys over 23 multiple times, thinking it was ok?! this one guy was like 25, and i talked to him on snap just for fun. no intention of meeting him, luckily. I thought it was funny to talk dirty. but the thing is i was 13, and he knew that. and the convos we had.. i just wonder how he could ever say that to a 13 yr old. i’m only 18, and i don’t even like thinking about anyone below 16 or 17 that way. like it makes me feel so weird now. he was 25! and i saw nothing wrong with it, bc the shows i watched made it seem ok.

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if i’m not gonna be kms before i get older, imma try going for the world record of living the longest.

I just commented on yt to a comment on a parody video. i needed a date for my joke, so i came up with “let’s meet in 110 years, august 15th, on the 4th floor of cecil hotel”. i just randomly came up with those details out of now where, and now, if i’ll stay alive for anything, it’s bc i’m curious if i just named the date and place of something that’ll actually happen. in 110 years i’ll be 127, going on 128, so i’m thinking it’s not completely impossible! lol. if you’re alive on that date too, meet me there ;) or not, bc who knows, mabey i predicted the time n place of smt horrible.. well to be fair we’d be beyond our time of death anyways, so who cares, meet me there;))

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tics

sometimes i worry about this one tic i have. or well it’s a few different variants, but they all end the same. it ends with me holding my breath and stiffening my whole body until i have to reach for air bc it feels like i will pass out. it feels scary because when i finally breath my heart skips a beat, and then beats weirdly a few times. i know it’s nothing on its own, but they often happen ontop of eachother for a while. it comes and goes. has pretty much only happened at home and happens mostly when i go to bed. i’m just scared that i am fucking up my body and heart. idk, i also feel like a lot of ppl with tic disorders have these breathing tics, and they seem fine, so it’s probably not too dangerous. atleast i don’t have as much o0f this one breathing tic where i used to breath in too many times and just breath weirdly, and i did it so much that eventually my whole body would feelo like a fizzy drink or static, and my eye would start twitching, and sometimes more parts of my face, and my arms and body could kinda go numb. so it’s a good thing i don’t have that as frequently

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school n friends

i started school today. it went both good and bad. i feel like i’ll never get close friends ever again. my closest friend i met before pre-school, and my best friend ever i met at 12 going on 13. now we don’t have contact and i haven’t connected to anyone since. i have one friend, or kinda 2 at this new school, but we pretty much only talk about school, a few sentences about what we did in the weekend, and a little bit about socialising being hard. we’ve only actually laughed with eachother like possibly 5-7 times in 1 year. and it was just a small but actually genuine laugh. i keep forgetting how old they are, where they’re from, and like most things about them, and they are the same, lol. i try to talk to people, but i just come to a stop right away, and if they don’t keep talking to me i just can’t come up with anything to say. i feel like a robot. the only time i can really be myself is at home, with my mom. it’s been like this for soon 4 years. it sucks. i feel like it’ll never change. i’m just too tired to even want anything in life.

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like button

did anyone else notice that youtubes like button was black when you pressed it for a few days, but now it’s blue again? or mabey there was something wrong with my yt? confused

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so... i just finnished watching Nanno, the girl from nowhere. i’m honestly ju8st feeling so empty rn. i understand that it almost had to end like this, but i don’t want it to. i haven’t checked if a season 3 is coming. it seemed like it could be an open ending or a continuatiojn by the lil speech at the end, and i’m too lazy to check rn. I’ve gotta say this is one of my favourite series now, and one of the few ones i’ve actually ever finnished, lmao

I love and ofcourse slightly dislike Nannos character. but like i LOVE her, but she’s fucked up. she kinda gives me Yumeko vibes, just in the way she always wins and she can’t go wrong, like even when she goes wrong, she still just doesn’t. she get’s the win every time. I really want more on her backstory, like the life she lived before, and how long she’s been dead.. UGH i know i won’t ever forget about this show, and it’ll take me probably like 6 months until i can accept that atleast for the moment it’s over.

I strongly reccomend this show, like fr, if you haven’t watched it you’re missing out on something that you will never find anywhere else. i can’t really compare it to anything. like even if you would find a similar storyline, they wouldn’t have Nanno, they wouldn’t have the style, the morals, the SMILE and the laugh, the INTROOO and outro, omg it’s sooooo good. istg just watch it. it might be a little tough, especially the last few episodes, but i wouldn’t want it any different honestly.

Nanno is fucking iconic and i’ll love this show forever. won’t ever find something like it again. legend. ALSO i just gotta mention that lesbian/wlw teacher and the kiss with her admierer!! i thought that teacher in season 1 was gay, the one who shot everyone, but since she wasn’t i didn’t think anyone would be. and then there was her and the younger teacher.. like i had a vibe it was queer, but i didn’t think it would actually be a thing in the show, and then boom- KISS, LESBIAN MF KISS, and EVERYONE CHEERING?!! oh my god i loved it soooo much, lmfao

ok, Nanno supremacy, BYE-

[justcatposts]

Grandpa teaches how to bathe a baby. Guess who’s his voluntary assistant. 

(Source)

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this is the cutest shit out here

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no baby thank

I’d be afraid of having a baby, because like.. the amount of times i drop my phone every day is concerning

[backdoorteenmom]

[hussyknee]

I love how they left out the part about them giving out the lesbian couple’s personal information to send them death threats, running them out of their home, and encouraging other fundies to petition to have their children taken away. **examines fingernails**

Also the fact that they raised half million dollars from other raging homophobes to fund this bigotry. I hope the dickholes lose the shirts off their backs and have to live out of a van. But that’s too much to hope for.

[lesbianredhood]

I just wanna add that the lesbian couple were getting married because their mutual friend had just died of cancer and they were adopting her two daughters… and that the death threats were so bad that they had to quit their jobs and move. it’s never just about a cake. it’s about the precedent you set when you allow ppl to discriminate. it’s about all the disgusting bigots that crawl out of the woodwork when they feel like they have the right to hate.

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Oh

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Oh god

I'm reading fanfics i wrote on wattpad when i was 13-14 years

Tbh i was kinda fucking funny, but idk if it was intentional, lmao

But holy fuck, the rate that it was obvious i had bad sleep problems.. literally every story has character complaining about sleep, going to sleep, waking up, and wishing they could sleep. My goddamn user name is even about sleep. Like fuck, somebody help 14 yr old me, please

Also, it was obvious that i was queer. Like omg how was i ever even confused

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Okokok, so im gonna watch beastars for the first time, i'm scared.

So what i've imagined is that it's a show loved by furries, and it's full of fursonas and sexual stuff. I wonder how right i am.

Bye bye world, next i'll either be sweating in a fursuit or locked in an asylum :)

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I don't know if i'll ever be able to enjoy buttercream icing i've baked myself. Like it's sooo good when bought or someone else have made, but if i've made it myself, all i can taste is butter. All i can think about is that i'm fucking EATING BUTTER

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BITXHHH, YOU DO NOT BELIEVE MY HAPPINESS!!!&÷&÷^×, ok so i know it isn't good that i'm this happy about this, BUT I'M FINALLY GETTING HOLD ON CIGARETTES😭😭😭, it's been like more than a week, and i've been fucking dyiiiiinnggggg

FINALLYYYYY

(Ppl, don't start smoking ok, idk how to get out of this, lmao fuck, also addiction runs in my family :))))

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

I know I've said this before but vampires

don't show up on camera

can fly/scale walls

immune to bullets

can break into any safe by turning into fog or some bullshit

could probably hypnotize security guards as needed

therefore I am in dire need of a heist film where a group of vampires band together to steal back their old stuff from museums

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Please yeas

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

TIL that not only do deaf cats tend to purr & meow louder than hearing cats, they also enjoy shrieking loudly bc of the vibrations it causes

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

also they often have a favorite room to shriek in, such as a bathroom or kitchen with tile floors the sound can reverberate off of. that’s right, deaf kitties have their own Private Screaming Rooms

[saltyvsparrow]

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

[dracoleafrevived]

This is so relevant to me holy shit

So I need y’all to know we had a cat growing up whose name was Whisper.

Whisper had a seizure that left him with some temporary motor difficulties and permanently deaf.

Whisper proceeded to scream at any time he felt like it, specifically anytime he was inconvenienced ever. He became infamous for it. He would wake us up damn near every night.

Whisper had a lot of health problems so he died pretty young, around the age of 7 or 8.

But, Whisper had housemate, Snickers.

Snicky ended up being a solitary cat not liking having any other animal in the house, a thing that was only discovered after Whispy died. In the wake of Whisper’s death, Snicky became more dominant and interacted with us more.

Do you want to know what he also did once Whisper was gone? Can you guess what habit he picked up?

Thing is, Snickers wasn’t deaf. Cat was in near perfect health for his 18 years of life until his kidneys just gave up last December. So he knew how loud he was being. He just saw how much attention it got Whispy and copied the howl wholesale.

I’m not even joking. First night I spent in a house with him after Whispy died I heard him howling and was absolutely petrified for a moment because it sounded exactly like Whisper but Whisper was dead.

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

This is such a nutty story but I have to ask, did Whisper get his name before or after he developed the habit of screaming the house awake???

[dracoleafrevived]

He had it before and it is important to mention that he wasn’t exactly known to be particularly quiet then either. Just a normal cat as far as I know.

Snickers was named after the horse my brother road/knew in his horse riding lessons and I assume it was something similar with Whisper too.

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

i sincerely enjoyed this delicious dose of irony, thank you for sharing the story of the magnificent Whisper the Cat.

[boarofthenorth100]

[thank-you-everyone-deactivated2]

Yes, come on in!

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Ok

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Yes, yes, come in to my cabin, watch your step please.

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You Have A Lovely Hombe

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Thank you, Horace. Sit, make yourself at hombe. Or would you like to play a game of Billiards in my special room over here?

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Oh I Just Love To Play Balls

[thank-you-everyone-deactivated2]

We’ll get along splendidly, then.

Some wine?

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Oh Enough Chit-Chat And Lets Talk Creams.

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Go on.

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Well I Just Love Creams. Well They Taste Good. And. Oh The Texture An-

…

*Shrnf…*

Smells Of Steel.

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*All pretense and friendly affect is dropped, eyes fixing coldly on the boar*

*Advances*

[boarofthenorth100]

Well I Simply Knew All A Long

*And Horace Delivers A Series Of Funny Kicks And Rageful SMACKS To The Assailant’s Solar Plexus And Hip Bones*

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AAAAAIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! DEFL…AAAA…a.aa….aaating….

[boarofthenorth100]

Hm Hm Hm That Aought To Teach You Scoundrel

*Horace Turns His Handsome Snout To Face YOU*

Rememboar: Dont Go In A Strangor’s House Or Something I Forget

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Just woke up and this is the first thing i see.. ya'll know how to start the day of perfectly :')

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I just watched the 5 first min of fear streat part 1, and it made me badly want a horror movie where the serial killer wannabe absolutely sucks, like so bad, but never gets caught. He will try to kill multiple people, and everyone time it will be intense and super scary, but he'll never be able to kill them. Mabey 1 time he will think that he killed them, but then they survive in the hospital and he gets super disapointed. It will be funny, but still scary. A little bit of 'scary movie' vibes, but still different. He'll never get caught, but in the end he'll almost finally kill someone, but end up accidentally killing himself, and everyone will find out who the wannabe serial killer is. It will be someone unexpected, idk who tho