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oh morgan is regulus going to [redacted] in the next chapter 😔😔😔

no omg he is not dying 😭

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Regulus and Birdie are driving me C R A ZY oh gods my precious the world is too horrible for you, I’m so happy they talked again

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three asks in a row BLIMEY! but birdy’s and regulus’ relationship’s build up has been so gratifying i want them to smooch and see his face blow up pink!!! i want them to sneak down into the kitchens together and chat with the elves!!! let me not get snappy buuut i think he remembers each and every interaction so well. she quickly becomes someone so important and dear to him. id like to think he frequently sees things in his day to day life that reminds him of her and he wants to say it/bring it to her but doesn’t. he thinks of her sooo often. the whole time during summer!! everytime he sees green, even his robes too. he did his hair a bit too nicely one day and wondered about if she will notice. he goes to bed at night thinking what she’s doing at that moment. he takes a difficult exam and wonders what she question she would have trouble solving. not the blushy, doodling her name in the margins type but the internal implosion of constantly thinking about her. okay rant over I promise

this is so crazy romantic and regulus is such a yearner fr 😭😭😭😭 you are making the next chapter VERY hard!!!!

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All photographs are memento mori. To take a photograph is to participate in another person's (or thing's) mortality, vulnerability, mutability. Precisely by slicing out this moment and freezing it, all photographs testify to time's relentless melt.

Susan Sontag, On Photography (originally published in 1977)

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there’s something about birdy and all your ocs…like they are all so kind and selfless despite all they go through. they never lose their sense of self and empathy and honestly it’s inspiring!! (even tho that sounds a bit silly lol). like damn they are ppl i want to be like and they act in ways i want to act! but you still make them realistic and grounded characters like damn u really are something :,)

Ty 😖😖😖 people r good and people are kind it's important to me that Birdy still believes it despite being given a sucky hand at life . also I actually do believe ppl should be rewarded for kindness although unfortunately that does not happen irl as much as it should!!!!

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in the future if the fic sees completion ... are u ok with people bookbinding it for personal use... saving that fic as an epub on my phone is not enough i genuinely need to print it out so it can be immortalized. forever. Only if ur ok w it ofc!!!

babygirl (gn) it's not if it's a WHEN!!!

omg that's like the highest honor 😭😭😭😭😭😭 I'll beg u to give me like a good month after I finish the fic to edit it 😭😭😭 I have so many careless errors in there that I told myself I'd go back and edit later lolllll

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i've rewritten and reorganized this chapter so many times...i hope it makes sense bc it makes sense in my head

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I just smiled so big 15K BABY AND WE’RE NOT EVEN HALF WAY DONE

i’m sending you lots of love and warm teas and cozy weather, you got this morgan!!!!!!!!!!

hehe thank youuuuuu my friend <333333

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15k words into chapter 14 and it's not even half done...

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your regulus is so tender :( i love him so much. and i love how every character's actions, you make them believable. like yes... they would do this and that, actually... i admire admire admire how your writing is able to justify your certain characterizations/portrayals, it's just SO good.

regulus the next 2 chapters 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

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sirius’ pining is so sexy and insert wailing i want a heart monitor on him and the ability to read his mind during the time he first saw birdy and the gradual curiosity he had towards her. and also!! imagine going from hating slytherins to thinking about one every now and then after the bridge event. and then after that, u see her in detentions, the owlery, ur gaze happened to catch at her figure over the tables of the grand hall, you see her walking alone down the stairs, you see her in detention again, you see remus smiling at her, you see lily next to her, you have detention again, you don’t see her at quidditch, you noticed her at hogsmeade petting one of the threstal horses which means she’s lost someone, you see her with a ponytail or her hair down or slightly panting from running to class late and u see—AAAAAACK

assume I've been killed and replaced with a robot if I ever write a fic without pining in it...pining is so so peak my fav troupe of ALL time and you've completely encapsulated it like yeah it is about staring lovingly and longingly at the object of your affections and taking note of everything they do all their idiosyncrasies and small habits and wanting to know more and more and more until you know them better than yourself

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"#also if regulus is alive things are unforch 100x more complicated #regulus and birdy are essentially social pariahs…maybe they leave wizarding society and live as muggles!" omg.....in another au or life or dimension or smth, do you think regulus and birdy would've worked out as lovers? would you say he'd be a better match for her than Sirius? lmaooo love birdy and sirius to death but her and regulus.....they just have that #chemistry

oh yeah it really just was a case of who got there first and in this universe it's Sirius lol

regulus and birdy work exceptionally well together because they're both self deprecating self professed cowards...they understand each other like nobody ever does idk if they'd be better than Birdy and Sirius considering Sirius pushes birdy outside her comfort zone and makes her truthful. I think regulus and birdy have the potential to be codependent on one another 😣 but their relationship would def be easy...probably way too easy. the type of couple to live secluded in the woods by themselves while also being perfectly content with that

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Do you think Sirius would be down for a threesome with Birdy and Josephine if he ever walked in on them or found out about the whole thing? Or would his disdain for any slytherin (aside from Birdy) or shock from the whole situation just turn him off it?

josephine is as good as a death eater to him lmfao he'd genuinely CRASH out if he found out they were fucking😭😭😭😭😭

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In the everyone lives au where birdy and sirius eventually find their way back to each other i looooove a bath scene for them here. Birdy’s back to his chest, the tension so delicate filled with so much emotion ekrpssldjsksl

ohhhhhhhh you KNOW i love a good bath scene omg but to balance out an everyone lives au there has to be angst you know....everyone lives but birdy is also traumatized from the war (like everyone else but you know. birdy a bit more) the intimacy of slowly relearning a lover's body after trauma is my bread and butterrrrrrr

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I've been re-reading earlier chapters off and on and Birdy's early obliviousness to Sirius and his affections makes me almost feel bad for him but I do love a pining man... His jealous and annoyance at her ignoring her and now her receiving attention makes me squeal. Him being baffled at Birdy not understanding her desirability or the idea that anyone would find her attractive makes my heart ache as a fellow insecure girly with low self-esteem/self-worth and little romantic experience. I saw your little HCs about Elijah/Ross could you give us a smidge of Sirius in his pining/jealousy phase before he and Birdy got together and all the times he was enamored/awwed by her?

hmmmm i think sirius in his pining phase is a bit more sullen (at birdy not clocking his pining and ignoring him except she's not really ignoring him she just thinks he hates her and wants her dead) and a bit more absentminded. he's staring at her all the time and somehow STILL everybody is like wow sirius is acting weird and nobody even entertains the thought it could be about a girl least of all the girl who landed him in detention for half a year lmfao. i think he gets jealous at the weirdest things like birdy half smiles at someone after accidentally bumping into them in the corridor and he's wondering what he's doing wrong. she sits next to remus but they're a bit too close and their shoulders are touching and he thinks it's absolutely obscene. he hates elijah because they sit together at breakfast and read in silence and the intimacy of it rankles him (he also thinks elijah is inherently, fundamentally boring and he hates boring people) he's torn bc on one hand he deeply respects the autonomy of people around him and their independence (just like he values his own) but he also wants his and birdy's relationship to be at a place where she can tell him things when it clearly isn't and she's still wrapping her head around the fact that he doesn't want her dead and that him constantly hovering around her isn't a precursor to some awful josephine esque humiliation ritual. like when they're in the train compartment together and sirius gets lowkey frustrated she's barely giving him anything lol or even irina clocking it and warning him away bc birdy's lowkey terrified he's going to try something rip

basically sirius sees birdy being friends with other people and all their intricate rituals (swapping books with remus, studying in the library, eating together) and he's like why can't I have that. he pinessssss

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I love how Elijah’s friendship with Birdy has evolved from ‘this is favouritism/ fellow prefects begrudgingly working together,” to “romantic intervention because wtf is that relationship/ my friend deserves better ”over the years. Truly, the best kind of friendship.

elijah does dispense the great advice. unfortunately he is not listened to as much as he should 😭

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THEY WERE ACTUALLY GOING TO KISS ARE YOU KIDDINGMEEEEEEEEEEEE ARROYOFMEIXLAL I just came from that vision alone actually I need Josephine so badly I’m going insane I DONT WANT TO SOUND PUSHY OR DEMANDINF BUT IF I MAY HUMBLY ASK FOR THE YURI DRAFT OF THEM KISSING…… Ibhave lust in my veins WDYD when ur big real time bully takes ur first kiss ALCIOALQPALALDOPAPAPALDJOQLCJAOAPAKSIDAOALALALAPAPAP

unforch it's not a long scene haha

The mention of Irina makes you furious. With a sudden surge of strength you push her away with you, against the stone wall adjacent to the sink. She hits the wall with a thud. 

She smiles, a slow savage thing; her lips a streak of red against her face. You’re momentarily hypnotized by her porcelain beauty. 

She steps forward, unfazed, gaze never leaving yours. You brace yourself for pain. For the lingering bruises that have always been her mark on you. 

Which is why you don’t realize until too late that she’s kissing you. A sinuously seductive slide of her lips on yours. Your head is spinning, something in your chest is twisting and twisting and twisting like a snake wrapped around your heart.