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[contagiousflower]

Hello hello! Welcome to my humble abode!! ^_^

Do call me by Flower, I use any pronouns. Go wild with the neopronouns, it’s much appreciated!

I’d like to call myself an Artist, an emotional one haha!! This is my vent account. I vent here. That’s it. Do what you want with this information.

What do you people even put here?

I MIGHT actually post art here but that’ll depend on my motivation.

🫧 sorrows — Vents, sadness, whatever! 🫧 pleh — normal posts/shitposts 🫧 rant — self explanatory 🫧 reblogs — again, self explanatory 🫧 yip yaps — asks

A couple things to note; I might not be too active on this account so apologies if there are any delays on replies or anything!

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“How did you not notice lmao??? you must be really oblivious” yeah yeah keep thinking that it’s totally not like i experienced worser “was it casual” situations than your mild affection!!!!!

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I swear to god, this GUY BRO. Ugh. Are you going to answer me or what. Haven’t even made an effort to do anything today. useless. At least get on so i can call for 5 minutes, i can’t break the schedule. you drilled this in me, you’re going to keep it up.

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Don’t piss me off now i’m not in the mood to deal with that

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It’s honestly kinda funny how they don’t realize that it applies to them too.

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I really want them to crash out over me. I want them to feel useless, I want them to feel bad. Feel terrible, selfish that it’s always me that helps yet I benefit nothing from them. Feel bad that they’re utterly worthless despite the want to help. I want them to suffer because I suffer.

“They’d would die for the other—“ I wouldn’t.

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The feeling when you finally get sentimental and genuinely feel something for them but forgot you’re supposed to seem nonchalant so you just lock in

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I kinda want them to know about this account. To show them how much i actually hold in just for their sake. How much they affect me, even if it’s accidental. I know most of it was actually my own fault for interpreting it as for something more than it really is but still. Fortunately I would never!! That’d defeat the whole point of this blog after all wouldn’t it now?

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Did I do something wrong..? what? It feels as if they’re avoiding me. Obviously i’m jumping conclusions right now but it just feels like they are. That’s MY job. Did I do something wrong??

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This is just getting annoying now. Every pain i feel is linked to them. God who’s my creator? This is terrible writing!! Do something that gives me more of my OWN character, not some pathetic jealous needy little thing.

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finally!! a breakdown that isn’t relevant to them!!!!! oh boohoo i feel a sense of impending doom and dread that something bad will happen to me, at least it’s not about them. Unless this is a sign of foreshadowing that still involves them then fuck you! i hate this.

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Never mind. How Fantastic. The latter was in fact true.

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finally!! a breakdown that isn’t relevant to them!!!!! oh boohoo i feel a sense of impending doom and dread that something bad will happen to me, at least it’s not about them. Unless this is a sign of foreshadowing that still involves them then fuck you! i hate this.

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Don’t you just ADORE the feeling of emotionally distancing yourself from the ones you love because you feel they’ll leave you soon and/or take advantage of you?!

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This account feels a lot more freeing than my main, which. honestly should be a concern but i don’t exactly care. Ay, it’s a good coping mechanism huh?

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I. I don’t know what I’d do if I lost M. He means a lot to me. Like. Genuinely. He was the first one to understand me, to check in, to care, to notice. He made me feel seen. He watched me, actually looking for details. And as he analyzed, he didn’t just watch me in agony. He tried to help, to care, to listen, to talk. While he did all that, he didn’t sugarcoat anything. He, as an fp, is definitely straining. But in all honestly, it still really did help me in a way. He didn’t give me false hopes or anything, he made it known that there was always someone he preferred over me. It hurt but truly? that was fine, they got to him first before I did after all. I can’t complain. It was easier to accept, understand, and move on.

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Ok so dont do that to me i finally JUST got better.

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“I’ll be better than them!!” Somehow you’re worse?? Good job, i guess?