all is silent in the halls of the dead

indie and selective eddie dean from the dark tower series, both book and comics.

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     He’s not weeping, but there’s an odd set to his shoulders, the furrow of his brow; like he might, were he encouraged in one direction or another. He’s thinking on his sins, as one does when faced with the reality that they don’t deserve the goodness given to them. He’s without words, mouth open uselessly, then closing, lips in a firm line. Quietly: ‘This ka-tet has been a gift to me.’

“Gotta say, we are pretty incredible.” He can’t help to tease a bit, lips only slightly curled in a smile before it fades. He wishes they were to agree with him, for Suze and Jake to add their own right-things-to-say to the conversation. “We wouldn’t have met each other if it weren’t for you.”

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     ‘Is there a reason she keeps running in circles like that?’      Abraska, that is. Eddie’s little fox-daemon. Taka’s as unimpressed with the spinning as Roland is (yet equally fascinated, and silent, on his shoulder).

“It’s cause your drive me crazy. She’s the physical manifestation of how much you drive me up the fuckin wall.”

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[Goofy Voice] Why the HYUCK you lyin

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“no homo” the teenage boy whispers as he pulls away from kissing his friend. he gently strokes the other males face “full bi” he adds in a sensuous tone.

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FULL BI

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“All is silent in the halls of the dead.”Eddie heard himself in a falling, fainting voice. “All is forgotten in the stone halls of the dead. Behold the stairways which stand in darkness; behold the rooms of ruin. These are the halls of the dead where spiders spin and the great circuits fall quiet, one by one.”

Eddie Dean - Dark Tower III The Wastelands by Stephen King (via heartxshaped)

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Nadav Kander, The Polygon Nuclear Test Site, Kazakhstan (2011)

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     Tell him you don’t want to share.      Tell him there’s not room in this for anyone else.      Roland would leave anyone behind if Eddie told him to. Between Maika and his marriage, between Ka and ka-tet, the choice is easy. He’d rather not make it, but he will, and without blinking. ‘The four of you need a better dinh.’ It strikes to self pity, but he kisses Eddie’s stomach chastely through his shirt and leans away to look up at him, and there’s something quite like determination in his expression. It’s a promise. ‘Believe it or don’t. I don’t mind.’ A hand pats and warms and settles itself at Eddie’s waist. ‘The proof is in the action, not the words.’

“You’re our dinh, Roland. We don’t want another.” He doesn’t have anything to add to that. It’s Roland who brought them together in the first place, and it’s Roland they love, flaws and all. Eddie will keep on loving him even if Roland’s heart is divided elsewhere.

“Yeah. I know.”

And he thought he’d see proof in the action before. But it’s fine. Eddie will put it out of mind, hopefully not be as stung when it happens again. He knows how Roland is, but he also knows Roland wants to try to get better, and that’s something. Even if he keeps fucking it up.

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     “ — when the situation demands it, yes.” But the situation, thus yet, has never demanded it, mostly on Aziraphale’s part. Still. There’s a slightly malignant damp patch on the ceiling right above this newcomer’s head that he should notice in a few seconds when it oozes a drop of alarmingly brown water right onto his skull. Hopefully he’ll take a step back, rather than forwards.

“And what kind of sit -- ”

The words stop dead as, unfortunately, Eddie steps forward and then jumps when he feels the drop hit his head, immediately stepping back and looking up.

“Uh, you might wanna check that out before your ceiling falls on someone’s head. Or your precious books, since those are probably more valuable to you.”

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     “ — haben Sie etwas dagegen? I’m trying to think. You’re crowding my headspace.” Fingers go fluttering around the bush of her hair like it’s charged with static. She squints at him and then away and then back again, this time a longer look, a deeper look. A momentary glint of something darker in her gaze.

     “World-shifter. Der Dekan. Here aus Versehen, no? Mistake, accident, and now you’re lost. Sie sind durch eine Tür gestolpert. I can smell it on you. Die Tür and him, too.”

“What? I didn’t catch any of that.”

Which is a lie. He caught half of it, enough that he doesn’t like what she’s saying, or how she might simply just know these things with a look. He holds off his million of actual questions, imagining that a reaction might be just what she’s looking for.

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     Costume. October 31st. Halloween.

     “Oh — ” Her first instinct is to say oh, Eddie, no in a placating sort of voice, like he’s cheerfully suggesting they walk into traffic as a fun Sunday afternoon outing. “I’m not getting a costume.”

“Wrong. You are.” Matter of fact. And he gets up to hold out his phone to her, so she can see what he has pulled up. (Don’t hit him.) “Look.”

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     Roland doesn’t know what to say to that. He’s exhausted his small reserve of words, just contents himself with the fact Eddie is touching him, touching his hair. Not completely giving up on him yet. He feels worth giving up on. He won’t repeat now how he doesn’t deserve Eddie or their ka-tet; the truth of it would be outweighed by sounding like self-pity. He loathes himself for this, for continually hurting Eddie. His eyes close, forehead settled against the warmth of Eddie’s stomach.     ‘I want to go home,’ he says, rather decisively, and now that does sound pitiful. ‘With you and our wife and my son. With or without Maika. That can be undone.’ She wouldn’t be the first person Roland left behind. She won’t be the last. Love or no love. Roland’s still cold enough for that. ‘I won’t –– be thoughtless, not anymore.’ He’s afraid now that if he’s thoughtless again he won’t have Eddie anymore. Roland expects to lose his ka-tet eventually – he’s either fatalistic or the Tower makes him so – but not yet. Not this way. He won’t allow that.

He’s heard that before, and that’s why it hurts. Reminding Roland serves no purpose, as badly as Eddie wants to point it out. That’s just lashing out, it’s not constructive, so he just breathes out instead. Thinks about what it might mean that Maika makes him do things like this. Doesn’t really like his options.

What would Eddie do if Roland loves her?

“I want to go home, too,” he says, and his voice cracks a little, because he doesn’t see himself asking Roland to leave someone else behind, but having Maika there, all the time, with them -- he hates the thought. He doesn’t want to share his marriage. Cuthbert is an exception.