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my childish keling dude

Nowadays, its so easy to meet someone new, someone you dont even know that they are exist, someone that you never imagine will change your life in a blink of an eye. Its my lovely childish dumb best friend.  I just know him for 4 months maybe, but we text everyday, well not really everyday, we were like ignoring each other for the first month after we met (online ofcourse), we talk about anything but stupid things, we laughed over a picture for days, im so tired when i talk with him cause I will laughing almost all the time, i believe im the funny one, but when he laughing it sounds even funnier, I dont know why this dude understand all my stupidity. He is older than me, but he sounds childish sometimes. well since that i dont really think about my ex,  even I forgot my ex’s birthday, sometimes I think I might like him, but yeah, he were someone new, is only between like or dislike, and yes i like him, it was like I found my lost dumber, you know? dumb and dumber movie? or vice versa.

sometimes he can be smart, or maybe just act smart to make me look stupid. But because i’m so freaking smart, even einstein would be jealous, he always failed. I have some best friends, but lately they really busy with their ownlife, and im to afraid to bother. So I was just hanging around in this rubbish app. But I dont really meet alot of people, only him, another dude thats kinda creepy, a korean guy, a chinese bald dude, all boys, dunno why. But my dumber is the closest till now. If he has no girlfriend....AHAHAHAHAHA well maybe he has boyfriend HAHAHAHAHA, kidding, I mean, maybe I’ll think about him,he is really nice to me and funny, but he is taken, so thats not gonna happen, from his story, I think his girlfriend is really pretty, pfft not my level, Im so amazingly build as a gorgeous beautiful and pure hearted girl, so, meh. i can beat her ass easily hahahaha Im not exaggerating. I am that beautiful. This fatass ogre looked girl not lying. Okay why im sound so crazy. Well i dont mean to beat any girl’s ass alright? Im just telling that he is taken, and Im also worry that this feeling only because I’m lonely, and need someone to hug me and say “everything will be okay”, someone’s shoulder to cry on, to make me  laugh when my heart is crying. So, i will just enjoy the moment, at least i have a friend to share my thoughts. and he is actually the one that tell me I should write our story, pffft, why he think he meant alot to me?! hahahaha kidding, he will read this eventually, so, hey dude ojo nesu nesu yo, aku arep nulis sek,nggo guyonan kita nanti, ojo kepedean juga.

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he said “im sorry for being me”

why it sounds like I cant accept him just the way he is

I love him just like that

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rainbow ice cream

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I think 

once again, 

Im in love with the wrong guy....

He is just too good for me.

Nowadays, its so easy to meet someone new, someone you dont even know that they are exist, someone that you never imagine will change your life in a blink of an eye. Well, he kinda is. He is the most realistic guy that I know till this moment. we text everytime we have time, I know what he does all day, ha also know what I do, he calls me every night before go to sleep, every we talk on the phone min. 2 hours. But, He doesn’t want me to think that this thing will work between us, he keeps telling me that we are friends even he said he likes me alot, well, it sound a little evil right? But, thats maybe exactly what I need, someone to make me think negatively, so that I wont expect much. Cause every guy lately just saying that they like me, they want to marry me and else, which makes me think alot about them, considering about what will happen next between me and those guys. But him, he told me that he likes me, but he cant do anything with that, so lets continue as friend. thats what he said. It kinda broke my heart the moment I ask him “I always say “i miss you” and you always be the “ i miss you too” i dont know why, but I think you dont really feel like I feel, you dont want to lie to me that you think of me or you love me, you dont wanna hurt my feelings by telling lies” and he said “yes” on that exact moment, my tears was flooding my face, I cant breath, I cant talk, i mute my voice, I turn off my camera, and he said “Im sorry” and that moment too I realize, that this feeling is real, so stupid.

Well because i make him as my “escape plan” so, yeah. My fucking fault

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aku lelah

aku senang

aku mau makan cireng

aku ingin di cinta

eh

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WKAKAKAKAKKAKAKAKAKAKA TAWA AE LAH INYONG

Sumpah kenapa cuma seumur jagung ya? Udh bete banget gue sama mereka, ga semua, sumpah cuma dua manusia wakakakakak, gue pikir gue  kuat, bangke banget ahahahahahha

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I MISS HIM SOOOOOOOOOO MUUUUCCCCHHHHHHH

Do I still need him or i just feeling lonely

pfffttt

I hate this feeling, I hate it that the memory of us keep playing in my head, and also the regret that never left my heart and my mind. Well im the one that want to end this all, but it wasnt because I dont love him no more, it wasnt because he cheated on me, it wasnt because he doesnt love me anymore(from what he said and what i feel). thats why its shit that this happen

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ngapain toh le😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

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#GajeMode:On

seru sih ketemu orang baru, bertukar pikiran dengan otak baru, cara pandang yang mungkiin belom kita temukan sebelumnya, well agak rancu juga sih kalo mau ngobrol atau bertukar pikiran di aplikasi random, maksudnya kita ga tau lawan bicara kita itu berpendidikan atau gak, dewasa atau enggak, berpikiran terbuka atau enggak, kalo yang pikirannya cuma selangkangan dan sekitar, ya udah end chat aja, tapi disini lah serunya.

Untuk memulai percakapan cukup dengan “hai” selanjutny gimana kemampuan berkomunikasi aja #azeeek. Aku ini ga pintar bicara di depan umum, pemalu, merasa bodoh juga, makanya malu. Coba kalo pintar, udah nyerocos mulu mungkin. tapi disini ga perlu kepintaran macam tu, yang penting ramah aja, ok kenapa jadi ga penting ya? Malas hapus ah

Jadi, aku masuk di grup itu, dan isinya ya begitu, menurut aku garing banget sih, ini cuma ajang cari lawan bicara aja, atau emg tempat ngobrol seperti seharusnya group.yang lebih ngenes adalah, random chat macam ini digunakan buat pelampiasan nafsu,pfffftt. Ya silahkan aja deh, masing-masing orang punya tujuan hidupnya wkwk. nah pas aku masuk, aku sksd aja “hai aku newbie” terus aku lupa sih ngomong apa aja.

Beberapa saat disana, liat ada dua manusia saling bergaje ria, mereka ngobrol dengan dunia nya sendiri, tapi masih jauh lebih seru lah daripada hanya sekedar “m26 here” “cewe pm kuy” mereka super gaje bahasannya, terus aku nimbrung aja deh, lupa juga sih trs ngomongin apa, mereka ajak obrol aku, mungkin aku segaje mereka kali ya.

Hari-hari yang mulai kelabu karena pilunya hati dan gulana jiwa, berubah menjadi hari-hari penuh kegajean, kerjaan ibu rumah tangga, dan buku-buku. Iya buku, aku mulai baca buku lagi kayak dulu, dulu lebih banyak buku tentang cerita fiktif,dongeng, horror, komik, sekarang aku mulai dewasa, aku baca buku tentang cinta :3 ciye banget kan? ihiiiy

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jakchat

anon1: chat kuy

anon2: f18 here

anon3: cewe mana cewe

anon4: hai semua salam kenal

anon5: m22 nih lagi *beep*

anon6: pm dong f17 nih

aku: m150, bisa!

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aku cuma mau curhat aja tentang dunia baru yang aku masuki

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As Random As Me

hayoo mulai dari mana hayooo~ mulai pasti dari awal. jadi, begini ceritanya.... one day, there was a galauers young lady that needs bahu untuk bersender. Biasa orang galau kan pasti bakal cerita sama orang terdekat ya, misal orang tua, kakak or adek, atau sama sahabat. But this girl never tell them about her real problem, she alway keeps it for herself. Well, she thought that no one can understand her problem, and she doesnt want to make them worried too. So, bocah kie arep cari konco baru, yang gatau apa  apa tentang dia, dan ga usah permasalahin apa apa, cukup ngobrol, ngelucu, bagi info, apalah pokoke yahud. Once, she was trying to find some random chat from things such as omegle(the whole world knows this), chatous, and else. She got bored, lalu dia coba cari di app store, coba donlot satu ah, lupa namanya apa, eeeeh ternyata random chat buat para gay, pantes aja fotonya jijay bajay semua, cowo cowo kok pada narsis banget, pamer bulu ketek lah, pamer dada, kirain cewe doang yang suka pamer dada wkwk. Yaudh uninstall, terus coba cari lagi, sepiiii banget, ga ada yang ajak chat, sekalinya ada kok indiahe, seriously, im not being racist, but, india is the second most populated country!! i mean One billion two hundreds fifty one million six hundreds ninety five thousand and five hundreds eighty four human!! not like china, indian goverment legalize any social media, so every one billion two hundreds fifty one million six hundreds ninety five thousand five hundreds eighty four human can have facebook, twitter, youtube, tinder, skout, chatous, etc. Gue sebenernya punya kira kira 50 temen india dari random chat aja, dan hampir semuanya anak tekhnik, ada sih dokter, pilot atau pebisnis gitu. Means they are educated people, tapi yang bikin gue males adalah, gue suka ngobrol sama mereka, mereka terlihat menyenangkan, cerdas, ga aneh2 lah, but in the end, mereka ngajak mesum............ okay maafkan aku para teman indiahe, I believe you guys are nice and educated people, but im tired with those guys i met. nah teruuuuus, pas bocah kie lagi buka app store, maklum ya pake iphone, dia nemu aplikasi namanya *beep* chat, slogannya adalah "anonymous, free, secret" nah pertama kali buka, bocah kie a.k.a aku, pilih avatar, jadi disini ga perlu pasang foto, asik deh bener bener anon, yaudah sekalian aku pake nama samaran, nama yang aku pake itu adalah mantan calon nama aku(?) jadi dulu wkt aku lahir, mama mau kasih aku nama itu, tapi di marahin sama eyang kakung, katanya namanya terlalu kebaratan. Lalu aku mulai deh new chat, chat biasa lah hello how are you bla bla bla, tiba tibaaaaa, ada 30 new messages, dan itu aku balesin semua sampe gempor, emang sih ga ada keharusan untuk ngebales chat, cuma aku tuh merasa, kalo aku chat seseorang dan ga di bales aku pasti sedih, atau "whats wrong with me?" makanya aku selalu balesin setiap chat, tapi itu bener bener bikin lelah hahaha. Terus ternyata disana ada group juga, jadi bisa ngomong sama banyak orang dalam sekali waktu, disanalah dimulai ceritaku dengan nya....

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