Lady Bird

corinne jones // 24 // chocolatier // philadelphia // bulldog enthusiast and phenomenal dancer

[corinnejones]

Simple wanting

I want to sleep comfortably in my bed next to my husband without the sound of the air conditioner driving me to the couch downstairs. I want to walk into work and have people make eye contact with me and treat me like they used to. I want to go a day without breaking down and crying because everyone suddenly hates me. I want my boss to actually confront me instead of taking to other people. I want a chance to explain myself. I want everyone to want me to explain myself. But instead I get the cold shoulder. Instead I get to sleep on the couch where comfort is quieter. Instead no one gives a shit about me anymore. Instead everyone thinks I'm being selfish. Instead I'm probably going to wake up with a migraine. Fuck everyone. Fuck everything. I can't do anything right even though it's the right thing for me. So I guess fuck me too, right?

[corinnejones]

my grandfather died almost 4 years ago

for the last 3-4 months, my opa has been showing up in my dreams. he never says anything. he usually is just sitting on a couch, relaxed. i’m usually the only one in the room who is freaked out by the fact that he’s there. i’m the only one in my dream who recognized that he’s no longer alive.

but this morning was different. he was there and he was talking, and he was yelling at my dream self to be quiet so he could tell me something. i know i shut up and we talked together. but i can’t remember what he said. after a few minutes of talking, i could feel myself waking up. so i gave him a hug and told him how great it was that he could be there with me and all he said was “i didn’t know that i went anywhere” and i started crying because i wasn’t going to see him again. and then i woke up crying. 

i don’t know what to make of this. it felt so real. and it feels so real.

[corinnejones]

i love you

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sometimes i just feel like i’m not worthy i of you. i don’t deserve you. you deserve better than me. 

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me and jim

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kinda wanna kiss that man

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i feel so alone here;

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right, the only reason i hate it here is because i'm depressed, that's gotta be it

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i hate living here

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bottle cap collection

[do-not-sit-next-to-dennis-deact]

The Babadook (2014)

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not afraid - eminem ft the mush cat

[corinnejones]

10/11/11

remember that weekend you weren't here? i slept 2 hours and burned my skin. my lips were swelling. my teeth were dry. i missed you, but my skin turned out clean.

[strongfromourveryweakness]

Oh no, I’m going to have this the rest of my life, aren’t I? #misophoniaproblems

[corinnejones]

fuuuuuuck bill hader is terribly attractive

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cat funday