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i’ve not met you yet but i miss you

does this mean anything

every time i feel like i'm about to get annoyed or disappointed by something you might do or say (a feeling i've probably normalize at this point) you always seem to say the right thing at the right time and i don't even get the chance to be upset

exes as taylor swift songs pt. 6

a****w

you're losing me

mr. perfectly fine

we are never ever getting back together

better man

afterglow

the 1

exile

so long, london

i bet you think about me

#my face was gray but you wouldn't admit that we were sick #we thought a cure would come through in time now i fear it won't #i'm getting tired even for a phoenix #how can you say that you love someone you can't tell is dying #and the air is thick with loss and indecision; i know my pain is such an imposition #how long could we be a sad song #i gave you all my best me's #my endless empathy #and all i did was bleed as i tried to be the bravest soldier #a pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her #do something babe say something lose something babe risk something choose something babe i got nothing to believe unless you're choosing me #my spine split from carrying us up the hill #my white knuckle dying grip holding tight to your quiet resentment #so how much sad did you think i had in me #you swore that you loved me but where were the clues? i died on the altar waiting for the proof #you sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days

善变

the park behind us is where we first met

the floral shop around the corner witnessed us holding hands for two years

this city sprinkled with too many memories,

constantly going in circles surrounding us

if i'm the scenic view in your eyes,

you can just pass me by -- why leave behind any longing?

what's the point of opening up the story with a smile,

just to end it in tears?

i blame the past with you in it for being too beautiful beyond words

ultimately accentuating the passion fading and the cracks forming

love is a parabolic path no one can escape from

you used to walk through wind and rain even if it's to meet me for just a brief moment

eventually you couldn't even bother to share the edge of the umbrella cover with me

we underestimated the capriciousness of time,

too easily letting the passionate story turn its pages

you used to trek across half the city to accompany me through sleepless nights

eventually you seemed to grow closer to your steering wheel

but even now when tears fall onto the pictures,

i still can't bear to delete them

i blame the past with you in it for being too beautiful beyond words

ultimately accentuating the passion fading and the cracks forming

love is a parabolic path no one can escape from

you used to walk through wind and rain even if it's to meet me for just a brief moment

eventually you couldn't even bother to share the edge of the umbrella cover with me

we underestimated the capriciousness of time,

too easily letting the passionate story turn its pages

you used to trek across half the city to accompany me through sleepless nights

eventually you seemed to grow closer to your steering wheel

but even now when tears fall onto the pictures,

i still can't bear to delete them

you used to trek across half the city to accompany me through sleepless nights

eventually you seemed to grow closer to your steering wheel

but even now when tears fall onto the pictures,

i still can't bear to delete them

at least let these past moments

not just seem like lies

#translation #interpretation #王靖雯

you said i'm the love of your life about a million times

dancing phantoms on the terrace,

are they second-hand embarrassed

that i can't get out of bed?

'cause something counterfeit's dead

#taylorswift #loml

hello digital diary my old friend

hey, it's me again

must it always be me

i never thought there would come a day where i feel so cold laying next to you.

i feel even colder than when i warm your always-freezing hands by holding them to my flushed cheeks.

i never thought there would come a day where i feel so far away from you.

i feel even farther away laying next to you right now than when we were thousands of miles apart.

we both lay still — you with your soft snores, me with my torturous thoughts.

every hurting heartbeat feels like a thunderous drum, every traitorous tear feels heavy as it trickles down the side of my face and fills my ears.

#relationship

me vs you

“can we not go to bed upset”

“i just want to be done with this”

#relationship

if but just

if one day, we could look back on today and laugh --

but not forgetting the lessons we learned;

just that would be enough for a snapshot of a picture perfect photograph.

i didn’t do it on purpose

i did it and now i’m scared that you’ll see it and be so disappointed in me.

please don’t be scared of me; i’m sorry.

i just couldn’t hold everything in and i was panicking a lot.

i promise i’m trying to be better i’m sorry i don’t know when i became this fucked up in the head i think i felt so invincible that i really thought i could do anything (i still do) and it’s making me go crazy

i feel like you’ve abandoned me or if you haven’t yet, you will soon because i’m fucked up and selfish and mentally ill and i self sabotage unknowingly and knowingly until everyone who thinks they love me realize how difficult i am

當想你成為習慣

the weather dims so sadly;

it's foggy and gray in such melancholy.

what's behind that gray color? it's loneliness.

i'm seen through by my emotions, leaving me all alone in silence.

as if hearing your voice, asking me if i remember?

how should i respond?

you who lost your way, losing the path of love -- you can't find where i am, and then slowly forgetting.

when missing you becomes habit, being alone whilst saying goodnight,

losing my soul and abandoning my hope, living also became simpler.

silence becomes so natural;

even a hot dinner with warmth from candlelight is unable to thaw the coldness of my heartache.

when missing you becomes regret, being alone can be whole too,

acting out this embarrassment of a lie, waiting for the feelings to fade away.

so much to to be said that it's never ending, yet time passes so, so slowly.

wishing to bid the past farewell, and walk towards the future, so we can get together and part ways easily.

as if hearing your voice, asking me if i remember?

how should i respond?

you who lost your way, losing the path of love -- you can't find where i am, and then slowly forgetting.

when missing you becomes habit, being alone whilst saying goodnight,

losing my soul and abandoning my hope, living also became simpler.

silence becomes so natural;

even a hot dinner with warmth from candlelight is unable to thaw the coldness of my heartache.

when missing you becomes regret, being alone can be whole too,

acting out this embarrassment of a lie, waiting for the feelings to fade away.

so much to to be said that it's never ending, yet time passes so, so slowly.

wishing to bid the past farewell, and walk towards the future, so we can get together and part ways easily.

#interpretation #translation #當想你變成習慣

for ya

everything beautiful, come for ya

all of my love also, come for ya

baby this is my gift to you

only want to keep you in the bottom of my heart

everything beautiful, come for ya

all of my love also, come for ya

baby this is my gift to you

only want to keep you in the bottom of my heart

about stranger lover

the first time i met you i was immediately starstruck

oh girl the captivating ends of your hair

remember when i kissed you, you backed up shyly

i think of your softness daily

the light fragrance of your hair captivates those who are captivated by you

you know i'm not willing to lose you

no matter how crowded the crowd is, i can still catch you in an instant.

my love, what is wrong?

tell me, who you love?

my love, what is wrong?

tell me, who you love?

liking you is my secret

the depth is like 100,000 meters under the ocean

i appreciate the tranquility of sunrises and sunsets

loving the sky whilst deeply loving you

everything beautiful, come for ya

all of my love also, come for ya

baby this is my gift to you

only want to keep you in the bottom of my heart

everything beautiful, come for ya

all of my love also, come for ya

baby this is my gift to you

only want to keep you in the bottom of my heart

my love, what is wrong?

tell me, who you love?

my love, what is wrong?

tell me, who you love?

liking you is my secret

the depth is like 100,000 meters under the ocean

i appreciate the tranquility of sunrises and sunsets

loving the sky whilst deeply loving you

everything beautiful, come for ya

all of my love also, come for ya

baby this is my gift to you

only want to keep you in the bottom of my heart

everything beautiful, come for ya

all of my love also, come for ya

baby this is my gift to you

only want to keep you in the bottom of my heart

#interpretation #translation #for ya

這就是愛嗎？

are you certain that this is love?

do you really love me?

hand in hand, strolling into the sunset -- acting like this is romance.

two people looking into the distance,

thinking it's love's warmth and clarity.

when i turn to look back, though

my eyes are already blurred with tears.

when the rays of sunset morph into starlight; when love changes directions

you've always been so nervous about love.

but what about the future?

not knowing what's to come tomorrow always makes me hesitant.

who will give me the strength?

i'm not afraid that you don't love me.

only afraid that you think you love me.

holding me tight doesn't mean you have me;

you've never learned to let go.

i'm not afraid that you don't understand how to love me.

only afraid that you've perceived habit as love.

you can't see through what i desire.

two people looking into the distance,

thinking it's love's warmth and clarity.

when i turn to look back, though

my eyes are already blurred with tears.

when the rays of sunset morph into starlight; when love changes directions

you've always been so nervous about love.

but what about the future?

not knowing what's to come tomorrow always makes me hesitant.

who will give me the strength?

i'm not afraid that you don't love me.

only afraid that you think you love me.

holding me tight doesn't mean you have me;

you've never learned to let go.

i'm not afraid that you don't understand how to love me.

only afraid that you've perceived habit as love.

you can't see through what i desire.

i'm not afraid that you don't love me.

only afraid that you think you love me.

holding me tight doesn't mean you have me;

you've never learned to let go.

i'm not afraid that you don't understand how to love me.

only afraid that you've perceived habit as love.

you can't see through what i desire.

oh you can't see through what i desire.

#interpretation #translation #這就是愛嗎

i am feeling the urge to 割 myself

i feel so alone, and it seems wrong to feel that way when i'm supposed to be in a happy relationship. this is the age-old conundrum of if it's just a road bump or an ominous sign of poisoned roots. i want to believe it's just a road bump, but it's hard to feel that way when it seems like the road is eternally bumpy.

i know it's not the case, but it feels like you've abandoned me to get high. you say that you feel overwhelmed and that you need an escape and that you need a night to yourself, but what are you referring to? other than this (us), i fail to see what is causing you so much stress. unless it's just me because you feel like i'm always on your case, but in that case, it's still just us.

i don't understand why you're staying in a situation that is supposedly causing you so much stress. you've said why -- apparently it's because this is what you want: to be better and to be with me. but even though that's what comes out of your mouth, it doesn't feel that way. i feel miserable having to be on your case. do you think that doesn't cause me stress? it causes me an ungodly amount of stress, and yet, it shouldn't be something I have to stress about.

i'm scared for sunday because i feel like all that's waiting for me is disappointment. i'm gonna ask you what you've thought about, and you'll say something about how you understand why i feel the way i feel and that you know i have a lot on my plate. i'm going to ask you if you washed the cushion covers or swept the floors or thought about actionable solutions you can take to ensure the problems we've discussed are mitigated (since you don't like what I suggest) and you're gonna say no...

and then i'm going to feel the soul crushing disappointment that is eventually going to make me feel absolutely sick to my stomach and i'm gonna spill all my thoughts to you and you'll reassure me that it's all valid, and that i'm right, and that you'll try to be better. this will give me momentary relief and perhaps even a glimmer of hope before i feel deflated again because it's something i know all too well, if not habitual. i'll even tell you this -- that i feel like it's been a repeated occurrence -- and you'll just feel really bad the way you do and say you don't know what to do either.

and after a heartfelt back-and-forth, we will call it resolved because we are tired of fighting and you've convinced me that everything is fine now because you're going to try! and change! and that things are getting better!

each time we have the same conversation, i feel like i'm screaming into a bigger and bigger void. at first, it felt like talking into a cup phone. you were there and could hear me, but not clearly. then, it felt like talking into a cup phone with a broken string. you were there, but you didn't hear me. and then, it felt like i was talking out loud to an empty room. and then, i was screaming in the empty room, feeling crazy and sad and desperate, and you definitely aren't there anymore.

and then, i'll continue drowning myself and tearing myself apart to be with you and love you because that's what i do. i'm selfish and cruel and stupid and i don't know how to let go of anything because of my arrogance that i can do the impossible.

this feels like the manifestation of my deepest darkest thoughts and i don't know what i'm supposed to do with them. a logical person might say -- this is a sign you should end things. however, the thought of ending things seems even darker so it feels like an impasse.

未來

I always wonder if I'm doing the right thing, whether it's career or life-related. How do people grapple with the feeling of uncertainty regarding the future?

I'm afraid of the passage of time revealing all the mistakes I've unknowingly made, with no way to rectify any of it.

I'm afraid of one day waking up and realizing how unhappy I am and being able to pinpoint all the times where I should have made a different decision.

I'm afraid of one day waking up and realizing how unhappy I am and being unable to pinpoint where everything started going wrong and feeling like I've made an absolute mess of my life.

I'm so afraid of being unhappy.

他

嗯。。。最近我認識了一個人。他雖然不是我平常喜歡的類型，我其實蠻意外的很喜歡他。雖然我們很快就在一起了，我覺得目前為止我真的可以看到未來的可能性。

說不定我之前考慮的點不是我應該注重的。因為雖然他沒有符合一些我從此以來覺得非要不可的一些點，我真的覺得我能看得到之後可以走的長久的畫面。

他真的對我很好。我沒辦法想像跟他在一起會不開心。當然，在一起久了一定會有 “下” 的時候，但我並不覺得會不開心。我只會覺得是一段感情的起起伏伏，酸甜苦辣，然後那些經歷只會變成以後可以一起回想的記憶。

不管怎麼樣，我很高興能認識到他，也很感謝他對我的好。

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