âDo I look to be in the mood to make jokes? Also, while I did, and still do admit fault to what occurred, I admonish myself for the actions I took. You should be very aware of the concept that time doesnât stop, even if you donât actively participate with itâs flow. I was, and still am incapable of tapping into a grand majority of my power, so power is not something I have at my disposal to tap into. I was and still am lacking the will power to preform my role to itâs fullest. I never felt I could become as well established as you were, or as self disciplined as you. Even more so, I felt I lacked the proper personality to be useful to anyone. Lucky for abilities of my caliber to not land in the wrong hands, unlucky because nothing is done with them that is meaningful. If weâre going to crack jokes, Iâm the biggest joke time has witnessed come about.â he crossed his arms.
He had a feeling Aeon wanted that answer for why Iora pressed the button. Was it tomfoolery that backfired? To Iora, he is a fool so when has anything he done not been considered tomfoolery, and when has anything he done not backfired. âSince you seem to be trying to suss the answer out, it was my idiocy in being naive. âWhatâs the worst that could happenâ. Obviously I donât need a lecture on consequences, I was there to witness it.â He was firm but continued.Â
âWhatâs the worst that can happen to someone who seems to always have it so together and under controlled even when things arenât? Because the worst that can happen to someone naive and broken is just more despair. Curiosity killed the cat, and there isnât any satisfaction. Tomfoolery that backfired thanks to impulsiveness, lack of maturity, and naivety. Satisfied with my jokes?â Satisfied with how much of joke he was?Â
Iora shook his head. âChildlike jealousy and curiosity shouldnât be the course of action of decisions, especially when Iâm on self destructive paths, and though you want me to stop apologizing; Iâm sorry for my actions and allowing for what occurred to happen. It was horrendous of me and you didnât deserve it.â
Iora certainly had been truthful about self-anguish, as he was still in the midst of it. At least heâd moved on from apologizing over things that could not undo, which was what Aeon had found most annoying in this discussion. This was a new side to Iora for him to see. The Time Spirit usually appeared so carefree and childlike in his manners that Aeon wouldnât have guessed at this insecurity and inferiority complex. He may have learned of it had he ever asked the Councilman of Emotion, but heâd never cared for the emotional side of things unless it was of direct use to him.
Aeon let him ramble on to get it out of his system in peace, taking the chance to really understand what went on in his head. Had Iora absolute faith in Aeon to make it out alive in that situation? Did the summon spirit see him as so powerful that nothing would bring him lasting harm? Despite the previous request not to, Iora had one last bout of heartfelt apologies for Aeon. The former time guardian gave him a moment to ensure he was truly done with his ramblings.Â
âFirst, you are not a joke. You are capable of more than you think you are and are every bit of capable as I once was. Time can still turn your childishness and inexperience into wisdom and knowledge, more so once you temper your determination.Â
âSecond, Iâm sorry to have failed your expectations by dying is such a humiliating way.â He stepped away from the counter and placed a hand on Ioraâs head. His tone was softer and quieter than it had ever been. âI believe you when you say you didnât think I would die from it.
âNow, you wanted to speak about me becoming your knight?â
It was strange, just this conversation has caused much of his anger and hostility towards everything to start dissipating.Â