New Moon Ritual (long post 1)
I have been very up-front with the fact that I am still a learning, researching occultist.Ā I donāt like the idea of anyone pretending they have a stranglehold on the truth... in anything, especially in things that are so hard to prove.Ā I like looking at rituals as attempts and the real merit of them being in the end result.
Of course there are real benefits to the power of belief, Iām not arguing against that.Ā Iām the kind of person that wants to be a skeptic until the end.Ā Having the truth show itself to me matters more than just sayingĀ āWell this is what I believe, so.. thatās that.ā
That being said, I believe that I did get actual results from the ritual I performed on the New Moon this month just.. not the kind of results I was expecting.
First, the ritual I performed was a variation on theĀ āLetter Methodā of summoning that can be found on the internet.Ā I read several stories about it and what others had experienced and wanted to give it an attempt myself.Ā You can find variations of this ritual with a simple google search so I wonāt worry much with details here, but let me say that given my experience the rituals that you can find are incomplete.Ā This isnāt a surprise, complete rituals are probably something that are heavily protected.
In any case, the quick run down is that I invoked Lilith through an Italian prayer (translated) that I feel a connection to.Ā I wrote a heart-felt and honest letter and burned it (while worrying that my fire alarm would go off).Ā I gave my offering and meditated.Ā Completely normal so far.Ā And just as I had read before I did feel the presence of an entity.Ā I felt wind rushing, I saw one of my candles burning and whipping around while the other burned peacefully.Ā I even directed the feeling of being touched to different extremities and it worked (my ear, my hand, etc).Ā We can discuss whether or not that is a legit experience later.. but for now it fit the bill.
After a while I respectfully closed the ritual, thanked those involved and went to bed pretty pleased with myself.Ā When I woke up the next morning my body ached and I could hardly move.Ā My back was locked up, I had a massive headache and I was dehydrated.Ā Now, there are two ways to look at that!Ā Either I was sitting or slept in a bad position (which I kind of doubt, I always meditate in the same position on the same pillow and I slept fine), or the physical strain of the ritual was more than I expected.Ā If we agree to go along with the second option itās kind of disheartening honestly.Ā I donāt feel like I did -that- much, but I definitely felt like I had paid the price for my metaphysical exertion.
Hereās the biggest kicker, this one I canāt exactly explain away.Ā For the next day or two, while I was suffering from the muscle fatigue and trying to get back to normal, I could not taste any sweet tastes.Ā I felt like something had been taken away from me.Ā I have a solid sweet tooth and I enjoy my treats, but it was like eating plastic.
Now I have feelings about the why of this, and I have spoken with a friend of mine who is much further along in her path who helped me understand some of this.Ā Iāll be doing another post on this soon to expand on some of my thoughts and what her perspective of it was, but I think this post has gone on long enough.
Thank you for reading.Ā As a final thought for now, though, please take care to know your own limits.Ā Ritual summoning is, as many have said, an entirely new skill and letās say that it quite literally flexes new muscles if your case is anything like mine.Ā We canāt grow without trying and because of that I donāt regret this attempt at all, but knowing what I do now my next ritual will be of an entirely different make-up and caliber.
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