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everything i've ever wanted to say...

[robertorosaz]

Jasper, Alberta, Canada - 24.09.2016

[strawberrysunlights-oldacc-deac]

the office is such a stupid show i love it so much

[vegan-yums]

Antipasti bread salad / Recipe

[crazypsychotic]

Life is too serious these days and sometimes I wish I had just ran to Spain when I had the chance. The life of society is not one for me & I just wish there was another option

[crazypsychotic]

My romantic, erratic heart is too much for reality. There’s no such thing as a love that grabs you by the head so intensely every time you meet and kisses you with so much intensity their eyes pierce your soul and fills your body with electricity that lasts for days on end....

A love that yearns for the crazy, careless adventures we had when we fell in love. I want to run through nature like my love ran for you. Whimsical, breathtaking and ended all too quickly.

[crazypsychotic]

You say we have a future but your eyes and ears gloss over when I speak of one.

[vodkakilledtheteen]

I should’ve listened to my mother when she warned me that your words were going to smell like daisies for months, but one day you’ll grow tired of me and make me feel like my heartbeat was stolen, and given to someone else.

Alexa Evangelista, notes from my mother

[crazypsychotic]

One of the worst parts about social media is you can post anything but as soon as you post feelings of despair or sadness or feeling lost in the world.... it just seems dramatic & attention seeking. If it’s okay to post about having good days why we be more open about having bad days. I wish I could post an instagram story saying “My world is collapsing. I will get through this but right now, it doesn’t feel like it. I feel all alone.”

[crazypsychotic]

All my worst fears have come true.

I know now in my heart I don’t know how to love. I’m suffocating. I’m feared. I’m erratic. I’m unstable.

I literally planned out my actions that need to be stopped to make it seem like it was all a joke.

Like I’m not scared of losing him.... but I am. And somehow that’s not healthy. It’s not healthy to want to spend every day with him. It’s not healthy to plan every future plan around him. It’s not... healthy?

Should I then be living like he’s not going to be in the future? Should I let him leave and come as he pleases? Is he afraid of me? I would be if I was him.

You begin to think of everything you planned because of him & wonder if it’s all a lie.

I will no longer ask about engagements and weddings and our house. But why do I feel like that’s what he wants? How do I not know hes not in love with me like he use and he doesn’t even know it yet.

He always tells me he is and he gets angry when I question it but now I’m questioning why that is.

Does he fear being called a liar and wants so badly not to be? Or does he love me. Does he just want to breathe a little more. Yes, just more breathing.

This is the same man that I spent over a year just waiting for and dreaming for and hoping he would look into my eyes and see that I was screaming inside that I loved him and now I can’t stop saying I love him and thinking of him and dreaming of our time together and now I need.. to calm down. To slow down. To trust him. To let him be. I guess I should do the same. You know.... just. be.

[crazypsychotic]

Beginning to realize how alone I am.....

[best-of-memes]

[saintsideways]

this one’s a keeper

[1-800-i-love-you]

I have queued this since June 19th

[aggravatedvincevaughn]

Me as a husband

[thatsthat24]

[beskt]

Hands by Horacio Quiroz

[onlinegirl420]

me on the first day of september

[cestvibe]

[crazypsychotic]

I’ve just always wanted to be a mom and raise my kids on a farm and be able to focus loving my life but I’m in a world where 2 people must work 40+ a week just to get by and you begin to think about what your future will be like and it’s just not the world I want to live in.

[allthingseurope]

Thassos Island, Greece (by Yonka Evren)

[quotemadness]

“There are days that must happen to you.”

— Walt Whitman