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June 7th

Thinking tomorrow will be the day I finally show Mel the video Freddy sent me of her with that guy she lies about, the other part of me is thinking of not doing it as well. I'm so conflicted now that everything is all messed up, I'm so nervous in my decision

golden-autumn

The betrayal over and over and over again years and years same shit, I'm so hurt it's a constant hot knife in my head my chest my arms my legs over and over again. Every person just uses me over and over again, I try so hard but I've and over and over again. Every single relationship is just use use use always about them males feelings don't matter. IV been cheated in IV been beat IV been lied too IV been used over and over and over again. Proven is very and over again I just can't trust anyone it's constant. Being transparent wether it hurts you or not I'm always going too be transparent, why do relationships always have too be some secret too hurt the other over and over again. Over and over and over. Figuring out why I have too be used and beaten and taking all the pain over and over and over again.

Finding myself just waiting for a apology that will never happen