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25+. FFXIV ultimate raider, writer, other stuff sometimes. battling a 20-year-long hyperfixation and losing

[crimsonwaltzz]

about

keiji, they/them, adult. vaguely queer (genderfluid/acespec if it matters). was probably there when the scrolls were written. i’m probably not following you back if you’re under 25 it’s nothing personal

multifandom (currently genshin, tes, bg3, ffxiv) but i tend to really hyperfixate on one thing at a time. sometimes i draw (i will post this once in a blue moon). twice-ish per year i cosplay (i may become a sewing blog during those months). when i’m possessed enough i write (here’s my Ao3)

each of my fics written in 2025-onward have their own tags for sorting if you ever want to see The Process (current WIP: a faelight multi-chapter and a biiiig character study of Lohen and Theodore. If you’re looking for my other fics from 2025 they’re currently in private collection jail until I decide to re-release them)

if i’m not writing i’m probably raiding in ffxiv. flex player, multi-legend, here’s tomestone for the numbies. my tag for prog is #tetsu prog log, but if you wanna see me be a criminal check out #tetsu clipshow. my characters are Tetsuroko “Tetsu” Kuroaki and Ghiradel “Mr Caramell” Caramell. Currently reprogging TEA, dabbling in UMAD PF when I have time

[ven04ka]

zag is so silly

[crimsonwaltzz]

personal rant

my flavor of autism + anxiety is the actual fucking worst I think. can’t accept praise very well so I’m so deeply not used to positive connections that I fear commitment and getting too close to people so I’m standoffish but not because I dislike people, I actually CRAVE interaction and connection but it scares the shit out of me because I genuinely do not know how to maintain it. Then because I don’t know how to maintain personal relationships I get seen as deeply off-putting and intimidating which makes people not want to talk to me but I’m sitting here BEGGING for people to just talk to me and tell me what I’m doing wrong because I DON’T KNOW because they won’t TELL ME and it’s this stupid vicious cycle of wanting to be loved but fearing being perceived and not knowing how to ask for it but scaring people away and I’m just so. lost. all the time. I can’t go outside for fear of fucking dying because I have agoraphobia, making friends as an adult is already so fucking hard and the most Normal way to do it is with The Apps but I don’t want any expectation of a sexual relationship from those I just want FRIENDS who I can talk to and be myself around and don’t misconstrue my lifelong praise-deficiency and flat voice as me being judgmental and nasty because I really do love Everyone but it always feels like no one wants Me back

[crimsonwaltzz]

I just want to sleep today why can’t I just sleep for the entire day and not a million house chores and another hospital visit and grocery shopping and then raid (which I don’t want to go to at all, frankly) I just want to sleep for another 6 hours at least, wake up deep into the afternoon, and write my stupid fic in peace

[crimsonwaltzz]

I have to be up in like 5 hours but now I’m Crying because rejection sensitivity do be like that so I doubt I’m sleeping any time soon so like, what if I just throw away my whole week of being so good about going to bed at a reasonable hour and waking up by 7am. what if I just go do that because I want to drown the Bad Feeling (and hope my mom’s surgery actually fucking happens tomorrow because insurance is doing Some Bullshit at the last possible fucking second because I live in the US and insurance companies are evil)

[cw9sq]

[crimsonwaltzz]

nothing like finding out that for the last year my static lead has hated the way I talk and only just now decided to lecture me that I need to “watch my tone”.. dawg that’s just my voice

[crimsonwaltzz]

doing delivery work is usually really chill and easy but then there’s two extremes that are almost equally annoying:

- customer orders something and then won’t answer their phone when there’s something you need answered and you’re locked out of their gated community just Waiting and there’s nothing you can do about it (if you order something and know you live somewhere that’s blocked to normal traffic ANSWER YOUR PHONE)

- literally Will Not Stop Texting Me when I’m DRIVING with their order. I know your apartment number it’s on the delivery app! I know to leave it at the door it’s on the delivery notes! I don’t need to know your dogs and job I’m driving! Everything is fine you just live ON THE TOP FLOOR OF AN APARTMENT COMPLEX and I have to TAKE A PICTURE of your order GIVE ME A SECOND

[whalemarch]

farewell, benevolent knight

[petr-n]

[crimsonwaltzz]

a YouTube short about raccoons just popped up in my recommended feed and I opened it and was watching for a moment and then the lady mentioned specifically pygmy raccoons and I was immediately like.. is this.. is this raccoonmilf?

yes, yes it is raccoonmilf, creator of dashcon, giving me raccoon facts on YouTube

[wdarlingyap]

"But I don't like the ending/the character/the plot point. I would have done it differently."

Yes. Good. Go get a pen. This is where it begins.

[crimsonwaltzz]

bruh I had auto renew on for a subscription through the App Store and the money got taken but the price of the subscription in the app went up without updating the auto renew amount so my subscription is inactive now because it wasn’t paid in full but like… I still have to pay the updated amount in full again before I get my subscription back… so where did the money for my first payment go???

[souls4polls]

How long have you been writing fanfiction??

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Voting ended on21h

Feel free to reblog for other people to vote. DO NOT SEND HATE TO ANYONE FOR WHAT THEY VOTED. This is merely for fun and to see what people genuinely think.

[crimsonwaltzz]

I’ve had this long-running teapot project for the last couple years (started it during Fontaine) where I’m making like a Teyvat Museum — each interior area is themed for a different region, and I always put the special quest/smaller event furnitures in the rooms as mementos (so you can imagine how I lost my shit when we got the Temple of Space which is.. basically Asmoday’s Museum of Teyvat) but I have NO idea what the best teapot environment is for the final product as I move to doing the outdoor areas, especially since I have to prep an area for Snezhnaya now… I’ve been on the Fontaine one for a while because the mansion is really nice and symmetrical but you don’t have to use the matching main building in any layout, and you can change the interior floors and walls if you own the other ones anyway (and they’re craftable otherwise). I’m debating using the Nod-Krai layout and skipping the Nod-Krai dedicated outdoor area but mannnn this teapot shit is hard. It’s too big but I also need more space because how am I supposed to fit 7 nations into 4 outdoor zones UGH

[crimsonwaltzz]

proof that I’m 30: mad that my neighbors’ music is so loud while I’m trying to go to sleep because I have work in the morning (it is 9pm)

[anneapocalypse]

Opinions on rez macros in FFXIV! (aka macros that drop a message in the chat that you are in the process of resurrecting a specific player, for the purpose of alerting other rezzers, or just expressing yourself.)

Do you like it when healers use rez macros, or not?

Please read all the options, and share in tags or replies why you picked your answer if you like.

Rez mancros: yay or nay?

Yay! (Healer main)

Yay! (Red Mage or Summoner main)

Yay! (Other)

Neutral. (Healer main)

Neutral. (Red Mage or Summoner main)

Neutral. (Other)

Nay. (Healer main)

Nay. (Red Mage or Summoner main)

Nay. (Other)

Voting ended onJul 8