Wasting All My Young Years

"Everything happens for a reason"

[deseos-de-la-via-lactea]

[marvelsocialmedia]

[crispybeardnut]

Now i want one lol🐇🦆

[dovecameron-updates]

dovecameron

there’s something inherently dishonest feeling about photographing sad moments because we are trained to think that its performative, but in an age where we photograph everything, all the time, and only ever show the things that make us look like we are living the ideal life, where does that leave us? what is most honest? the psychological implications of dismissing pain and suffering as “not worthy, too ugly, unwanted, boring, to be kept away” is unbelievably damaging and has left us in a dangerous communication with our brain, our private selves.

i have struggled with depression for more than half my life. my anxiety is unmanageable and never gives me a moment of rest. my trauma runs me and everything i do, and i am in a constant battle to not lose myself to it. my self hatred runs deep. i feel so disconnected from humans and the true parts of myself that most days i am going through the motions of what i know other people want me to be and do and i don’t even feel like i’m living a life. i think everybody that i love is going to die at all times because too many people have. my body is in a constant state of pain under the stress.

i think that if i had less of a following i would be more comfortable sharing this. the bigger my following gets, the more trapped i feel in my image and the quieter my reality gets. i know people don’t want to hear about this stuff. it’s not nice and it’s uncomfortable. maybe this is a selfish impulse in me. but every public aspect of my life has begun to feel performative and i need to alleviate myself from that. i haven’t been ok for a long time. i have faith that i will be. i work at that daily.

if you don’t give a single fuck about this or me, that is fine because this isn’t for anyone but me, really. but if this helps you feel less alone in your depression, trauma, anxiety, pain, or loneliness, i’m grateful. i hope that i can begin to love these parts of me instead of compulsively hiding them away out of self hatred and judgment and because i’m secretly afraid that i don’t belong here and i need to break my back to earn my place because the things in me are ugly.

creating space for myself and a life that works for me

[crispybeardnut]

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[sersi]

HAYLEY ATWELL as Peggy Carter MARVEL ONE-SHOT: AGENT CARTER (2013) dir. Louis D’Esposito

[iyimibole]

[khoriepanda-deactivated20150507]

Everyone just keep in mind, this man did this. There was no green screen, there was no padding. and he didn’t even flinch when the wall from the first gif hit his arm as it came down.

[thekinofpumps]

Buster Keaton appreciation post.

[queendecuisine]

Buster Keaton is that dude

[makesmeadumbhuman]

Buster Keaton had his shoes nailed to the ground for that wall gif to make sure he didn’t involuntarily flinch/move because like OP said- he did these things. No green screens, no padding, no stunt men. Just him, doing his thing.

[thebookquotes]

I wish that photographs were physical spaces, like tunnels; that you could crawl inside them and go back.

— Lauren Oliver, Vanishing Girls

[stay-close]

My only relief is to sleep. When I'm sleeping, I'm not sad, I'm not angry, I'm not lonely, I'm nothing.

— Jillian Medoff, Hunger Point

[dovecameron-updates]

[dovesource]

DOVE CAMERON Photographed for Puss Puss Magazine (July 2020)

[crispybeardnut]

What a queen😍

[fluffygif]

a life of a rose 🌹 by balazsbercsenyi

[crispybeardnut]

Circle of life🌹🥀

[peterismymans]

I think we can all agree

[crispybeardnut]

Honestly 😂🤦😍

[hayaosmiyazaki]

What makes you so special?  Nothing. I’m just a kid from Brooklyn.

HAPPY 102ND BIRTHDAY STEVEN GRANT ROGERS ↦ JULY 4 1918

[crispybeardnut]

😍

[vortexsophia-deactivated2022110]

[geekygothgirl]

I don’t know what we did to deserve Mr. Rogers but I’m so glad we had him. 

[snkatcher]

Happy thursday everyone

[crispybeardnut]

😂💃

[malviesbitch]

“Many people have the heart to give back, but a lot don’t know how to. I try to be the bridge for those people – whether that means getting them involved in one of my campaigns or inspiring them by showing them a blueprint of how to get others engaged,” — Cameron Boyce

- happy birthday, cam  ♡ (may 28th, 1999)

[crispybeardnut]

Happy Birthday angel👼💙

[peterismymans]

TOO HOT TO HANDLE 🥵

[crispybeardnut]

🤤