something about love

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[crowded-hearts]

day 49

is it bad that i still hope

to go back to how things were

even though we’ve changed and drifted

i can’t stand and watch it all burn

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day 48

starting to forget

every detail of your face

and this hurts the most

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day 47

the first time ever

i’m comfortable in myself

i ask, will this last?

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day 46

stop looking at me

the same way that you used to

i cannot stay strong

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day 45

can’t even think what to say

you show me up every time

i’m losing count of every way

and i can’t help but pine

after you sometimes

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day 44

on this day, 7 years ago

you turned to me, open, honest

we laid our souls bare together

and we both made a promise

instead on this day today,

i contemplate life and love

existence, experiences

heartache, grief and those above

facing the loss of loved ones

all in one terrible day

brings realisations, wake up calls

never enough time until they go away

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day 43

during the darkest times

i still turn to you

you’re the only one

who knows, understands

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day 42

i throw myself into everything

overworked, overtired

but i can’t forget you

because i see you in everything

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day 41

everyone’s so concerned about you

but what can i do about that?

i had to leave, i was drowning in worry

but now it feels like i’ve left you trapped

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day 40

i keep thinking back to that night

you were so close, right there next to me

yet lightyears away, back turned

we keep dancing around each other

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day 39

i wanted to be wanted

but only wanted by you

needed you like stars need the sky

but i can shine on my own too

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day 38

i can’t help but think back to that night

that way you looked up at me and smiled

it felt intense but maybe i was drunk, or high

were you thinking the same thing as i?

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day 37

strong hands, gentle eyes

when you look at me like that

i can’t help but hide

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day 36

almost 7 years since we first met

more than a month since our last kiss

isn’t 7 a lucky number?

must not be with everything i miss

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day 35

saw you again for the first time

more than a month has passed

we shared a bed “as friends”

tense from all the questions unasked

top and tail like small sardines

lay there wondering as you slept

have you felt the same as i have,

though guarded as we reconnect?

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day 34

slowly starting to forget

until it starts hurting again

remember everything

up until our own end

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day 33

my chest has been slashed open

the gash in my lungs is weeping

but water still is getting in

somehow bleeding out while drowning